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A Swift Kick in the Buttocks

Monday, October 14, 2013

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Sometimes, that is exactly what I need.

It has been almost 2 weeks since I have been on Spark. Not because I didn't want to be here but because I had no mental energy to be here.

Depression sucks; plain and simple.

I knew I was overeating. I knew I wasn't tracking. I knew I wasn't getting in just the bare minimum of exercise. I wasn't reading my Sparkmail. I didn't track my goals. I didn't read in my book.

Depression sucks.

I wish I could find that one person who will notice when I'm not here and text me, (because let's face it, I'm not reading an email either so that wouldn't work). Who will see that I've been absent and give me that swift kick in the butt. Some one who will be stern with me and help me during my depression pits.

I'm thankful that this past episode only lasted 2 weeks.

I am thankful for new beginnings.

I am thankful for a place where I can go that others have "been there, done that".

I am thankful that this hiatus does not define me.

I am thankful that I can still be redeemed.

But please, don't feel scared to give me that swift kick in the buttocks from time to time.

Seriously.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

URBANAUDREYE 10/15/2013 10:22PM

    I more than likely would have noticed you gone MIA, but I've been pretty AWOL myself. Had the baby last week so this is only the second time I've managed to get on the computer in the past 11 days.

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DELIA38961 10/14/2013 10:30PM

    you are right depression does suck emoticon my last episode was in august and it lasted all month so I know exactly how you feel...im glad you feel better now emoticon

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ELIZABETHBECK1 10/14/2013 10:26PM

    I did get dressed today. I showered around 3pm. Sigh. But at least I DID get dressed today, right? Starting back on Trazadone tonight

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STEVEN_D 10/14/2013 8:14AM

    Depression does suck. My most recent bout I have turned inward on myself and was really able to use that burdening energy as physical energy to get out and move. I don't know how or why, it just happened, like i turned it to personal anger and I could then burn it off. Swift kicks I once wanted to motivate me in college, and I think mine was from parents. It helps to have an accountability friend, but you have to be willing to respond. Hope you are pushing thru and getting things done this week.

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SUPER_ACE115 10/14/2013 5:36AM

    emoticon At least it was only 2 weeks. Hopefully next time it will be less time. Just don't give up. It's not about falling... be worried when you fall and don't get back up. emoticon emoticon

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Don't Give Up

Saturday, October 05, 2013



  


I am on the mountain top

Saturday, September 28, 2013



I've been training for a 5k. I've been trying so hard. I run/walk intervals. I sweat. My legs ache. My lungs burn.

And I finally had a pay off!

I shed 13 minutes off my time tonight

Did you hear that?

I shed 13 whole minutes off my time! I didn't know that was possible. Especially this early in my training.

When I was done I was drenched in sweat and my legs twitched but none of that mattered.

My heart was soaring! I felt like I was on top of the world. I even gave myself a big ol' smile! I kept saying, "I did it. I really did it!" I'm still in shock and I have told everyone I can. (without bragging too much) If it wasn't 10 pm I would probably go run some more; a victory lap or two.

Now my goal is to shed 7 more minutes off my time. You can bet your bottom dollar that I will "Shout if from the mountain top!" when I reach it! emoticon

  
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URBANAUDREYE 9/29/2013 1:18AM

    Keep it up!

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MONTIKARLA 9/28/2013 11:03PM

    That is awesome! Congrats!

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KLDJSURVEY 9/28/2013 10:01PM

    good

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CAROL494 9/28/2013 10:00PM

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I will Not be Mastered!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

1 Corinthians 6:12 - "12 ‘I have the right to do anything,’ you say – but not everything is beneficial. ‘I have the right to do anything’– but I will not be mastered by anything."

My Bible study really spoke to me today. Food is not my master!

  
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JAROL7 9/26/2013 10:35AM

    This is SO true!!!! It includes my Spark Goa. I am in day #49 and every one on target except one. That day I ate very healthy food but just too much of it and it took me a full week of being faithful to all of my goals to recover the error.

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I love this poem by Edmund Cooke - helps me - thought I'd share:

Saturday, September 14, 2013

Did you tackle that trouble that came your way
With a resolute heart and cheerful?
Or hide your face from the light of day
With a craven soul and fearful?
Oh, a trouble's a ton, or a trouble's an ounce,
Or a trouble is what you make it,
And it isn't the fact that you're hurt that counts,
But only how did you take it?

You are beaten to earth? Well, well, what's that?
Come up with a smiling face.
It's nothing against you to fall down flat,
But to lie there -- that's disgrace.
The harder you're thrown, why the higher you bounce;
Be proud of your blackened eye!
It isn't the fact that you're licked that counts,
It's how did you fight -- and why?

And though you be done to the death, what then?
If you battled the best you could,
If you played your part in the world of men,
Why, the Critic will call it good.
Death comes with a crawl, or comes with a pounce,
And whether he's slow or spry,
It isn't the fact that you're dead that counts,
But only how did you die?

  
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OLIVIANIGHT 9/16/2013 8:20AM

    Oh wow, I like that!

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MOMMY2MADILYN 9/14/2013 11:35PM

    Very Awesome poem! Thank you for sharing it with us, the words and thoughts are beautiful!!

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TREATL 9/14/2013 7:10PM

    This poem really speaks to me. Thanks for sharing.

Lynne

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MJRVIC2000 9/14/2013 6:55PM

    I cried cause I had no shoes until I saw a man who had no feet. God Bless YOU! Vic.

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