Wednesday, November 12, 2014
I am doing the happy dance! I made it to my first goal, AND I'm back in the 130s now, which I haven't seen on my scale since before my kids were born, I think. TEN YEARS AGO.
Of course, I still have a ways to go (7 more pounds) if I want to be in the healthy BMI range, which I DO, so this is just a momentary celebration. And the holidays are coming up. YIKES. But I do think I'm developing some better habits and shedding some bad ones, like:
-- getting enough sleep ! SO IMPORTANT!
-- eating more fruit! Bananas, clementines, I love you!
-- not eating crap before bed!
-- making better choices at restaurants, even Mexican restaurants! chicken taco, hello-oo! spinach quesadilla, yes please! (haven't had a cheese enchilada in months!)
All my jeans are loose, people. That is what I'm telling you.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Hey, it's been A WHILE, hasn't it?!
My last post here was in May, and I was not happy. I had been on SP for 2+ years, with NO real progress. Argh. Not that it was SP's fault -- it wasn't. It was my fault. I wasn't being accountable or diligent; I'd just let myself cheat and cheat again and then wonder why I "couldn't" lose 10 pounds.
WELL, since then, my 40th birthday came and went! Happy birthday to me! My husband threw me a huge, wonderful surprise party. We bought a new house, with alllll the stress that goes with that type of life change. We had a ridiculously busy summer, including a funeral for my father in law (the week after we'd moved into our house), we kept plowing through work and kids and summer camps.... it was a lot.
By September the kids were in school and I decided this was IT. I'm 40, I MUST do this now -- I think there was an instance of having a hard time bending over, or tying my shoes, or something, because my belly was in the way... ANNNNND SAD FACE. I signed up for Weight Watchers online. My parents had been doing it for a year and had success, and I just decided that maybe if I put some cold, hard cash towards the goal, things would be different.
GUESS WHAT? I was right. I don't like to part with my money for no reason. Since September 3, I've lost 7 pounds verrrry slowly (less than a pound a week), and I'm a half-pound to my first goal weight as of today. It isn't easy. I tell people the way to lose weight is to "be hungry all the time." Just a little joke; I know that no one would recommend that, and believe me, I eat up to my daily points value and USE my weekly points! I'm still hungry. I know I could fill up on more veggies and fruits and still have good results -- but this is what I've learned: It's being more ACCEPTING of hunger. It's learning to be okay with it sometimes.
I just wanted to share with all of you who supported me when I was (kinda miserable and) unable to achieve weight loss -- thank you! And to say, never give up. When the time is right, it looks like we really CAN do this.
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
I've quit and restarted here so many times I've lost count. My first login here at SP was 2011, I think? And I've yet to lose the first 10 pounds I wanted to lose. I'm very tempted right now to delete this SP account so no one will see all those restarts.
Lately I've gotten depressed about not being able to stick to working out, and not being able to resist things like chocolate pie. I feel like, and tell myself, "I'm getting fat." Or, "I'm going to actually be fat if I don't get this under control." It's so self-destructive and mean, and yet it feels like a truth I need to face. My 40th birthday is in less than a month.
I KNOW all of the things, about "just ten minutes" and "start small" and "every day is another chance to do better," -- I write about them for my job, for heaven's sake, to motivate others, and yet I can't seem to take them to heart for myself, particularly when I'm stressed, which I have been, very much, for these reasons:
--we had to get our house ready to sell in Jan/Feb
--we sold our house in 2 days in March
--we began looking for a new house in March
--we move at the end of May and have lots of packing and organizing and stuff to do
--I still have a full-time job that is go-go-go from 7:30 to 4:30
--I still have 2 kids in the height of their school years
Several weeks ago I was convinced that if I would JUST allow myself 7 hours of sleep every night, all my problems (and pounds) would be magically solved. (I'm still wishing, actually.) But I... 'forget' to go to bed on time. My coworker, and my parents, are doing Weight Watchers and I feel like it might help me, too, but on the other hand I don't want to PAY for it, nor do I want to go in front of other people to meetings and admit I need the help (not to mention telling my husband I'm going to WW, for some reason that embarrasses me, too). My Granny did WW and I always felt sorry for her, having to do that. And she hated it. I know there's no shame in it -- I'm here telling people on the internet, after all -- but in person feels different. Would it be better for me? Maybe. But I don't know if I'm willing to do it.
I don't know where I'm going with this. I just want to do better. I WANT so much to be a healthy person, a fit person. When my husband turned 40, he started going to the gym regularly and has kept that up the last 5 years, and still going strong. I REALLY want to do the same and be proud of myself for using "40" as a jumping off point.
Friday, January 10, 2014
This week, man! It has been crazy. With the kids out of school Monday and then unexpectedly Tuesday, and me having to attend a national meeting Mon/Tues and then play catch-up the rest of the week at work... it has worn me right out.
Today it's rainy AGAIN. I am so tired of the rain.
We're supposed to have Family Movie Night tonight, and the kids are excited. It's dependent on their behavior, though. We'll see what happens. My 5yo is still testing me every chance she gets.
I could use a 60-minute massage, is what I'm saying I think.
I have managed to stay mostly within calorie goals. I'm pleased about that and I hope that I can stick with it over the weekend. I want to do a "cheat day" but I'm kind-of afraid to let myself go there. Maybe after a few weeks. Does anyone have advice about that?
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