Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Wow. I really have no words for how awful the weekend was. It was awful eating-wise, it was awful outside, and most of all, it was awful inside my head. I was just in a funk - a miserable, miserable funk.
Honestly, I was disappointed about EVERYTHING, and my mood and eating reflected that. I did a lot of eating this weekend, and I was most definitely trying to eat away my sadness and disappointment.
Yesterday proved to be a little bit better, in that my mood was better, but I was still eating like crap.
Today, I'm back at it. Last night before bed I chugged a whole lot of water and today I'm back on track with water and Kashi for breakfast. T and I are running errands this morning, but once we're back, I'm going to make some more mini quiches to have hanging around. Also, I'm swinging through the "nice" grocery store (aka, NOT the commissary) to pick up my favorite salad dressing and lettuce brand.
Last night my husband got home late and as I was sitting down with him while he ate a very late dinner, he asked what was up. Of course, I'd been asking myself that question all day, so I sat there and talked for a long time. It felt good, actually. And in the end, I'm tired. Because of my husband's work schedule, and the job that he has, he is not home often. In fact, when he accepted this job, his boss suggested that I treat it as though he is deployed...which frankly, I haven't been. I get the kids ready for school, feed them, do all the laundry, run all the errands, homework, dinner, bath time, bedtime, and dinner clean up...and I do it ALL the time. When my husband is home, he's frankly so wiped out that he spends the first day of the weekend relaxing and hanging out with the kids...as it should be.
However, I've found that the weekends are what stress me out. I'm actually okay with getting everything done, as long as I've got my schedule and routine. But when the weekend comes around, the routine gets thrown by the wayside and I come undone. Frankly, I'm worn out from getting everything done for everyone else!
Luckily, I've got some respite coming my way. On Friday after school I'm meeting my mom and the boys will spend the weekend with she and my stepfather. The kids are thrilled, my mom and stepdad are thrilled, and I am super excited. Granted, this week is pretty crazy until then, but at least there's a light at the end of the tunnel.
In the meantime, I'm seriously looking for a part-day toddler program for T to join one or two mornings a week. I just need enough time to get myself together...be it with a run by myself, or time to prepare my healthy meals and snacks without feeling like my kids are getting the short end of things.
This week, my goals are VERY basic:
Do SP yoga online x 3.
Go to bed earlier.
I'm trying to get my bearings and know this is just a bad week. My mantra for the last few days has been "just get it done." And so I am. I'm moving forward and through the bad feelings...into the beauty and calm that I *know* is ahead.
Friday, November 15, 2013
The phone rang a few minutes ago, and it was the nurse calling with my MRI results from a couple of weeks ago. I am so happy right now! As it turns out, I just have acute plantar fasciitis! Yes, it stinks and I don't like it, but it's completely reversible, and I don't have any nerve damage!! Really, it's terrific news.
Most of all, it means that I can get real about having some running goals for the spring. Namely, running the 2014 Cherry Blossom Ten Miler in early April. I am simultaneously thrilled AND relieved!
The last couple of days have been going really well. I've avoided junk (aside from the tuna melt on Wednesday) and am feeling good, plain and simple. It's amazing how much better you feel when you pay attention to how to fuel your body. For me, I've been really loving a mini-crustless veggie quiche I made in bulk earlier this week. I have one or two for breakfast and another over the course of the day. It's great protein and delicious! Of course, staying on track is easiest during the week. Now that it's Friday, I'm forming my plan of attack for the weekend.
So, in a little bit T and I will head to the grocery store to make sure that I have plenty of easy, healthy options on hand for when my family wants takeout , fast food, or donuts! That being said, we ARE having takeout tonight. However, I'm already planning on a grilled chicken salad....phew!
On my grocery list for the weekend:
Mixed baby greens
Laughing cow cheese
I figure it's better to be prepared to make good choices than overwhelmed and making bad ones. I'm feeling really good about everything right now...it's a great feeling going into the weekend!
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Yesterday my dad came over to watch my son so I could go to my first physical therapy appointment. I love being able to type that out, because this is the first time since I was eight (and I'm 33 now) that I've lived this close to my dad. It's such a thrill for me to be able to drive up to his house for lunch, or for him to be close enough that he's always offering to babysit. Most of all, I love that he and my stepmom are able to be close with my sons.
My dad and stepmom have lost a ton of weight in the last year. It's really great, and I love how supportive they are of each other, and also of me. Given that my father is a baker and pastry chef, you can imagine how difficult visiting them could be. Not wanting to completely nix delicious desserts and treats, my dad has taken to making individual portions of dessert, which was genius. Now, instead of there being an entire 9x13 pan of lemon pudding cake, he'll instead make four individual ramekins of the lemon pudding cake, and sprinkle the top with blueberries. Delicious - and smart!
At any rate, my dad came and hung out with my youngest, T so I could go to my intake appointment with my new physical therapist. It was great, because I didn't have to rush and opted to take the metro uptown. I got some walking in too, since I walked to the metro station, to the PT, and then back. I'm going to be going to the therapist twice a week for the next six weeks, and they're pretty sure that I can relearn to walk without limping. Additionally, my muscle weakness can be reversed with a few simple exercises. YAY!
After I got home, we walked to a local hole in the wall for a late lunch. I got a tuna melt, which wasn't a fantastic choice, but I thought it was better than something fried and it offered some protein. Thinking back on it, though, next time I'll pack a snack in my bag so I'm not ravenous by the time lunch rolls around. My dad headed home after that, and T and I loaded up the stroller and went to pick up my oldest, R, from school. Even though it was cold, we stayed at the schoolyard and played for an hour. We were the last ones there! It was actually a lot of fun...we played hide and seek and tag and generally ran around. What a fun way to squeeze in some fitness!
Today's a quieter day, but T and I have already been to the park and done a fair share of walking. In a little bit we're heading to the local kids consignment shop to drop off some old clothes...and maybe do a little shopping too! The one thing I really love about living in a city is how much walking I'm able to do. I still need to get a pedometer though!
I've got my meals planned for the rest of the day...fingers crossed I have another good day!
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
This weekend my family headed out to Western Pennsylvania to visit my mom and stepfather. They have a beautiful home on the side of a small mountain, and while there isn't much around out there, there's still PLENTY to do! And while we really did want to visit with my parents, we also REALLY wanted to get out of the city. Oddly enough, it was the first time that my husband left DC since we moved here over Labor Day weekend! (I've been out and about with the kids, visiting friends and family in MD and VA.)
Even though it was blustery and cold, we did plenty of playing outside and lots of running around. Then, of course, we'd head back inside, enjoy something warm to drink and then relax for a bit before we started all over again. Needless to say, my kids are wiped out!
Of course, now it's back to reality, which meant walking R to school and then calling the cable company to see who ordered a pay per view movie at 7:30 one Saturday morning (hint: not the adults in the house!) and following up with my doctor to get my MRI results. I also just made some oatmeal, because after a weekend of indulgence, I need to get back on track.
Right now, we don't have a membership to a local gym, so I'm trying to figure out how to get my cardio in. Yes, I walk my son to and from school each day, but I need to do something else as well. The cold is a real turn-off for running right now, especially since I'll need to go before my husband goes to work (at least until we get a jogging stroller - our old one broke in the move) so I'm looking for an indoor workout that will get me going. I'm thinking that maybe I'll give the 30 Day Shred a try. Truthfully, I like the workouts...I've just never made it past the first week. Maybe this is the time to try again!
I hope everyone's week is getting off to a great start!
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Well, I'm back! It's been a few months since I've done anything remotely geared toward my health and fitness, but I'm getting back to the program.
Truthfully, the last few months have been stressful and not entirely happy for me. We moved, and our move was not altogether smooth. The last time I checked in, we were living in sunny and warm Pensacola, FL, and now we've settled into our new place in Washington, DC. Needless to say, our first several weeks were riddled with stress and anxiety (Navy Yard shooting on week 2, shots fired / car crash on week 4, two school lockdowns for my son, and a government shutdown). Much of our furniture wouldn't fit up the stairs in our apartment, and I spent the first ten days of our move living with my Dad in Baltimore while driving my son to kindergarten in DC every day. (On the upside - I got a very quick lesson in riding the metro and where to find good coffee) I spent much of September in a miserable, stressed out place.
Very fortunately, October brought the end of the shutdown (and made the city and our neighborhood much happier) and a new outlook on things. I do actually enjoy living in the city, and despite a rocky start, it's pretty neat. I am doing a TON of walking. I walk my son to school each morning and walk to pick him up in the afternoon. Each day I push my youngest in the stroller to the park or the library, and our apartment has two sets of stairs, so my quads are getting their turn too! We also take walks down the National Mall after dinner a couple of times a week. Now that I think about it, I need a pedometer!
So while I'm walking a lot, I'm still dealing with residual issues from my sciatic injury over the summer. Tomorrow I go for an MRI, and hopefully my neurologist will have some answers. For now, I'm running once or twice a week for about 25 minutes. It's not a lot, but it's all my body can handle right now.
Now that the boxes are unpacked and we're all settled in, it's time that I focus back on what I need to: getting down to a happy / healthy weight.
These are my goals:
Lose 8 lbs. by Christmas
Drink 64 oz. of water each day
That's it. Once I meet my eight pound goal, then I'll tackle some bigger ones. I can't wait!
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