I am finding things very hard going at the moment (I am a happy sort of person really ), it is over 3 weeks since Michael last had a proper meal or even got up. I am finding it so tiring as he as regular goes at me (not being tidy enough, going out too much) and has regular tantrums about about all sorts of small things(road signs, fireworks, to name just 2).
I have not done much myself apart from Wednesday craft group and going to MIND on Tuesday to see a befriender. Sorry I have not been in touch with my sparkpals but you are all great friends and this helps me lots.
It seems to be as if everything is just one big struggle. Michael is low again but he is only staying up a week. I have been told to see my GP but don't know what she can do, I know it is partly my fault but I don't think I can change. Trying to tidy all my craft stuff (so I can keep busy) but I am not an organised sort of person but hate things to be in a mess. We are having a fashion show on Friday Night (organised by a craft group friend) looking forward to it but thing I will give in to Michael if he has a tantrum. I have not have had much chance to get on the computer recently.
I have a good morning at school but done hardly anything since I came home.
Michael did not go away so no surprise there, which, means it has not been that good a week and apart from art group yesterday not really done much. I am looking forward to Saturday as I am going to the NCE in Birmingham for a craft show but Michael sometimes causes trouble at these times as he does not like being on his own, while I understand this I also need something to help keep me going.
It is bonfire night tonight, I don't mind this but some of the fireworks are very loud and they repeat for up to 12 times, the yobs and louts have been letting the of for the last couple of weeks but it is not as bad as past years.
It has not been a good week as Michael spent is 2nd week in bed, tomorrow he should have been going away for a few days, all paid for but he won't be going, it was not far away so if things were really bad he could have come back but he won't even try.
I have not done that well on the Weight Watchers side either as for several weeks now I have hovered at the 14 pound mark, I don't really want to give up but if it goes on for much longer I think I shall have to. I am doing my best to keep to the points and include plenty of fruit and veg, I also try and have a daily walk of about 2-2 and half miles plus walking to the shops so don't know what else I could do.
Today has been awful as it rained most of the morning and it has been windy all day so not really had the opportunity to go out much. I have been making christmas Cards and I am going to write a letter while I watch TV as I like to try and keep busy.
I have had a lazy afternoon as I went shopping in Sutton-in-Ashfield this morning, it makes a change and it is cheaper as there is an Asda there(Walmart to the US readers), I go on the community bus as it takes you straight there instead of around the houses.
Michael is just the same as usual but I am trying very hard not to let it get to me, they say it is going to rain tomorrow but if it does not I shall go a walk(trying to do one daily but I am failing). Don't think there is much else to say as it has been a boring week.