Monday, October 17, 2011
I am home now. Surgery went as well as can be expected. A little sore, but I manage. I have to say, it's weird being home, not having to get ready for work. Before, it was as if I lived at work, but visited my home. Now, that I am here, I get tired from standing too long, so dishes are out, vacumning is out, my boys are in charge of housework. My job is not to complain about HOW things are done.
My teens think nothing of plunking on the couch all day, doing nothing. That's a cool day, maybe play some video games, or t.v.. But as I sit here, all I can wonder is how is this cool? It's boring. But I am thankful I have help. My boys don't complain about getting me coffee, or popsicles. I have eaten, but I don't know if it's from the surgery or not, but I get quite nauseous after. I'm terrified of throwing up in this condition.
Anywhoos, I just wanted to blog, I'm fine, and recouping. Bless you all.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
I'm glad to be back with spark. I had let everything slide as I pursued the overtime at work this summer. There has been many 7 day workweeks, 72-92 hr work weeks all summer. I managed to do one or two fun things this summer. I found a beach I would actually swim at down here, and went to the rennaissance festival with my sons. I have those memories.
I found out yesterday, that our line at work at the steel mill is being shut down this friday. Our company has built a huge modern pickle/tandem line, and has decided to shut our old one down. But they are working us 7days a week until it shuts down. Many of us are facing layoffs, or hopefully they will place us within the company instead. I know I'm staying until october 12. I am having a hysterectomy, so I will take a medical. My exercise will be limited. So instead, I am going back to what works. I started keeping my food journal, making better choices, I think. When the surgery happens, and I'm off, I'll only be allowed to walk for a bit. So I plotted a one mile, and a two mile markers from my house.
It's almost like I'm going to take a little v-kay here at home. Get to be with my sons, and feel like a family again. It's been like I've only visited my house, and live at work these past few months.
As far as a plan goes, I bought a new biggest loser scale, getting into the habit of tracking my food, and on saturday, taking my body measurements. As I heal, I want to attempt to jog. Well that's all I have for now.
Friday, September 23, 2011
Howdy folks. I am glad to be coming back to spark. The craziness of summer is winding down. I wish I could say I maintained my loss, but I ended up gaining 30lbs back. I quit going to the gym. I stopped making myself a priority and worshiped the overtime paycheck all summer. I am not making excuses, I'm recognizing where I went wrong to learn from them.
I had a couple of surgeries for woman problems, which didn't work. So, I'm taking a medical and just getting a hystorectomy in October. No workouts like I'm used to , just walking is in store. But hey, that's okay, I can still control my diet. My goals this time around is journaling, documenting, and measuring my food and my responses to them. Trying new foods is going to be interesting too. I'm still on my journey, and so long as I am learning from it,both good and bad, and actively participating, I'll remain proud of my progress.
As far as making a weight loss goal, I don't know what would be healthy, given my limited physical output. I'm thinking 20-30lbs by Jan. The amount that I gained back, would be a good start. But I'm more intent on learning journaling my food, portion sizes, and water intake, making them habits. Well, if you're reading this, thank you. I hope my spark buddies out there are taking everyday and doing something. xxx
Monday, April 04, 2011
Well, I'm still plugging away. I haven't given up, and I'm still going to the gym, still working out. My progress isn't great great, but it's not bad either. I don't give a 100%, so I know I wont' get awesome results, but I do give my all when I am at the gym, usually 3 or 4 days a week.
I have some good news to share, since I've started my weightloss journey, I started at a 26w, and now at a 16w pants. My family is now with me, after five months apart, which mentally makes me so much more stable. I've inspired my whole family. Now they are making health and healthy eating a priority too.
I had to go home up north for my mother in law's funeral, and shocked alot of people when I went. My husband and kids are very proud of me, and now are really really supporting me. I guess, I just had to prove to them, that I am very serious about getting healthy. I am also off of all blood pressure medicines!!!
My body is changing so much, there are days when I still feel huge to myself, but I know things must be different because there are parts of me that feel different, my arms, my legs, I guess it's hard to explain. There seems to be a tug of war mentally that usually I just end up ignoring whether or not, I'm still big, and just keep pluggin away and doing what I can.
I don't get on the computer much, because I try to fill up my time, doing real world stuff, rather than sit on my tush, and get lost in cyberspace. It's so easy to get distracted to look up something, and that leads to something else, and then something else.
I am preparing my after pictures very soon, but they won't be my DONE pictures. I suppose I should call them my progress pictures. Thank you spark for being here, and thanks to all who support me on this journey. You guys have helped me through when my times were tough, and inspired me to keep planting one foot in front of the other.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
I've been looking at what I've been eating the past two weeks. I don't think I am getting enough calories, I just don't have an appetite at all. The thought of eating makes me nauseous. I had every intention of going to the gym today, but I fell short. Honestly, I haven't gotten up off the floor( no furniture yet).
I don't know if its the winter blahs, or what, but I just can't seem to give a crap today what I look like, do grocery shopping or anything else. I picked up a brochure from work about a counseling service. I called, and started bawling. All the counselors were busy anyways.
What is wrong with me?
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