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Blogging After Ages - a couple epiphanies

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

So I had a couple of spark related epiphanies and came back to blog about them because I knew that fellow sparkies would understand.

A lot has happened since I last blogged. I lost my dad, someone who I loved so much. He went through so much during the last year. I feel like we all fought so hard for him and then suddenly he was gone. I didn't know how to process it..stil don't actually. I think I was slightly in shock and have only now started to grieve.

I think when you are worried and taking care of others, it is easy to forget that it is important to take care of yourself. Now that I'm slowly starting to come back to focusing on my own health. I've made two discoveries..which might seem obvious to any one else out there who reaches for comfort food when stressed, but for me it was very eye-opening.

One day when I was particularly sad and stressed, someone said something nasty to me and in that instant I watched myself go to the refrigerator and pull out some chocolate. For the rest of the day I kept going back to that bag of chocolates because I was having trouble processing how someone could be so nasty.

So weird, why must we abuse our own bodies if someone else says something offensive? I mean didn't they already cover the whole abusive bit so how does overeating and abusing our own bodies help? I'm talking to myself here.

I know that comfort food somehow provides comfort but in reality it really doesn't and it didn't in that instant either. I just suddenly realized that abusing myself after someone already had wasn't the way to go. I mean that's double the negativity. This whole concept has been intellectually obvious to me for awhile but this time I really *saw* it if that makes any sense.

Anyhow, now to the epiphany #2.which is that it is so important to let go of other people's behavior. Totally connected to epiphany #1 above..If I could completely let go of someone else's behavior no matter what I expected of them, then going for the comfort food would not even be an option because I would get stressed out in the moment but then let it go immediately. I know that this is going to require me to be an exceptionally generous-hearted person *but* I think it's possible. I just need to get there.

Life definitely has it's way of teaching lessons.

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PATTYKLAVER 12/17/2014 9:26AM

    Ephipanies are great,aren't they?

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HOPEFULHIPPO 12/16/2014 6:15PM

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HUGS2015 12/16/2014 1:44PM

    Sorry for your loss. emoticon It takes time to work through the grief of losing a love one. Some days are better than others.
I get where you are coming from on the mean people. It is hard not to take it personally and not want to stuff the feelings down with some comfort food. Good for you on catching yourself in the destructive behavior.
I hope that things get better for you. Maybe try to stick with the nice people and leave the mean ones alone. I try to do that in my life and I am a lot happier without all of the drama. emoticon Hang in there, sounds like you are on the right track. emoticon

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DAIZYSTARLITE 12/16/2014 1:41PM


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How do you exercise when you have a hectic schedule?

Wednesday, July 02, 2014

emoticon I'm thinking of adding workouts back into my schedule which has been slightly nuts with a family member in the hospital. The problem is that I'm running around all day and am tired all the time - the only time I have to realistically cram in a workout is really early morning or late at night, both of which times I'm completely exhausted.

Does anyone else have this problem? Any advice? I'm sure there's a workable solution..I just need to try different things.

Have a great Wednesday sparkfriends! emoticon emoticon

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AAAACK 7/12/2014 1:07PM

    When I'm being conscientious about exercising, and have no time, I promise myself 5 minutes (in whatever clothes I'm wearing - sometimes in whatever shoes I'm wearing) of walking around my house while doing something else. It could be "speed cleaning" where I grab one thing, rush to put it back, go get another thing. Sometimes it's when I'm watching TV and I just walk back and forth in front of the sofa, other things for the 5 min interval: around the circle of my living room, kitchen, family room; aerobic step, side-stepping, grapevining, going up and down the bottom step in my living room, shadowboxing. These are all things that I tell myself I'm going to do for 5 minutes, and then usually end up doing more BUT there is no guilt if I want to stop at 5. And 5 minutes of movement is better than 5 minutes of eating, right? Now, if I could just remember to DO it all the time...
Good luck to both of us - no, to ALL of us here on Sparkpeople!

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PATTYKLAVER 7/4/2014 3:07PM

    I've had both my Mom and my daughter in and out of the hospital since last November. I learned to take the stairs, to do exercises as I was sitting there with them, anything - even it was marching in place.Whenever they needed something, instead of hitting the button to call the nurse, I walked to the nurse's station. It's hard, but do-able.

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DIBANANA 7/2/2014 5:29PM

  Sorry working on the same problem. I am always best early or I talk myself out of it. I think it is something you have to "just do"!

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    I do have the same problem! I've been making myself go to bed 10 minutes earlier and wake up 10 minutes earlier-- I'm now at 5:30 a.m. wake up and I get some exercise in that way-- by the end of the day though, I am spent, I am definitely not an evening exerciser (at least solo!)! Or you can break it into the segments when you have a bit of down time, which works for some-- me, when I have down time, I tend to veg out for a minute, whether reading a book or washing the dishes-- the morning works for me because I look at it like a neccisity-- I have to brush my teeth, wash my face and exercise... Hope you're able to find the balance that works for you! emoticon

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JITZUROE 7/2/2014 10:40AM

    Hey you,
I agree, several small sessions. Shoot, even some squats while brushing your teeth helps!

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    Several small sessions (10 minutes) spread over the day

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LOSE4LIFE47 7/2/2014 10:25AM

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Tuesday morning blog

Tuesday, July 01, 2014

emoticon So I was off caffeine for awhile but slowly and surely it has reappeared in my life..it is soo tempting to grab that diet soda or strong cup of coffee. Coffee is definitely a comfort drink for me. I need to get back into substituting tea or just plain lemon water. Sigh and double sigh. emoticon

emoticon On the plus side, I've discovered South Beach protein bars and love them for a quick snack. They have tons of fiber and protein and always feel very filling. They should call me for a commercial! emoticon emoticon

emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon The other good thing is that it's summer and just beautiful outside!

Have a great Tuesday spark friends! emoticon

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BIGPAWSUP 7/1/2014 2:34PM

    I will not surrender my coffee.

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Chocolate is good for you

Monday, June 30, 2014

emoticon After a lot of thought I put my scale away a couple weeks ago and went back to focusing on regular, structured good meals with fruit for breakfast, a light lunch and a good dinner with a piece of chocolate every once in awhile. Things have been so hectic that I haven't had time to exercise so I assumed that I must be maintaining..I finally got on the scale a couple days ago and I had lost 5 lbs..

emoticon Chocolate, lack of deprivation and consistent healthy meals are good for me.and that weighing scale -not as important as I thought!

Is anyone else going scale-less, at least day-to-day?

Have a great day spark friends! emoticon emoticon

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HOPEFULHIPPO 6/30/2014 5:11PM

    scale doesn't bother me and gives me motivation...they are just numbers that don't record my NSVs....I do weigh in once a week...was daily but once a week is a nice surprise of "what? nothing??" LOL

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KATHARINA01 6/30/2014 12:46PM

    You are definitely right. Chocolate is good for you. I'm still trying to figure out how to incorporate it in my diet though. I tend to eat all the chocolate I buy all at once, and unfortunately, that's definitely too much.

Right know I weigh myself almost daily. I need it to keep motivated. But I'm just at the beginning of changing my eating habits (again). I'm sure that once the routine sets in and I gain more confidence I will have to weigh myself less frequently.

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JAROL7 6/30/2014 12:13PM

    NO ... I weigh every day ... morning and evening. It keeps me honest. When I quit weighing and just estimate my calories ... I gain !!! So you have to know yourself and how you function best, We are different. My wife seldom weighs. She uses a smaller pair of pants for her scale. So do what works for you. BUT ... join the 5% Club. The link is at the end of my blog.

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