Friday, July 12, 2013
So it's been like *forever* since I've posted a blog!! Ok, only since January, but I'm just sayin'...
I've had so much going on recently--I got engaged to an amazing man, my best fried is getting married and asked me to be in her wedding--which is 5 hours away! I've been spending a lot of time with my mom in the nursing home since we had a "scare" not too long ago where she was admitted to the hospital's ICU and was very, very ill, I started my own business (on TOP of my full-time job!) selling fabulous Silpada jewelry, and then a mish mosh of summer baby showers, bridal showers, BBQ's, birthdays...Silpada Parties....YIKES!! Where's my wine???!!!
Details: My boyfriend of almost two years asked me to marry him on Memorial Day. We were having a BBQ and had some friends and family over. He came outside with the ring, got on one knee, said some really sweet things that made me and my BFF cry, and I said YES!! For the rest of the day, I was ecstatic...UNTIL....our Doberman puppy (9m old) ate a corn cob, got sick as could be, and had to be rushed to the Pet ER, which cost me over $800, but that's an entirely differnt story!!! LOL
As for the wedding that is faaar away---I used to live in Erie, PA back in the 90's. I moved there two months after graduating high school pretty much on a whim and with only $20 in my pocket, a bus ticket and a suitcase (I did have someone to stay with when I got there--I'm not THAT dumb...lol). That is where I met Diane. We had gotten a job at the same place and were at orientation together. The rest is history. We stuck together like glue for years but then circumstances out of my control (my mom got deathly sick) pulled me back to good 'ol Northeast PA. Of course we stayed in touch, but it just wasn't the same. We slowly drifted apart and only talked once every few months. Then about a week ago she sent me a FB message asking me to be in her wedding next July and she said, "it just wouldn't be the same without you." Yesssss....it brought me to tears. I love this girl like a sister and I've missed her so, so much. I mean, I've been to Erie to visit over the years, but we didn't always get to see each other. I'm so EXCITED! Of course, not so much over the "stiletto" type heels she wants the bridesmaids to wear but.....I'll take some comfy I-can't-stand-these-damn-high-heels-anymor
My mom is doing so much better. See, she smoked most of her life so she has emphysema/COPD (really bad) and on top of that she also has diabetes, colon polyps and a hernia (they won't operate on due to her breathing issues) and that's just to name a few. We had a huge scare a couple weeks ago when she was rushed to the hospital in horrible pain. Her red blood count was extremely low and they had to give her 4 pints of blood. That's when they found the polyps. I was so upset that the nursing home didn't see something when she was going to the bathroom...not to be gross....but REALLY???!! They assumed the black stools were caused by iron but, c'mon--at least TEST it once in awhile!! I'm not going to get started....!!
My Aunt, Uncle and Great Aunt came to visit from Arizona this week. It's my mom's brother and their Aunt and she was THRILLED to see them. We don't get to see them very much as they don't come "in" very often. It was so nice to spend some time with them. They own and operate a resort in Belize called Mama Noots Eco Resort and they have TONS of fun activities available such as ziplining, waterfall repelling, cavern tubing and more. I actually just learned about the place myself. It looks like I am planning a future trip as they said they would give family an awesome discount! Woo Hoo!
As for my second job as an Independent Silpada Rep, I discovered Silpada as I was browsing Facebook. I had never even heard of the "stuff" but an old classmate of mine kept posting how she was going on free vacations (to Hawaii, Niagra Falls, etc.) and how much free stuff she was getting and it really raised my curiosity. So I checked it out. I fell in love with the jewelry immediately! I did a little research into what I would have to do, how much money I could make, etc. and I liked what I saw. I'm having my first party this Sunday where I am the hostess AND the Rep--it's like my "launch" party to get my friends over for some 'girl time.' I'm really looking forward to it.
And like I said, the rest of my summer is a mish mosh of all kinds of events! My neice just bought a house and she is also about 6 months pregnant so they are having a "Reveal the Sex of the Baby" housewarming party. That should be interesting!!
Ok, so I've been talking about other things in my life, but I haven't even posted anything about weight....and as far as that is going, I'm definitely not doing as well as I should be, especially with two weddings coming up (my own and my friend's). But it's all good. I know what I need to do and I've already started (eating better, using my Gazelle while watching some crazy reality TV show, taking Mina on walks and increasing my water intake). The good thing about summer for me is that I don't feel as hungry--does that make sense? HOWEVER, I do get on a slushie kick (coke slushies are my fave)--and YES I know they are loaded with sugar...soooo I've quit slushies cold turkey and am looking into how to make my own low cal slushie!!!
Well, if you have stayed and read ALLLLLL the way to the bottom of this blog---I thank you and I hope you have an AWESOME WEEKEND!!
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
I have NEVER been skinny. I have a "big bone" build and I am 5'7. However, I am at the highest weight I've ever been at up to this point and I have never felt more disgusted.
My parents never kept much junk food in the house and chips were only served at parties or for a quick dinner with a burger. My mom didn't bake so we never really had sweets either. And as far as genetics, my dad was always skinny, as was my mother (until she got in her 40's--she started getting chunky then!) So WTH??!! How come I never got to be thin like them?!! I did have my thyroid tested and the results were normal. So now I realize my weight came from my poor eating/exercise choices over the years--ya know...the usual reason!!
I can remember dieting when I was in my teens--using Slim Fast. But that failed after a few days-- I just couldn't do the whole not eating, only drinking crappy tasting fake shakes! When I got pregnant with my daughter, 17 years ago, I actually LOST weight since I was pretty much nauseated the entire day for months and just didn't have many cravings and ate minimal to make sure she was healthy. The same with my son who was born 23 months later. After his birth, I slowly started gaining weight....again.
I experimented with diet pills but I would forget to take them. I tried the Atkins Diet but couldn't stick to it--too many restrictions, I went to WW in 2006 and lost 30 lbs. I needed the support and accountability. I felt great! I got down to 230 lbs which, was still a lot but was my best weight in a long time. I felt like I had control over my eating, then my mom got very sick (almost died on a ventilator) and I started emotional eating.
My weight shot up again over the past few years, I tried more "dieting"--trying the 17-day-diet, which worked for as long as I could stick to it. But diets don't work for me. I'm too hard headed and stubborn and when I want something, I want it. LOL I found I do better eating what I want in moderation. However, over the past few years, the whole "moderation" thing totally has gone out the window. Plus, it really doesn't help with people always telling me "oh, you don't LOOK like you weigh as much as you do!" and the doctors telling me, "you carry your weight well" I used it as an excuse to eat as I wanted since, according to others, I didn't LOOK that big! ....yeah right.
I guess it also didn't help that when I went for my physical 18 months ago to become a Parole Agent they did an EKG, all blood work (cholesterol, sugar, etc.), hearing tests, eye test, blood pressure, etc and I came out healthy as a horse. All normal....which is good! But it gave me yet another "excuse" to eat as I wanted since...hmmm....I am "fat" but since all my tests are normal I must be ok!
I LOVE food. I love the taste of food, I love trying different foods, I'm a "meat and potatoes" gal...don't get me wrong, I do like veggies, but I rarely eat them. I LOVE eating out and we do....at least 3 to 4 times a week. And when we go out, I don't order fish or salads, I go for the cheesy spinach artichoke dip app (there's veggies in that, right???!!!) and a burger or steak. And I HATE diet sodas...yuck. About the only one I can stomach is diet Dr. Pepper (cherry). So of course I would order Pepsi or whatever other cola they had. Only recently to wean myself off, I started asking the waitress to give me half and half (half diet, half regular).
Right now...I feel gross. When I see pictures of myself I get disgusted looking at my double chin and fat-hanging-out-everywhere body. My clothes don't fit as good as they used to, my knees are starting to ache...which just started recently, and my spanx are not going to hold this muffin top in much longer! Overall, I feel horrible about myself and I'm just not happy.
The positive thing is that I HAVE THE ABILITY TO CHANGE IT ALL!!! I'm ready. Let's do this fellow BLC-ers!
Me at my favorite NY winery!
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Goal #1: Exercise at least 5x a week. This will be the biggest challenge for me, especially on the weekdays, because between my super busy schedule and then the lack of energy after a long day, I just don¡¦t always feel up to it.
THE PLAN: I refuse to let my team down so my plan is to bring gym clothes to work with me and get on the elliptical at work for at least 30 minutes (this will be a bigger challenge than you know because my ex also works out at our work gym at the same time I take my lunch¡KLOL). It¡¦ll be ok, I promise º I can also take my dogs for a walk and since we live in a great neighborhood, it doesn¡¦t matter how late we go!! I¡¦d like to try yoga and the Zumba classes at the new gym me and honey are joining, but I don¡¦t know what kind of time I will have on the weekdays for this so I can¡¦t make any definite promises! But it is definitely an option!! I also have a Wii with a couple of the Just Dance games and Zumba. I love them and I have to start doing them. Oh yeah¡KI also bought Turbo Fire a few months back but haven¡¦t gotten a chance to try it yet. See Eileen!! You CAN make time to exercise!!!
Goal #2: To only eat out once or twice a week (and eat healthy when I do!). My honey LOVES going out to eat and does so at least 4x a week and every weekend. He makes decent money, so he is able to do that. HOWEVER, recently he has mentioned he¡¦d like to lose some weight as well since he is diabetic. BINGO!! Here is my chance!! Last night for dinner I made chicken and veggie shish kabobs and he only ate one plate of food compared to his 2 or 3!! He usually would also stop on his way home from work for fast food burgers as an ¡§appetizer¡¨ to dinner. We talked about it and he agreed that not buying food at restaurants would save us a lot of money and since we are planning a basement remodel, the extra money would be a plus!
Goal #3: Keep track of what I eat every day. I¡¦ve been doing fairly well at this but I¡¦ve found that if I ate super crappy on a certain day, I would skip it altogether. I will make myself accountable for what I eat. No matter what.
Goal #4: Lose 25 lbs. by the end of this challenge. I was looking over some SparkFriends pics and by reading the captions I could just feel the excitement of her weight loss as her weight spiraled downward (15 lb loss, 20 lb loss, 25 lb loss, 50 lb loss, 60 lb loss). It made me remember the kind of excitement I felt when I lost 30 lbs on WW. (Thanks former Azurita--Chrissy!!). I really have to thank her for renewing that inspiration and bringing that feeling back to me!!
Goal #5: Plan my meals. I have really been slacking at this and since I get up in the morning with just enough time to get ready and scoot out of the door (I am absolutely NOT a morning person!!), I have forgotten to set something out to defrost more than once, which usually led to the ¡¥ol¡K¡¨oh well, guess I gotta order take out tonight.¡¨
Goal #6: My plan is to eat more protein, fiber and fruits and veggies. I¡¦m horrible at eating freggies on a consistent basis, so this too, will be a challenge in itself for me. I know I can do it though, because on SAC 3 we had the Eat-As-Many-Veggies-As-You-Can-In-One-Week challenge and my number was in the 30¡¦s!!
**I wanted to get these posted¡KI will probably update as I go though!!***
Rewards: No more swollen ankles.
Pants will fit better.
Will look better in my clothes.
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