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I Murph'd It! Quick Update W/ Pics!

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Hey Guys! Just wanted to share some pictures of my Crossfit family completing Murph this past weekend. I ended up doing Sunday and Monday! Why? Cause I'm crazy! I can't move today. Like for reals. My body is broken! :)
Here's what Murph is:

Basically death. My tome for Sunday was 65 minutes. Monday I finshed regular Murph in 63ish minutes, but then decided that I could do super murph and ran the extra two miles very slowly and my tome was 89 minutes! I was super proud considering I had already completed Murph the day before. I was the only person crazy enough to do it, but I'm also taking the rest of the week off so I can finish my Global Business class. Yay School! Not.

So I survived Murph!

Here's some more pictures for your viewing pleasure. And yes I ended up taking my shirt off. You can see a tiny picture of me jogging in just a sports bra. Luckily it wasn't a close up and let me tell you that is a liberating thing!

Here's some Befores!

And the Afters!

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CHICKPEA23 5/29/2014 11:30AM

    Holy cow! 200 push-ups!?! 100 pull-ups!? Your arms must be made out of steel. That is amazing - great job!

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G33K10V3 5/28/2014 4:57AM

    Eggggccellllllentttt!!!! emoticon That's impressive!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/27/2014 7:21PM

    Woo!! You're awesome. I don't know if I'd had it in me to do half of that board!! Looks like a serious challenge!!

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KIKKI-G 5/27/2014 2:56PM

    AMAZING!! that is all. I wish I had an epsom salt bath goodie to give you...

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CHODGES83 5/27/2014 2:25PM

    Running in a sports bra!!!! I don't have the guts...or maybe I have too much gut to do it ;) I have a feeling when the temp goes up the top will come off for these bootcamps though.
Way to go! We only do the mini murph in bc so I can't even imagine. GREAT JOB!

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GINA180847 5/27/2014 12:02PM

    Outstanding! emoticon

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NOTGVGUP83 5/27/2014 11:57AM

    you rocked it! Congrats!! =)

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123ELAINE456 5/27/2014 10:14AM

  Congratulations on completing all three Murph. You deserve to rest and take it easy for the next few days. God Blessings Always. Have a Wonderful Week. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Take Care. I Love the Photos too. They are very Good.

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NGCHILD 5/27/2014 10:09AM

    I can only imagine how sore I would be! Good job!!


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Hi. My name is Amber and I have an eating disorder.

Monday, May 19, 2014

Hi Guys! I'm still here. Just touching base! I know I know this blog is as long as an episode of The Golden Girls!

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KIKKI-G 5/20/2014 9:15PM

    I 100% agree with everything MISTY_MOUNTAINS said & you. I do the EXACT same things & have ever since I can remember. I used to hide food wrappers in the couch & get is so much trouble when my mom cleaned...and I still do it now, thank goodness for the garbage shoot.
I joke with closes friends that I seriously don't have a "full" button. I could eat until I throw up & eat some more and I have made myself feel guilty about what I've eaten so much I have attempted to throw some up. I have gone & spoken with a professional & I think its a great idea to anyone who feels that have an issue too. There is nothing wrong with seeking help.

You are strong for coming out about it as many people I'm sure can relate.
emoticon thanks for being you girl.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 5/20/2014 1:57PM

    You freaked me out a little just now. I heard a few things that I actually do when you are talking about your disorder. It makes me wonder if I maybe do have a real problem, and all the times I tell myself that it's just that I have no self control, it might be something else. That's the thing with me, I never want to blame anything but myself because I feel like that's not taking responsibility for my actions. I have definitely eaten until I'm sick, I have snuck around and thrown out the packages so my boyfriend doesn't see. I have lied so, so many times about it. It especially hit me when you said you had thought about going to throw up a couple times. I have had those thoughts a few times very recently. You have shown me that maybe it's time to allow my ego to speak to someone. Thanks, Amber. You really are a fabulous person. You never fail to give me that smidge of hope that everyone needs sometimes.

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PANDASUE2 5/20/2014 12:11PM

    It's always good to see your face! You're missed when you're so busy! I lurk SP... don't really participate that much, but I like to keep tabs on some of my peeps. Glad things are going better after the Doc helped ya out a bit. It is hard to admit those types of issues, but don't be embarrassed... If there is any place to not be embarrassed, its right here on Spark. You look great, love the new tat!

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GYPSYGOTH 5/20/2014 10:59AM

    Don't think I could ever be disappointed in you! Thank you so much for sharing your story. Glad you've ditched the scale and are living life and being happy! emoticon
Thanks for the inspiration as always!

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STEPH-KNEE 5/20/2014 7:13AM

    You are absolutely fabulous! You are so brave for sharing your story with all of us. I have binged to the point of being uncomfortable, and I call it the Binge Monster. I don't necessarily feel "out of control" but I can eat to the point of being overly stuffed and eating a bunch of high calorie stuff. You are such a success story and thanks for sharing your very personal struggles!!

And "he's hot and he cleans" cracked me up, love it! Keep being you, because you are fabulous! emoticon emoticon

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G33K10V3 5/20/2014 4:25AM

    First let me say, I know this is the internet but I'm not a stalker :D I just want to give you a big hug and kidnap you for a while and bring you to Wales!!
When you start talking about your binge eating disorder it makes me want to cry because I've been a sneaky binge eater for as long as I can remember... When I went to my Dr. (just an MD) out of desperation, just needing HELP, was when I finally just accepted it. I accepted that I got myself where I was and regardless of the reasons for it I was going to get myself out.
Time is a crazy thing, I got so fat and unhealthy in what felt like such a short amount of time but it really wasn't. It was years of just not being able to control myself and not even knowing how I felt about myself. Not knowing I really should love myself and not knowing how badly I was hurting me.
But I did love me and I did know that I was hurting myself. It's insanity but that is what is inside me (ahhhh)
Once I made the choice to just freakin handle it I was mortified that I couldn't do it, I was mortified I would fail. I was certain I would fail.
I'm not failing! Not a year's time has passed now and I've gotten rid of 135 pounds of about 10 years of binging. I still want to binge... oh god. I've got such a long road ahead of me and hearing you and seeing this vlog just makes me feel like you get it, I'm not alone and that is maddness as well. I never thought anyone else went through what I went through and that it could be fixed. Really fixed.
This process and these emotions are great for us. We need to deal with this the right way. I am not keeping it secret but it is still embarassing. It's even embarassing to say i've lost 135 pounds, because, damn... I still weigh 236... yeah I was large.... 5X large...
Know that you're not alone, you don't need to feel embarassed on your vlog and thanks so much for just being open and letting me see a tiny bit of your life because it does help! Today while I'm here, halfway across the world, I will be remembering you and I'm freaking pulling for you!! emoticon
Also, I am almost to the point where I don't even care HOW LONG it takes me because, don't you just KNOW that it's already done? I can see it in you that you have got this!! Just remember how it was when you first started, keep that with you... emoticon

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USMAWIFE 5/19/2014 10:10PM

    wish I could see it. I get an error on my end

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Saving TaTas One Step At A Time!

Wednesday, March 05, 2014

Hey Guys,

I'm doing something awesome this April 12th. I'm actually pretty proud to announce that I will be completing my first Susan G. Komen Race for The Cure 5K.

I think the biggest reason that I decided to do this is because my grandmother's best friend is aggressively losing her battle to breast cancer. They have the most beautiful relationship too. My grandmother is nearly 80 and Michelle is only in her early 40s. They met at church and bonded instantly through choir and community activities. Michelle, who is a single mother of a teenage boy, finally confided into my grandmother about her cancer and her therapy. Knowing how rough it was for my grandmother to lose her husband a few years earlier Michelle didn't want to upset or depress my grandmother in any way. This was 3 years ago and the two have been inseparable since.

Last time I went to visit my grandmother we visited Michelle. The doctors have put her on hospice since the therapy hasn't worked and she now can't leave the house much. The only time is for church on Sunday. She writes my grandmother little cards and notes everyday expressing how wonderful the relationship that they have developed has made her feel in the last few years.

A few weeks later a friend from CrossFit suggested us to make a Team for the upcoming Susan G Komen Race for a Cure. I knew instantly that I wanted to join because there is such a need for more research, treatments, and awareness for this disease. My grandmother was so excited to tell Michelle of my efforts! And I am very excited as well.

If anyone wants to donate or check out the cause the link to my page is below. Wish me luck! I suck at jogging, but I can't say no to saving tatas! Who can say no to boobies anyways!

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FITMOMMY1836 3/23/2014 9:01AM

    Awesome, both the story and your effort for the cause. I am blessed to already have a friend like your Grandmother has, so this got me mucho emotional. LOL emoticon

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    Awesome. This kind of stuff is why we do Relay For Life every year!!

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APED7969 3/6/2014 6:58AM

    Great job! I'm organising the Mother's Day Classic here this year to raise money for breast cancer. I'm really looking forward to raising money for such a great cause :-)

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AURORADAWN5 3/5/2014 8:06PM

    Having such a strong motivation is sure to help you get through the run. Good luck and thank you on behalf of women fighting breast cancer and those of us who love them.

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NGCHILD 3/5/2014 1:30PM

    What a great way to honor Michelle and all the other woman suffering from this disease!


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123ELAINE456 3/5/2014 1:16PM

  Awesome Blog!!! A Very touching story. Thank You for doing this. We need to find a Cure for Breast Cancer and All Cancers. God Blessings Always.

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DALID414 3/5/2014 11:12AM

    Good luck!

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BUSYGRANNY5 3/5/2014 10:02AM

    What a touching story!!! Good for you for choosing to run a 5K for this wonderful cause, especially when you're NOT a runner!!! Very inspiring!!!!

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Until Next Time SP

Monday, February 24, 2014

Short Blog.

Things are happening and my life is super stressful right now! Firstly there's school. I started back in full swing the beginning of this month. I'm roughly completing 1 class a month and I'm literally spending at least 20 hours a week on school work.

Sigh. It'll be worth it in the end right?

Secondly the head of our AP department quit last week. So my job just doubled at work. And the SP time I used to get on my 30 for lunch is now being divided between school work and regular work. I'm not taking lunches anymore.

Thirdly I went from working out around 8 hours a week to 3. That's all I have time to do in CrossFit. So I'm currently seeking some kind of at home workouts as well. I know there's always running, but I'm not happy with just running. I feel utterly lost when it comes to my exercise routine. I used to have a schedule and then Lisa's closed. I found CrossFit which is awesome, but I don't have time to go everyday. Someone told me about something called T25, but I haven't had a chance to really look into it. If anyone has used it please let me know if it's something worth getting. I think it's DVDs or something.

So here's my plan. Every week I make a schedule to go by to make sure that I cover everything I need to between school, life, and work. I'm going to attempt to work out 5 days a week. 3 I'll go to CrossFit and the 2 will have to be at home and most likely the weekend. I feel like I need a list. Let's make a list.

Current Plan for not Being Super Stressed Out and Keep Being Healthy and Strong and Not Gain a Bazillion Pounds and Keep Exercising Cause It Makes Me Happy FEATURING KITTIES:

emoticon I will attempt to keep track of foods I eat on my SP App. I'm not so much looking at the calories more as I'm getting enough Carbs, Protein, Fats, Etc. My Tracker is Viewable if anyone is ever curious.

emoticon I will continue 3 days of CrossFit a week tracking on my SP App

emoticonI will add 2 days of cardio

emoticonI will weigh MONTHLY and take measurements

emoticon I will continue a pretty clean somewhat Paleo Diet with treats and dairy here and there

emoticon I will be checking in from time to time, probably on Sunday, so I'm not leaving forever!

Also I do IG a little and I also have FB which I have cut back extensively. But just FYI!

I think that list pretty well covers what my plans are. I'll be around and watching like a creepy Santa. Wish me luck peeps! What for? Just in general. It's always nice to have some good luck!

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AURORADAWN5 2/27/2014 3:14PM

    Being organized is really important when you're busy, and it sounds like you have things pretty much under control. Hope things will level out again for you soon, and yes - all that hard work on schooling IS always worth it in the end.
Meanwhile, don't push yourself too hard. Exercising five days a week is great, but there will probably be days when you just can't. Missing an occasional day won't hurt you, stressing yourself out and pushing yourself to exhaustion might.
Drop by when you can and let us know how your doing.

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CHODGES83 2/26/2014 9:46PM

    emoticon Lots o' Luck to Ya!

You're plan looks purrfect! Stay positive!

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 2/25/2014 8:00PM

    Yay, good luck!! As long as I still see you sometimes, I shan't worry about you!!

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DALID414 2/24/2014 8:20PM

    Good luck!

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PANDASUE2 2/24/2014 8:06PM

    Pretty kitties. We just shaved our cat. I CAN'T TAKE IT!! She's so freaking cute. and feels aaaahhhmaazing! She's even got a little tail poof!

Sucks about your work/school/non-workout schedule. I am a creature of habit/routine, so I would be in the same boat you are. You'll figure it out though. Do what you can and stay on track with eating as much as possible and you'll get in the exercise when you're not so busy.

Good luck! Stay strong!! :-)

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123ELAINE456 2/24/2014 6:42PM

  Great Blog. With an Awesome Plan. You Can Do It!!! Keep pushing Forward!!! You are doing Fabulous. This is the WTG!!! God Blessings Always. Have a Wonderful Week. Hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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RYDERB 2/24/2014 5:52PM

    I'm proud of you for creating a plan to manage everything you have going on in your life and still keep yourself on your priority list. If none of your friends have T25 reviews to share with you, my SP friend KETTLEBURN (Mallory) was doing T25, she actually might be done by now. If you get time, you can drop by her page and ask for a review. She's also done Insanity, Chalean Extreme, and a few others DVD programs. Good luck with school. And don't forget yoga is great to help manage stress.

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DEBBLO 2/24/2014 3:33PM

    Sounds like you have a plan in place.
Be sure you take care of yourself!

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And Here Are The Reasons I'm Breaking Up With My Scale, Dieting, and Trying To Lose Weight Quickly

Friday, January 31, 2014

I sobbed this morning. I didn't just shed a tear, or have a short huffy cry, or even a 5 minute weep. I sobbed uncontrollably this morning. Like a child. It's not something I am proud of, I actually contemplated not even sharing the true results of my Whole30 and just lying and saying that I had this tremendous weight loss and I was the happiest girl in the world. But I couldn't make myself lie. Not when I know that several people read my blogs to know how my many attempts to loss weight turn out.

So I'll make my results short and sweet. I completed a Whole30 with one cheat. The cheat was a sip of an alcoholic beverage at my sister's birthday extravaganza. I followed all the rules that were spelled out in the book. I'm SO very proud of myself. I truly am. I found a new love for foods I never thought I would like. Cauliflower, Turnips, Sweet Potato, Brussel Sprouts, and Butternut Squash just to name a few. I consumed more vegetables at breakfast, made homemade sauces like mayo and almond butter, gave up weekly wine, and started drinking black coffee. I rocked this Whole30.

So I started this Challenge at 176 , 33in waist and 43in hips. Firstly I was not happy with my weight to begin with. I had gained 4 pounds over Christmas and you know me, a one pound gain is the equivalent to somebody calling me ugly so 4 pounds is like I asked someone to dance with me at a pretend homecoming they said no, called me ugly, spit in my face, and went and made out with that B*tch ass preppy cheerleader that weighs 95 pounds (50 of them being boobs and ass). So my results this morning I weighed and I was 177 pounds and a 32in waist, 42in hips. That's right! I gained a whole pound! That statement in drenched in complete satire in my head now, but this morning I was truly devastated.

This is not what started the uncontrollable sobbing. Not at all. I actually stood there, took a deep breath, and told myself that I felt fantastic, looked slimmer, lost inches, and that I was building a ton of muscle doing Crossfit now. Not to worry about what that Sh*itty scale said that I was beautiful and I had accomplished one of the hardest challenges yet. So then I make a Paleo breakfast, eat, chat with Cory about my plans to Axe the Scale, and go to get ready for work. I decide on a very cute dress. One that I love dearly. Just a cute little Polka Dotted number that has always been kinda snug on my upper half, mainly because I like to wear padded bras. Not ashamed to admit it! Every girl likes a bit of cleavage every now and again. I put the dress on and got that god forsaken stinky zipper zipped and stood in front of the mirror thinking happy thoughts. Cory is hugging me from behind. He tends to do that in the morning knowing I hate it because I'm in the middle of rushing to get out the door for work and he's just trying to get in my way. I decided that this is the outfit and then I kind of pull at the bodice part a bit to straighten the cups of the dress out over my bra and what happens? The zipper rips right out of the seems. I crumbled.

Here's my issue. I was already dealing with my inner failure demons telling me that I will never lose any weight no matter what I do and then one of my favorite dresses decides to be a d*ck and split making be feel like the biggest fatty in the world. I cried, Cory got impatient and left the room. He doesn't understand. He's never had body issues. He's lucky. I'm a dieting mess. I'm addicted, not to dieting but to trying to lose the most weight I can the quickest I can possibly do it. So I guess then yes to dieting. I feel like a failure constantly if I don't magically drop weight. I'm in a rut. An awful spiraling rut. This was a weak moment.

So after I ripped off my clothes and continue to get ready and change into some comfy pants and a Star Wars tee, because lets face it after that nothing I was going to put on was going to make me feel good about the way I looked, I decided enough was enough. I cannot take the mental and emotional stress of dieting and scales, and numbers anymore. It's not healthy. I'm healthy physically, but if I keep worrying so freaking much about how much I weigh I will never be happy. I'll end up alone and pathetic with a constant self hatred that will stew forever. That's not going to happen. I refuse to let that happen. I'm too awesome for a tragic ending such as that.

So on my way to work I thought about my Whole30. I enjoyed the food, was very happy not worrying about weighing, exercised regularly, and felt much better about myself as well as in general. I enjoyed eating real food. I adopted a fantastic diet. I decided I'm going to continue eating Whole30ish. Not to lose weight, but to gain health. Then it clicked. Gain Health. That's what I did the last month. I became such a happy, healthy person that Cory even commented on how n ice it was to see me not stress about food.

So that's my first reason why I'm breaking up with my scale. To Gain Health. Mental Health, Emotional Health, and Physical Health.

Do I want to lose weight. Yes. I honestly do. But I want to be strong more. I want to have a good immune system. I want to be able to work hard, exercise hard, and feel great. I don't understand why people, including myself, are so obsessed with losing weight and then on top of that losing it so quickly. I'm done with that. As long as I'm still fitting in my clothes comfortable that scale and number on it can suck it.

And that brings me to reason number two. I am more than that freaking number on that scale. I am a person, a human being, and I literally only live once. Why should that number have any affect on me? I've lost hours, even days worrying about what that damn thing was going to say to me at the end of the week and I'm done.

I'm done dieting, I'll eat what I want that makes my body feel fantastic. I'll eat cupcakes if I feel like I deserve it, I'll eat turnips because they're delicious in soup. I'll eat salads and steak and beet juice because I like those things. F*ck trying to lose weight from it. How about I enjoy these healthy foods and so does my body.

This blog has turned into such a rant.

The last reason I'm giving up dieting and my scale is to love myself. Truly love myself. Not stand in front of the bathroom mirror and poke the pudgy places on my thighs. Not tell Cory that I feel fat in everything I put on. Not skip some dessert because I feel like I don't deserve it because I weigh more than I would like. Not put myself down because I'm not a perfect size 6. Guess what Amber! There's a reason you can never find your size on the racks at freaking JCP! Because there are a ton of people that are your exact same size and you know what, they probably feel great being that size too and you need to check yourself and do the same!

I do apologize if this wasn't the blog you expected and if I may have worried you when you read it. I had a lot to get off my chest and I needed this.

I will end on this. Although I have seemed to have had a mental breakdown upon completion of my Whole30 I'm very glad I did it. I feel as though I'm slowly striding in the right direction in my never-ending quest to find happiness and love within myself. It's not a sprint it is a marathon and I've definitely come to realize this fact. Tonight Cory and I are going out to celebrate our completion of Whole30 and hopefully a beginning to a wonderful new challenge that I will succeed at in the somewhat near future. What an adventure this will be.

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PURPLEPEONY 2/8/2014 11:43PM

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ME_B4_INSANITY 2/4/2014 6:08PM

    I swear I wrote this exact blog three days ago. Because this process will test us, make us want to quit, make us doubt the choices we are making that we KNOW are right. But we can't let those thoughts win because in the end, we will make it to the other side, kicking those pounds butt on our way.

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WHOVIANGIRL23 2/4/2014 11:29AM

    I maaaaay have gotten teary eyed while reading this blog, because I feel like I could have wrote it. I have the SAME problem of "I'm a huge fat cow and I need to lose as much weight as fast as possible so that I stop being a fat cow"... and if I DON'T lose when I weigh (or worse, I gained) or if I eat something that's bad for me, it starts a self abuse/shame spiral of "You fat disgusting pig I hate you you'll never succeed you suck why are you even trying" which leads to more depression which leads to more eating and weight gain... it's a seriously sick cycle. Being nicer to myself is something I really really need to put effort into, because the way I am is destroying me.
For what it's worth, I think you're super duper beautiful and I would kill to have your body!
I can't break up with my scale because it'll throw me into a panic, but I do want to focus less on it. Less on the number, more on the health aspect.

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ADZY86 2/4/2014 4:45AM

    You made it through Whole30! That's so impressive! I hope you're feeling better inside, less bloated, clearer head, clearer skin, nice nails shiny hair...the list goes on. Focus on those non scale benefits rather than the horrible scale. I've quit the scale! I just can't handle it. I weigh in once a month, on the 1st, and that's IT. I step it on, record what it says just FYI, and I don't dwell on it. I can see my body getting tight and toned, yet the scale goes up. It's annoying but I'm just deciding not to use that as my marker. That scale shouldn't and won't rule us. Life is here to be enjoyed. I love when you said 'If I want a cupcake, i'll have one. If I want turnips, I'll have them'. That's my way of thinking too and it's serving me well.
Thanks for sharing your rant. I for one can definitely relate to it, as can loads of other people by the looks of the comments already on here. Just keep on keeping on emoticon

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SHRINKING_SARA 2/3/2014 11:50PM

    This is hard to read because it rings true on so many levels with me. So just so you know -- you're not the only one going through this.

AND if you're like us and paid to have surgery, all I feel is "oh crap, I spent all of that money and I'm ruining it." Its like I live on a perpetually fatty/not fatty (but also not skinny) - seesaw, and I'm never going to get off. The scale is the devil. I took a break. Readjusted my head after a few months, and now I'm using it again, but in moderation ;-)

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123ELAINE456 2/2/2014 12:40PM

  Awesome Blog!!! Sounds like you are doing things right. Keep Sparking!!!

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    It is a painful process, but it is important to confront these issues and make decisions that allow you to move forward. You are doing awesome - all of this is ultimately positive and inspiring on a much deeper level than if you had lost 5 pounds and that was all you got from the experience. When I started hitting the gym regularly last year, my number on the scale stopped dead and would not budge for three goddamn weeks. I really considered stopping my exercise plan just so that I could have the satisfaction of seeing the pounds going down. Totally backwards, especially when you think about all this from the perspective of trying to gain health, as you said. We all struggle with the scale and with looking for rewards and signs of success during what can be a long and frustrating process. I think you've made some really great points and have helped a lot of other people with your honesty and insight. I'm boycotting the scale too, in solidarity and support! You are a radical babe!
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HISLILBRAT 2/1/2014 1:16PM

    Hey girl -- you totally rocked the whole 30 you inspired us all in the group and you ARE getting healthier -- you have a healthier style of eating now! Go you! and sweetie...crossfit??? are you kidding me!! I am sure you gained MUSCLE --by all means divorce that stinking scale it doesnt define who YOU doesnt show the hard work and dedication that you had and it doesnt even reflect how you feel or look.
You rocked the whole 30 and YOU are AMAZING! emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 2/1/2014 7:17AM

    You are amazing and I love that you shared so much of yourself with us in this blog! I love that you are breaking up with dieting and that scale, I agree, the scale can suck it! You are beautiful and amazing and the scale will never understand that. Here's to you Gaining Health. emoticon

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APED7969 2/1/2014 12:46AM

    Great job finishing the whole30. Did you find the book necessary to do the program? And congrats on throwing out the scale. It's great if you can separate gaining health and numbers on the scale :-)

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AURORADAWN5 1/31/2014 10:16PM

    Congratulations on completing your whole 30. That, in itself, is an accomplishment, and if you've lost inches, then why worry about what the scale says? If you're eating healthy and staying active, your will likely lose weight eventually, but not everybody is supposed to weight 110 pounds and look like a runway model. Actually, life would be pretty boring if we did.
I hope that celebration tonight was everything you hoped it would be. Those special occasions and little treats are part of what makes life worth living.
The behaviorist on my Core team was very big on the 80/20 rule. If you're good 80% of the time you can afford ... and you deserve, that 20% of indulgences. After your 30 days, take a few to reward yourself and then get on with being a healthier, happier you, and if that scale is bringing you down, hide it in a closet somewhere. Being healthy is a lot more important than being a size 6.

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MBELL6312 1/31/2014 7:53PM

    You are my hero. Really. Work work work. Scale says yay. Still not perfect. But your response is. Thank you for sharing! Xoxo.

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MISTY_MOUNTAINS 1/31/2014 5:14PM

    I'm sorry that you broke this morning, it happens to all of us!! I'm much the same as you. I get so pissed about not losing anything, and if I gain, you better stay out my way or hand me tissues. I have been gaining lately. Working out, eating better, feeling pretty good - but that gain still hangs over my head ALL THE TIME. We are taught that the numbers matter, so it's very hard to let them go. You've inspired me, my dearest Amber.... I'm gonna toss the scale too. I think it's coming to the time where measurements matter more than weight. Really, even those don't really matter if you can shop for clothes and not go home with your spirit crushed.

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HARVEYRABBIT 1/31/2014 4:38PM

    Hello Champion. Completing any such challenge is a victory as has been already stated, the change in inches measurement clearly speaks of substantial fat loss and muscle building which is paramount to your increasing health. emoticon

3 John 1:2

God certainly loves you and me and wants us to be happy, healthy and free.

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.

- King James Bible "Authorized Version", Cambridge Edition

I recently weighed in at the end of the month and found that I had gained two pounds and also lost inches. I am seventy pounds below my high and in much better health. Heck, I'm even doing a marathon run in a few weeks. Though I have many more pounds to lose, I am confident that over time they will be left as grease patches in my tracks. This month I have racked up over two hours (120 minutes) of workout activity every single day and am honored to be on the first page of the spark activity tracker leader board..

Have fun, look forward and live in the now.

It's fun to have the energy to play. emoticon

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ELIZABETH5268 1/31/2014 2:42PM

    That is such a great milestone to reach when you throw out that stupid scale! How long does this Whole30 last? It seems like you learned an amazing amount during this time AND enjoyed it which is great when making a lifestyle change. If you felt great and loved the food it is something you can stick with. I think you have discovered something that will continue to lead you on the road to success. Taking your measurements once a month, buying an item of clothing you want to fit into or even just feeling the difference in your own clothes are much better measurements of your body especially if you are putting on muscle. And beyond that you are finding a milestone in mood and wellness, you are gaging your overall feelings and outlook in life. You are doing wonderful, congrats on your inches lost and the cahnge you made for yourself!!

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NGCHILD 1/31/2014 2:22PM


I can relate. You lost inches and gained 1 lb of muscle! Crossfit kicks your booty. Totally understand about the D*MN dress. I would crumble too. But don't let it ruin your weekend. We got this. One slow step, pound and inch at a time. WE CAN DO IT and we will rock it.


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CERTHIA 1/31/2014 1:27PM

Good riddance!
Here's a toast to gaining health!

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    oooh girl i bet you are glad to get that off your chest. Holy Rant! lol

So proud of you for completing the whole30. that had to be hard but so worth it. i give you props because it was be incredbily difficult for me to do.

About the dress moment.. what girl wouldn't cry if that happened? I would be devistated. I would have cried harder at that then the time i was asked if i was pregnant.

Keep your chin up and throw the scale out, its lying to you. Learn to love yourself, which is easier said than done. i'm working on that too.


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NHES220 1/31/2014 1:01PM

    Congrats on losing the inches - great NSV. So ditch the scale, work on eating healthy, working out and focus on those NSVs. You will get there and you are worth it!

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RYDERB 1/31/2014 11:47AM

    Amber, I'm so sorry about your dress. I would have had a meltdown too! But, that mental breakdown, has lead to a fabulous emotional and mental breakthrough! You ARE so much more than a number on a scale. I'm stuck Sparking from my phone so I don't have access to my favorite body fat link. But those inches you lost translate to pounds of fat lost period. Losing fat is what matters. That scale doesn't know everything, and it can never tell you how much water weight your muscles are holding, because you've be ROCKING your CrossFit workouts. You are strong, beautiful, and AMAZING and I'm so glad you aren't going to let your scale stop you from feeling that way.

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NETGYRL 1/31/2014 11:46AM

    Great blog. It sounds like you are doing everything right.

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PEZCATHY 1/31/2014 11:35AM

    I've been in exactly your spot before. It sucks. Big time! For YEARS, I refused to get on a scale. But I also refused to eat healthy all of the time. There were times I said I'd rather be happy than healthy. And eating made me happy. But then finally, the weight started coming off. It will for you too. I can tell you that for myself, it helped to mix it up. Eat at the bottom of my calorie chart for two or three days, then eat a day at the top of the allotment (or even over). Every month I began to reward myself with cake, pie, cupcake, chocolate, whatever felt rewarding that week if I felt had had done well that month. But I also portioned that out. One cupcake = 2 treats. It's a hard road. I continually have setbacks. But it's ok to take two steps forward and one step back. We are not perfect. Don't beat yourself up. If you've been exercising, think how much healthier your body and your heart is now! If you continue to eat healthy, and not give up, you will eventually see the weight start to drop. And I know you can do it.

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ALICIA214 1/31/2014 11:34AM


I really enjoyed your "rant" because you came out the other side with a much clearer idea of where you are going and are feeling much happier with that discovery...

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STSCOTT11 1/31/2014 11:27AM

    First...I think it is good you expressed your blog and even with tears.

Not every measure of success can be measured by the scale.
There has to be CREDIT for hanging in there for 30 days.
There has to be CREDIT for having he mind to make an investment in your own good health...

...and you might find this all a bit of a rant. Forgive me often we mask and pretend. I know I do. When people hurt my feelings I pretend it didn't bother me. When I am mad or upset, I don't show it. I find hiding emotions is quite a JOB.
I have come to conclusion most of my lbs that have yet to depart are connected to EMOTIONS that haven't been managed. No sooner than I get bad news I am fine for a day. I have worked on not going to the fridge. But there are times I still find myself secretly feeling bad about things...and a few days later I find myself pigging out.

This year I have even flipped my mantra from focusing on physical to emphasizing working on myself FROM THE INSIDE OUT. Therefore your blog is a breath of fresh air.

And yeah...even here in the land of spark it is sometimes difficult to share when you haven't done what you set out to do. You don't want to let anyone down. There is a level of feeling disappointed mixed with feeling embarrassed that is hard to openly share. You don't want to discourage anyone who attached to you as their inspiration...but you WHAT? Thats a heavy burden to carry. I had to put it down.

Here's what I have learned, not everyone was meant to be a size __.
The way my body is frame may not be perfect for a size __. I would be better at a size or weight of __. Thinking that way empowers me to decide whats right just for me.

The key to this journey is NEVER GIVING matter what.

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MJMONE 1/31/2014 11:24AM

    so, I took a peek at your page and you look terrific.

I'm thinking it is a great idea to stop measuring your worth by a number on a scale, and from what I read you did lose inches...if not pounds. And remember the muscle you are building will help burn those calories and the pounds will follow.

and you gained a love of healthier foods, of exercising...those are terrific gains.

I keep an old Japanese proverb on my fridge, it says "Fall Down 7 times, Get Up 8"

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MIGHTYMOUSE215 1/31/2014 11:18AM

    You gained 1lb. Ok contemplate this, you could be bloated or needed to go to the bathroom first, or stress induced, or you gained muscle and that weighs more than fat. You LOST inches! You should be proud and celebrate that! I'm sorry about your dress, that sucks but it's really ok. You are making progress and there is no lose weight quickly and effectively magic. Believe me, I've tried it. You'll get there, you're doing great! emoticon

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