Monday, September 07, 2009
Michael is back down low again, His up time did not even last a week but he did not give in until Sunday evening.
We are suppose to be doing a relaxation course tomorrow but this may not happen, I have change my school day to Thursday just in case but if we do not do that I may go to a drawing class I cannot draw but you never know.
I am doing my best to stay on track with my diet but it is not easy, I cooked myself a tomato and courgette dish that had canelloni beans in with cheese on top and it was very nice. Evenings are my worst time as When Michael is like this I sometimes feel lonely ( any tips welcomed), I try my best to keep busy (writing letters, sewing, reading and watching TV) but it does not always work.
I worry about my mum (she is 77 ) quite a bit she lives about 30 miles away and I don't always see her very often, we do not get on very well with her partner who is about 10 years older. I do not drive and buses are difficult as I would have to catch 3 buses to get to her house and it would take all day to get there and back ( Michael does not like being left on his own and can have tantums, he is also very childish when low). My parents separated when I was 14 and I stayed with my dad which did not please mum and I still don't find it easy to talk to her.