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Foolish girl

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Sometimes the heart is the thing to follow. Sometimes it isn't. This time was a loss and I know that it will get better. Right now I just want to sit down and drink a bottle or 12 of wine, have some ice cream and cry. Instead, I grabbed some grape tomatoes, and a bottle of water and headed out for a walk in the woods. I cried, and then I cried some more. I love with everything that I have. I probably love someone too soon, but that doesn't mean I don't love them. I still want to cry, but this time, it isn't because of the amount of calories I ate, it is simply because my heart hurts. I am still confused about the whole thing, not sure what went wrong with him, but I do know that this is not going to be the reason I undo everything I have worked so hard for. I know that at some point in the very near future I am going to have a day where all I eat is junk food, but it will be ok because I am only going to allow myself that one day. Tonight and tomorrow are going to be the hardest at work. I will have 12 hours at work to think about it. I am going to try and keep my mind off of it, but so far it isn't working. It can only go up from here right?

  
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IMSAFEINHISARMS 7/30/2014 1:53PM

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MSLZZY 7/29/2014 9:25AM

    Maybe he got cold feet or was unsure where you wanted this relationship to go. Men are unpredictable creatures but don't let this throw you off your game. You are special, you are unique and you are worth it. HUGS!

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EACHMOMENT2 7/29/2014 6:32AM

  Food doesn't fill this kind of empty space because it is in your heart, soul, and mind. Going for a walk and crying was great for a choice that really can help. I am sorry it didn't work out.

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JIBBIE49 7/29/2014 1:03AM

    Listen to me. You can EAT anything you want, but you don't need to SWALLOW it. That is how I dealt with cravings. I'd take the food in the bathroom, look in the mirror and talk to myself about why I had to have that sugary food (never hard boiled eggs like Dr. Atkins said), so I'd take a bite of the snickers, ice cream, whatever donut, and I'd chew, and then when I was ready to swallow I'd spit it in the sink. I'd keep it up until I was back in control. Wash the sink, brush my teeth and go get a glass of lemon water and drink it. I didn't have that voice in my head saying "Oh, now see what a failure you are??????" I didn't have the food in my body to make me feel tired and sick.
I know it doesn't sound nice, but remember you DON'T have to swallow it, because you just want the taste.

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29 days stretch

Thursday, July 24, 2014

I am on a 29 day stretch for logging in and spinning the wheel. I think that is by far the longest I have done. I am still slowly and steadily losing weight. I went to pull a pair of jeans on tonight before work, realized that they fit except for they wouldn't zip. I was devasted. Until I realized that they are 2 sizes smaller than what I have been wearing and they wouldn't zip. That made me feel fantastic. I am actually able to see a little bit of progress and that is making it easier.
My boyfriend and I are going through a rough time. I know that it is either going to work out and we are going to be perfectly content after this bump or I am going to end up heartbroken. Either way I know that I already need to be making sure that I am not going back to the emotional eating. I cannot undo everything that I have already worked for. I am paying close attention to what is being put into my mouth, but I am also making sure that I am not eating in front of the tv, or when I am reading a book. Those were the times I could guarantee that I would over eat and not even realize it. Happy Thursday!

  
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MAMAMOOSE54 7/28/2014 9:23AM

    Keep up the good work!!! Remember you always have the support of your friends in SP when you are going thru tough times. Hang in there!!!

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Yup, yup!

Monday, July 21, 2014

I am sitting here at work realizing how far I have actually come. It seems like the weight is sliding off. I know that currently it is water weight, and it will slow down, but it is still gone. I am so proud of myself for sticking with it this long. I havenít been tracking all my food, but I do know that I am staying well within my calorie range. If I do go over, I donít beat myself up. I remind myself that tomorrow is a new day and that one day isnít going to break it. I am already starting to feel better. Today I only had one can of soda. ONE CAN!! This is such an amazing feat for me, I donít even know how to explain it. I would have no issue drinking 3 or even 4 of the big fountain sodaís from Circle K every day. Every.Day. Today, one can!!! I think I might actually be on to something and have something figured out. With my eating, I am not telling myself that I canít have this or that, I simply watch how much I eat of it. At work I cannot eat slow, I only have a certain amount of time before I have to go back. I have been bringing my food in from home and that is making a huge difference. I am also not bringing in a ton of options. I am bringing in one meal, and 3 small snacks for break. That is it. That is helping too. Hope everyone is enjoying their time!

  
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EACHMOMENT2 7/21/2014 6:42AM

  Great choices! You are finding and practicing a healthy lifestyle. The weight coming off is a strong reinforce too.

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GRANDMAFRANNY 7/21/2014 1:21AM

    emoticon JOB !! NO STOPPING YOU. emoticonING IT, KID.

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1.8 and going

Monday, July 14, 2014

I am down 1.8 this week. I can't tell you what I did, or how I did it but it is gone and i intend to keep it that way. This is how I want to do it. I don't want to think, oh my goodness I have barely eaten this week and I didn't lose? I want to say, I don't know because I was never hungry and never gave any thought because I am changing how I eat. I am changing how I look at food.

I was absolutely craving chinese today. Since I knew that I would over eat I was already beating myself up and I hadn't even gone yet. I decided that the 8.15 that I would have spent on Chinese was going to go in a jar. I put the money there and I am not sure what that money is going to be for yet, but it felt good to know that I made a fantastic choice and beat the craving! I also get to keep the money.(I ended up making a ranch turkey burger......and didn't regret it one bit!)
This was a fantastic day for me!

  
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IMSAFEINHISARMS 7/16/2014 2:30PM

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EIGHT30FIVE 7/15/2014 10:04PM

    Thanks!

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1JACKIE542 7/15/2014 9:16AM

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EACHMOMENT2 7/15/2014 5:30AM

  That is how I would like to lose this weight and be healthy too. Not always having to think about every little thing I do each day, but my day is just the way I live naturally. Love putting the Chinese food money as a reward. We can save a lot of money and calories by cooking our own food.

You Spark On to more fantastic days!

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Does it really need one?

Friday, July 11, 2014

I have come to realize that I am not very good at sticking with things. What I have also realized is, that it is ok. I donít have to. What I do have to do is change the way I think about things in order to get them done. This is another start on my weight loss journey. The other times I have done this were not wasted, they were lessons that I needed to learn before continuing on. I know that I will struggle. I want to be able to lose the almost 200 lbs that I want to. I have already lost 32 of those, so I need to make sure that I am giving myself credit for those pounds because I still worked hard for that. I need to remind myself that I didnít gain all of this overnight and I (unfortunately)wonít lose it all overnight.

  
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FORZACHANDMATT 7/13/2014 12:27PM

    So we'll said and such a great start

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EACHMOMENT2 7/11/2014 7:27AM

  I have had to learn the same and I have to remind myself often. A "new normal" is so much more of a comprehensive journey of change than a "diet" to lose weight. But what you create for yourself is so much more than body weight. Spark On!!

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MSLZZY 7/11/2014 7:23AM

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