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1 Year Down, Forever To Go

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

Well my husband and I celebrated our one year anniversary this week, but boy, has it been rough.

Well, it was yesterday (Monday), and Ross decided to take me to Red Lobster for lunch (my favorite) since he had to work that afternoon. Well...on the way, we blew one of our brand spankin' new tires that we just got put on this past Friday. We didn't even make it 10 miles out of town! We were both pretty discouraged after that, but we put on the donut and continued the half hour to the restaurant.

Red Lobster was lovely, but we had to head back so that Ross could get ready for work. I then proceeded to spend the rest of the evening by myself and we even forgot to eat the cake from our wedding! Oh gees...

Anyways, we are going to start our vacation tomorrow by heading to the Amanas Colonies in Iowa. I am super excited to go and we are taking our mother with us. We're hopefully going to stop and see the American Pickers on the way in Les Claire, IA. What I'm most looking forward to is going to the wineries at the Colonies. When I went a couple of years ago, I discovered this rhubarb wine that I haven't been able to find anywhere else. I've been telling everyone that I'm going to buy the whole stock when I get there. I LOVE that wine.

I guess with all that's happening is that I really need to try and stay on track during this vacation. My goal is to try and go for walks and get on the Wii Fit Plus as much as I can. I'm also going to count my calories as much as I can and not "cheat".

Would you all pray for me?

  
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BRIAEL 10/1/2014 7:53PM

    You are unique so your diet has to be, too. It has to work with your life and the time you have available. There are dozens of different types. You need to identify which will work for YOU, not for anyone else. This isn't their journey, it's YOURS.

Don't look at how far you have to go, that way lies discouragement and feelings of deprivation for what you cannot have, rather than taking it a week, a day, sometimes even an hour at a time. Will you make mistakes and binge? Of course, we all do it. The difference between people who lose weight and don't regain it is that they are at the end of their learning journey, as much as the end of losing weight.

Losing weight is a process. For some the journey is short because they become more aware of what triggers the inability to control their diet and exercise and they fix it. For the rest of us, we start, we fail. At that point we either give up and come back to it somewhere down the line or we say "Ah crap, I failed that time round. I'm going to start again today and see if I can get a bit further".

You don't strike me as a quitter, so get back up and start again! You can do it. :)

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2DAWN4 9/2/2014 9:44PM

    Happy Anniversary! It sounds like you have a fun day planned.

Will pray for you but I have a feeling you will do just fine on your weight loss journey while you are on vacation!

Have fun!


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Cedar Point Walk of Shame

Sunday, July 27, 2014

I got back from Ohio on Wednesday night. Let me tell you...it was the worst vacation of my life.

Let's just say I've been planning this vacation for months. My husband and I were going with six of our friends. We paid for our tickets and hotel and it was going to be the perfect weather for a day at Cedar Point.

We left early Monday morning and prepared for the long drive to Sandusky, Ohio. It took seven hours. I was slightly peeved because I knew the toll road was going to be faster, but the group said it was tradition to take the scenic route (this was our first time going with the group). Anyways, we made it to the hotel and we spent the rest of the day at the indoor waterpark, which was fun for a bit. My husband and I decided to spend a part of the evening in the arcade which was really fun. We went to Walmart and Fazoli's and called it a night.

The next day was the big day. We had early access to Cedar Point so we headed to the island and waited for the gates to open. Our first ride was the Raptor. There was no line. I got ready to get on the ride. I sat down and I didn't fit. My butt was too big. The attendant tried to latch the belt, but my belly was too big. He apologized and I had to get off the ride. All of his friends saw. My husband asked if he should get off, but I told him to stay. I attempted to hold back tears while I waited on the exit ramp and watch our group enjoy their first ride of the day.

Once off, I asked my husband to walk with me around the park and try out the test seats which are located at the entrances of rides. Every ride we went to, I was too big. "This ride may not accommodate guests of larger size".

I had to stop several times to cry it out. What was the point of me being at the park if I couldn't fit on any of the rides? Why me? Is this really happening? These were questions I asked myself repeatedly. All I wanted to do was go back to the hotel and cry it out. Why stay at the park just to watch everyone get on the rides and me just sit waiting for them?

I made my decision. My husband called his friends letting them know he was going to drive me back to the hotel. I said I would try and keep myself occupied by going back to the arcade and water park when in reality, all I did was sleep, cry, and mope around.

I was miserable. Absolutely miserable.

I woke up from my nap and called my husband. He said that they were going to come get me for dinner. I was happy that they were going to include me since my day had been ruined.

7 pm rolled by. No call.

8 pm rolled by. No call.

9 pm rolled by. No call.

I called my husband and asked where they were. He said they didn't want to leave the park. It was too much of a big deal for them.

I cried and cried and cried.

I had spent the entire day by myself and they couldn't leave the park and hour early to include me in their day and festivities? My already batter self-esteem crumbled away...

All I thought to myself was "Why leave early to take the fat girl to eat?" "Why should we leave early? It's not our fault she's fat!"

I cried some more. My self-worth was non-existent. I felt so low...so unwanted...so worthless.

My husband tried his best to get someone to come back with him. There were too many people and not enough cars so he couldn't come back by himself. When he eventually made it back to the hotel, I cried myself to sleep in his arms. I wanted to go home.

So as you can see, THAT was a wake up call.

If I ever want to go back to Cedar Point, I will need to make some changes. Positive changes. Healthy changes. Emotional changes. Maybe even friend changes. Who knows?

It was traumatizing. That's all I can say. Please pray for me.

  
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TREASURINGLIFE 7/29/2014 8:19AM

    Been there...felt that same way...completely understand. Bottom line - it's up to us to make the changes, to choose wisely, to move more, to quit making excuses, to make the tough decisions, to "miss out" on the "fun" of eating this or that so we can LIVE life to the FULLEST!!

LET'S DO THIS!!!!

- Michelle

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MIRAGE727 7/28/2014 8:47AM

    You take this experience and you use it as motivation every single day! You take it to train and you take it to the table! I know exactly what it feels like! And I still embrace those times to build a larger fire within me. I wasted 40 years of my life. You're young! Stay focused and make it a priority in your life to live healthy! You can do it all!
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FITMARY 7/28/2014 8:01AM

    What a total bummer. I'm so sorry to hear about your rotten vacation. I'm glad you have DH to support and love you. And you are strong to turn this around and use it as motivation. Just one day at a time. You will make the changes you want!
Stay strong!

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JOHNWBROCKSR777 7/27/2014 9:07PM

    “Life is short, live it. Love is rare, grab it. Anger is bad, dump it. Fear is awful, face it. Memories are sweet, cherish it.”
Be careful not to put yourself in situations that will allow you to get hurt. Take pro active step to change what you do not like...Remember it did not happen over night and it will not change over night. Stay the course!

John

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HMBROWN1 7/27/2014 9:05PM

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I hope that you have a better day tomorrow.

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Still Trying to Start Gaining Momentum

Monday, July 14, 2014

I'm really struggling. I have not done anything productive with my health. I work, sleep, eat, and go back to work again. I don't have energy to do anything, and when I do, I don't see any progress.

What can I do? Where can I get the proper support to keep me on track?

I know what to do...

I've done it before...

Why can't I do it again????

  
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MIRAGE727 7/14/2014 11:32AM

    The best way to approach this is to start breaking into a healthy lifestyle. You say you want to avoid health issues in the future. Have you had a checkup lately? This way you 'll have a baseline of where you are and where you want to go. You've been there and know what went good. Embrace that and start thinking in that way again.
Motivation? Long life with your husband? Future family? I did it for my wife and Granddaughter. But I was killing myself. I had Type 2 Diabetes, High Blood Pressure, and High Cholesterol.I also got tired of people saying I carried my weight well. Yeah, I've been at rock bottom.
So, you know it takes time BUT you also know it's so worth it. You're lucky because your young. You have a lot to look forward to!
Stay strong, stay focused, and never quit!
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EHERATH 7/14/2014 11:26AM

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LOSER_ZIMM 7/14/2014 11:20AM

    I have felt the same way...the only way I actually workout is to get up early and do it before I begin my day. Each time the alarm goes off I try to find an excuse to go back to sleep...each time I get up and workout; I feel GREAT afterwards. I don't feel tired like I did when I first woke up! I know what to do, what to eat and it's just making the effort! JUST DO IT (sorry to quote Nike), but that is what you have to do! Hoping you can find some inspiration! emoticon emoticon

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Why is it so much harder this time?

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

I'm facing a dilemma.

When I first started Sparkpeople nearly 3 years ago, the weight just fell off. This time around, after I gained back all of my weight lost and THEN some, I'm easily discouraged at not seeing the scale move. Yes, I know weight loss is more than a number, yada yada yada, but if I don't lose weight, my doctor is going to yell at me again.

I'm 296 lbs as of this morning. Two years ago, I weighed just over 200. I have NEVER been so overweight/obese. When I first started Sparkpeople, I weighed around 260 lbs. Yuck.

Now, I'll admit, my eating habits are WAY out of line. I need to start eating healthy again, but right now I just don't have the motivation or the budget to purchase "good for me" food.

On the bright side, however, since we moved into town, I've been going on almost daily walks which I've been keeping track of on my Digifit app. I'm starting to ease myself back into DVD workouts such as Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred. I just started yesterday, and I'm really just trying to pace myself. After all, circuit training is totally different when you weigh 200 lbs and now 296 lbs.

I'm really just looking for the right diet and routine for me again, and I need constant motivation or I'm quickly going to get off track. My health needs to improve. If it doesn't, I'm just holding myself from endless possibilities.

  
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JTREMBATH 6/11/2014 2:47PM

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TRAVELGO 6/11/2014 2:45PM

  Just be faithful with your tracking of both nutrition and exercise and the weight WILL come off. Don't give up!

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Post Valentine's Day

Saturday, February 15, 2014

Well, another Valentine's Day has come and gone. I was gone for work most of the day but came home to some lovely flowers, chocolates, and a homemade dinner. He worked so hard. I definitely married a keeper. Too bad I was so incredibly drained to fully appreciate it all at the time, but we made the best of our short amount of time we had together that night.

In other news...my cholesterol is a tad bit elevated so the doctor is recommending a low fat diet. This is going to be difficult, but I'm doing some research and trying to find recipes that I would actually enjoy. I'm incredibly picky so the more recipes and foods I can find, the better!

I'm also trying to keep track of my blood sugar. The blood test results showed that my levels were a little low--69. Normal range is like 70-99. I bought a little pocket tester and some test strips and I'm going to keep track of it at least once a day. When I was younger, I was keeping track of it a little bit so I'm pretty used to poking my finger or arm with a needle.

I'm still gaining weight for some reason so hopefully a new diet will help. Now that my health is getting serious, I better start listening to my doctor.

Other than that, everything else is fine. Just working a lot and what not. Boring stuff...

  


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