Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Well, last night I stayed with my brother and SIL and we got into a very *loud* argument about weight loss.
Here is why it got loud: my brother's solution to dieting, weight loss, etc....wait for it...WILLPOWER.
All. It. Takes. Is. WILLPOWER...he said.
His wife and I often commiserate about our weight. She's really gained a lot and I can see that it is really depressing her. She's reached a number I don't think she thought she could even reach. But there we both are. So we've, for the umpteenth time, recommited to each other as *real life* accountability partners.
We have a google doc going, 5-lb increment rewards, we're on MFP together, and we plan to text each other at least a few times a week to make sure we are on track. I really think we can make this work.
We've created some serious 5-lb increment rewards which makes the process so much more exciting :)
I got my hair cut. My hair is long, so it isn't like my cuts ever come out looking fantastically different than they did before, lol. But it is still nice to be pampered.
Back to work tomorrow. Have a good week, everyone!
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
I have today and tomorrow off:
Going to big brother's place this evening for dinner, then staying overnight and getting my hair cut tomorrow in Portland.
Then, back home.
Nothing special, but it is a break from the usual work and monotony.
Zvika and I have been doing a lot of talking about the future and I'm excited for where life might take us. Zvika's job, although still sucking the life out of us, is at least now "worth it" from a financial point of view. Money is certainly not everything for us, but it at least makes his long hours easier to swallow. His job track will be life-changing if he goes as far as he plans to and we're very excited about what the future may offer to us. We have a lot of plans :)
Today is generally speaking a bit of a down day for me. Shandi's leg is swelling and I'm, of course, panicking. I know that her time is limited and I'm lucky to still have her with me. A year out after diagnosis with Osteosarcoma is a huge deal. But the year has passed too quickly and I'm back in that "any day now" mode. I know the day is coming whether it is soon or even if she didn't have cancer, it would be in a year, two, maybe three. No matter what, whether she lives only 9 years or had she reached 12 years, it would have been too soon. It is never enough time. I'm trying not to complain or cry to Zvika, not with his dad being terminally ill.
I know that life without Shandi will go on and Zvika needs me to be strong for him with his father. Life always goes on
Right now the plan with Zvika's dad is that Zvika will fly to Israel ASAP when we get our passports. If the picture is bleak, he'll stay a week and come back, then we'll fly back together in October/November. If he goes there and he seems stable, we'll probably wait and fly back in January/February.
I am trying really, really hard to NOT get sucked into the depression that grips me life starts to get a little bit rocky. This is where I would usually disappear and bury my head for a while. I'm trying really hard not to do that this time, so bear with me, my friends.
Woubbie wrote a great blog about FlyLady's 1-2-3 routine
My 1-2-3's aren't really consistent with working on good habits, so here's my new list for myself for morning routine, which I'm going to add to my little streaking challenge. I'll work on an evening 1-2-3 routine when I've got this one down.
1. Get up 2. Make bed 3. Let dogs out
1. Check calendar and this list until it is a routine 2. Boil water 3. Treats for all (cats, dogs)
1. Sweep and dust 2. Check laundry 3. Empty dish rack
1. Weigh in 2. Brush teeth, hair, makup 3. Double check clothes for work/exercise, shoes, etc.
1. Prepare breakfast/lunch for work 2. Plan dinner 3. Check shopping list
1. Coffee 2. Spark 3. Get dressed - go to work
I'll try that out and tweak it if I don't like this routine...I'll update.
Have a good rest of your week, everybody!
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Work was terrible. So many terrible cases - like, abuse cases. It amazes me how ignorant people are. Today we saw a Pitbull who died because of FLEAS, as in, flea anemia. Every square inch was covered. He had FLY EGGS in his mouth, like perched along his gum lines. He was emaciated. Yes, animals can die from fleas.
I saw a cat who had been whipped around by his tail - guess what, that breaks the tail. The skin was ripped back and there were maggots living next to his visible spinal column. People did this.
Here is my Day 3 streak, because I have nothing more to say that is in any way helpful or positive:
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Today I was up at around 7 am, had my tea, showered and then cleaned until about 8:30 (dusting, sweeping, laundry). Had a nice rest of the morning with Zvika and then he went to work at around noon. He's working so hard and thank goodness the money is worth it and it keeps his mind off of his dad, but we're ready for this stage in our lives to be over and enjoy the benefits of a good job.
I got a bad headache around 1 pm and nursed it the rest of the day. It was pretty hot out, about 93, I think. I mostly stayed in and watched The Sopranos (on Season 2). I followed Paleo like a good girl, even though Zvika tried to talk me in to getting a pizza or having breakfast bagel sandwiches. No, way! I'm not surprised about the headache - I always start to get them for no good reason when TOM is on its way.
Here's to Day 2 of streaking on SP - the three accomplishments are not identical to yesterday. Generally, I want to interact with friends, interact in groups and interact with people I don't know...
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Yikes, life has been a bit nuts. Work has been insanely busy and I get home every night and CRASH...and ever since I gave up my morning coffee, I'm sleeping in instead of getting up to Spark!
So what's new -
I met my personal trainer and got my measurements taken...a lot of numbers in the 40's...ugh. She's very nice and I think we'll hit it off. It will be difficult to get her on board with Paleo, I think, but she has no choice! I have no intention of following the typical high-carb plan that most trainers recommend. I have a long way to go, that's for sure. I didn't let the measurements get me down, though. It is what it is and I'm making a change.
Work has been ok but I'm struggling again with feeling like I'm not doing a good enough job. Does anybody else do that? Why do I always go home feeling like I'm just mediocre? Anybody else have that problem? It isn't as though anything specific happens...I just always feel like a dummy. Sometimes I feel like I'm speaking Chinese, or something. Do I think I'm speaking English but I'm actually speaking Parseltongue?
I experimented a bit in the past 10 days - I allowed myself potatoes, which are ok on Paleo. I gained 4 pounds. Yay. I've been off of the potatoes for 2 days now and I'm back down 2 pounds. So I guess potatoes are off of my plan!
I went running again today, upped the speed and went for about 35 minutes at 4-4.5 mph. I was pretty happy with the run. My ankle didn't hurt and I didn't feel self-conscious. The gym is really empty most of the time.
I've been 99.9% sqeaky-clean Paleo for about 10 days now, which I'm very proud of.
I'd promised to start a streaking challenge with a Sparkfriend and puttered out pretty quickly. I'm almost 4 weeks behind, but here I go. I'm not going to make my streaks about exercising, logging, etc...but about Sparkpeople, because I am not doing a good job of balancing SP with life, and I need to learn how to do so.
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