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204 - how do you relax?

Saturday, December 20, 2014

Is there something wrong with me? Is it unreasonable to get home at 7 pm and feel like I have time enough to barely eat, shower and go to bed? Is the 3 hours before bed time really not enough to find some relaxation?

What do you do? Bath? Wine?

I pretty much get home, clean a bit, take care of the pets, eat dinner, watch some TV and go to bed...but I never feel like I'm "unwinding" after a hard day. Should I start to meditate? Read more? What?

I'm going to try the wine idea...right now.


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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/22/2014 12:08PM

    I can actually answer this question!!! I used to work 10-14 hour days and with commuting and need to sleep I was often in the same position. 3 hours isn't enough time to relax because just because you are home does not mean you are relaxing but are doing all the other stuff which require your attention. So you don't have 3 hours. You have 3 hours minus activities of daily living. I have found in my own life that that stuff east up 2 hours easily right off the bat and then you are left with an hour if you are lucky and I would surprised if you have that. You are still in work mode and so is your body. Warm baths do help me. And an hour before bedtime I read and I often fall asleep. The best relaxation for people like us is on your days off, leave the house. Driving our boat relaxes me. No phone, no one can reach me, no cleaning to distract me.

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PHEBESS 12/21/2014 9:23AM

    I never had a job where I got home that late every day, so I don't have many suggestions. Do you make fast meals so you don't have to spend much time cooking? I'd think that might free up some time for you to relax a bit later on. (Batch cooking on your day off? Slow cooker meals? Other fast items like quick veg stir fries? Even just scrambled eggs or frittatas are pretty filling.

Hope you figure something out!

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/20/2014 10:21PM

    Yes, baths are so soothing for me. I meditate in my own way - nothing formal. I have looked at some rescue cats online and two that I liked found homes quickly. There will be some little creature out there for me when the time is right. Thank you for your support.

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200 - reality vs. imagination + making it count.

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Even though I'm proud of a lot: 1) on Paleo again 2) hitting the gym 3) focusing on fitness...I'm remembering that when I "imagine" that I'm make serious changes and doing great, "reality" hits.

Here I am at our holiday work party. I cropped out the beer, lol...it was just taken as a joke after I donned the fake hair and elf hat from the elephant gift swap (or whatever that weird gift exchange thing is called). I'm not a crazy partier, I promise, lol!

So in my mind, I was wearing cute jeans with brown boots and cute navy sweater. I felt really good. Then I see this picture with the big belly and I remember that I have a long way to go before I reach my goal, even though I felt good that night.

This blog is not meant to be self-deprecating - it is simply meant as a reminder to stay on track. A lot of us do well for a bit and then tend to feel like we're doing enough and slowly that turns into stalling and not losing weight, never reaching our goal. I don't want that to happen this time.

I commented on my blog yesterday that until now it has been about getting to the gym. Now it has to be about ramping up my work out and basically MAKING IT COUNT. 8 weeks ago, I could barely get up in the morning and I could barely get through a work out. Both have become easy now. It is time to increase the difficulty when I'm at the gym.

Happy Hannuka!

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HONEYBEA 12/18/2014 5:45PM

    I totally get it. I look in the mirror and convince myself I am a hot tamale. Then, I glimpse my shadow from the side and yikes! Reality check, Melissa. I'm glad you are not giving up/throwing in the towel because of this photo. You have the determination to reach your goals!

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PHEBESS 12/17/2014 11:22AM

    Ugh. We all have those reminder photos, don't we? Where you look and think, no, I don't really look like that, do I? But yes, we do.

So, keep on trucking, and you'll get there. It isn't easy. But, well, it isn't insurmountable, either.

Happy Chanukah (however you spell it in English).

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/16/2014 10:37PM

    I can relate to everything you said. I do not like the way I look in clothes or out of them. The thick middle has to go. It causes me grief in so many ways. You are definitely working hard on this. I'm doing better too but really need to up my game!

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/16/2014 7:51PM

    I keep my photos out to remind myself of where I am and where I want to be.

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ADAGIO_CON_BRIO 12/16/2014 7:34PM

    You have got such a great program and so much tenacity, that I know you will succeed in being proud of any and all pictures you see of yourself.
Here is your reality: 1) on Paleo again 2) hitting the gym 3) focusing on fitness..
The picture does not distort the reality which is admirable and inspiring.

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199 - Boot Camp

Monday, December 15, 2014

Kinda bummed about it...our old instructor is gone. One minute she was there, the next...not. I'm actually pretty unhappy about how it went down - everyone else at the gym was just saying "She's tired", "She's out of town", until finally someone finally admitted she was gone. That's such B.S. I was not happy that they lied about it, but whatever. I'm there to lose weight and get fit, not get involved in the drama.

Well, we have a super nice, new kid doing our boot camp. He has a football background and it shows. We've had him 2-3 times now and we are getting FRUSTRATED. People are talking about leaving, branching off and doing our own boot camp, etc. Boot camp used to be a gut-busting, lung-bursting work out. Now, it's like Jazzercise at the old-age home. I used to hit 400-450 calories in 40 minutes. Now we're doing a full 60 minutes...today I got to 380. It is bogus and I'm not happy about it. We keep telling him to raise the bar and today we had a serious talk with him...I'll give it a few more times and if he's not getting it, I'll stop going. They're adding Tues/Thurs bootcamp and it's with an instructor that works us hard. I feel bad for the new kid, but we don't get to the gym at 5:45 am to stretch for 45 minutes and then do 10 minutes of sit ups and push ups.

We'll see what happens. I hope it works out because I've been loving the group aspect of it!

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HONEYBEA 12/15/2014 4:10PM

    He needs to know that you all will not break if he puts you through a hard workout. Sounds like he is being respectful but once he knows you're not going to break he will most likely do better.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/15/2014 1:20PM

    So unfair that they didn't tell you the truth right away. I have never gone to a gym but can relate in general. I get used to people working at places I do business with and then they are gone. I try to be patient and accepting but the new people never seem to measure up to the previous ones even with time. For instance I go to the newspaper office every week and the former receptionist there was fantastic. The new woman is a liar, she is lazy, confused, can't count, and makes you wait while she plays with her personal cell phone. She is friendly enough but is terrible at her job. The staff is almost all new too and all extremely young - early 20s. The quality of the paper is declining. I'm ready to give up reading the paper. This is why newspaper sales are declining. People expect value for their money. They want to go to the gym and get their money's worth. I hope this guy can get it together.

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SLIMMERJESSE 12/15/2014 1:16PM

    Sounds like fun. BTW, I wondered - if I do ever adopt a shelter kitty - when is too soon for Harry? And how do I introduce to each other? I've heard you keep the new one in a room and gradually let it out? At this point, I really don't want to develop additional attachments, but then again, both Harry and I are feeling this loss heavily.

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CONFUSEDBIRD 12/15/2014 1:09PM

    It sucks when you find a teacher you like and lose them. I hope this dude steps it up or they find someone else.

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VANGO79 12/15/2014 11:53AM

    Good luck with you boot camp. I know what you mean about wanting sweat inducing, heart pounding workouts. Do what you need to do for you.

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198 - if you don't succeed, try and try again!

Sunday, December 14, 2014

So to start off this blog of Day 198, I went back to Day 1:


I was so optimistic about so much "newness" - my job, the gym, my plan to stay on track with 214 days left until the end of the year. 197 days later I can say that I spent the majority of the time not doing a whole lot, but I can proudly say that I really feel that I am now on track. I hate that it is almost the end of the year and YET AGAIN, I did not persevere to reach my goals. Despite the fact that the majority of the year has been a failure, I am currently:

1 - working out multiple to the majority of the days of the week - 3x boot camp at 5:45, 1x trainer session + as many more days of exercise as possible. I have to say that for now, it's been about getting to the gym. It is time to bump up the work outs and really push myself.

2 - I'm back on Paleo, it is day 12. I'm still cheating here and there (milk, some sugar) but I'm generally doing great and I've already lost 3.5 pounds since starting up again...that after GAINING weight over the last 6 months from trying to eat a balanced diet of carbs and protein, etc. It just doesn't work for me.

For me, the key is BALANCE. I've never had that: I either Spark like crazy but don't really change food or exercise, or I eat great but don't go to the gym, or I go to the gym but binge eat every night...I haven't found a way to bring the food, the fitness and the community together.

But I'm trying. I really am.

If anyone is on Instagram, feel free to "friend" me - I'm "eddymeese" there, as well. I'm finding it quite motivational!

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WOUBBIE 12/15/2014 1:50PM

    You haven't failed when you've done things and learned things. Unqualified successes are extremely rare, so celebrate the little things that went right!

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MORTICIAADDAMS 12/15/2014 1:30PM

    At least you are on track now. I finally gave up and bought some fat clothes. Immediately I started to lose some weight and I think that sometimes I have to pay the price to get serious. Obviously I'm a hard-head.

I'm hit and miss on the eating and exercise but have reined it in some and that is enough to see some results.

I think I have finally figured out what is causing the once a day diarrhea too. I think it is my supplements. What a bummer!! I feel I am only taking what I need but obviously it's enough to cause problems. I take a multivitamin for women over 50, a vitamin d3, my B.P. med, and a vitamin C. I think it's the vitamin C. It's not even a ton of vitamin c but maybe too much for me or maybe I have some gluten in my vitamins. All I know is that is causes me to have IBS. I am sick of being weird.

I am so glad you are really doing well! It gives me some hope!

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CONFUSEDBIRD 12/15/2014 1:05PM

    I am here starting a new with ya!

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PHEBESS 12/15/2014 5:22AM

    I always seem to do okay on either the nutrition or the workouts, but yeah, getting both in the optimal range at the same time is hard.

Keep working on it, you'll keep getting closer to those goals!

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DO4FIT 12/15/2014 12:10AM

    you know... they say it is not how many times you "fall down" but how many times you "stand up". I find that every time I "start over" I have learned a little more about what will or wont work for me and can use that to my advantage! Good luck finding your balance! Happy Holidays!

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PREPAREMYTEMPLE 12/14/2014 10:43PM

    It is always nice to see people that are trying and even if not all goes right they don't give up. I also have problem finding a balance in my life. I am going to work at getting my goals specific and broken down into manageable steps for each area of my life and then integrate them for a more balanced life.

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179 - Prepping for Primal/Paleo

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

So I'm feeling great about the gym, but the food is still an issue. I know what works for me and what I enjoy, it is just a matter of getting over the fact that I have to give up so much. But I will have so much to gain:

1) more energy
2) more weight loss
3) drop sizes
4) feel better about myself

In preparation for going primal/paleo again, I've downloaded Mark Sisson's Primal Blueprint to read. I want to go at it this time with a bit more knowledge backing me up. Dec. 1st is starting day.

Have a happy thanksgiving, everyone!

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WOUBBIE 11/29/2014 12:32AM

    You're not really giving it up. You can have that stuff any time you want you're just choosing NOT to.

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MORTICIAADDAMS 11/26/2014 1:09PM

    I have the Primal Blueprint book. It's really good. I have a couple of the cookbooks too. I have quite a few paleo books too.

Right now anything I do regarding diet and exercise is an improvement. My Thanksgiving menu is really fairly healthy and my Christmas one isn't too bad either if I stay away from the sweets.

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SLIMMERJESSE 11/26/2014 8:11AM

    Have a wonderful Thanksgiving.

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PHEBESS 11/26/2014 3:06AM

    Sometimes I have trouble doing both the food and the exercise, so I'll focus on one, then the other. It isn't easy, is it? Good luck! And happy Thanksgiving!

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