Wednesday, September 10, 2014
Yesterday was a big day for us...I amputated Shandi's cancer leg (well, I monitored the anesthesia and Zvika held my hand and told me to stop crying). It was a rough night for everyone - she cried a lot and I didn't get more than an hour or two of sleep.
But then she suddenly stood up on her own and went potty, had some breakfast, and has been sleeping on/off all day. What a trooper and how resilient these animals are!
I have fought (and won) the urge to just splurge all day today - something about vegging out with my girl automatically leads me to thoughts of Cheetos and ice cream. But I didn't do it! I can't say I didn't overeat snacking all day, but I didn't cave :)
I'm back up a few pounds since deciding to try the good old "calories-in, calories-out" method...so back to Paleo I go. It isn't that I don't enjoy the food on Paleo, it's that I also enjoy a lot of things not on Paleo. Oh well, same old song and dance.
Otherwise, we're juggling a lot of emotions right now between Shandi and FIL and plans for IVF and work stress and such...but overall I think we're handling it well. I'll update as things progress.
Thursday, September 04, 2014
Ooof. That was a really bad place I was in 6 days ago. My apologies. My intention is never to "up and leave". I plan on being my own success story.
Anyway, here's where I'm at now:
1 - first session with personal trainer yesterday...feeling it today. We meet once a week, which leave me with 2 more days of strength training and 2-3 days of cardio that I have to make myself do. I can do that. I have an old treadmill at home, and maybe if I'm good, I'll reward myself with a new one in a few months.
2 - I am officially starting my antique collection - who knew I was an antique fanatic, right? 34 years old, with the soul of a 90-year-old, what can I say? I'm going to my first auction on September 11 :) I have to narrow down my interests, because I can't just run around buying whatever I please. Furniture is my favorite, any era prior to the 1920's. Art Deco is a favorite of mine, but anything after that, and I lose interest. Collecting furniture is hard because of cost, space, shipping issues...So I'm going to focus my collection on clocks. I have 5 now. I also want to teach myself how to fix and restore them, which is actually pretty hard. I also like rugs, glassware, jewelry...but those get really pricey. Having a hobby is awesome and I'm excited to really throw myself into it!
3 - Work...well, work gets to be emotionally draining and I'm looking forward to my hobby. We were talking at work about how we get to the point where we crave anything BUT animals..we don't want to see movies about dying dogs, or TV shows about reuniting pets or saving animals, or read books about a man's best friend, etc. Imagine being a lawyer and watching only Law and Order when you got home and reading only John Grisham...sometimes you need a break!
4 - Food isn't going so great...I'm like an angry teenager who doesn't want to conform. So I'm counting calories, and that's all I'm going to say about that for now, lol.
I hope everyone is well - thank you for the support, as usual :)
Here is a picture of one of my clocks:
and yes, that is a doily, and yes, I was born after 1930...but it is a beautiful, hand-made lace doily from Czechoslovakia, and I have beautiful lace curtains, too (but won't hang them because of the cats).
Thursday, August 28, 2014
I'm not giving up, I'm really not.
I'm just tired of feeling like a Spark Fraud.
I'll still get on here to check in with Spark Friends, because I've been here long enough to make friends that mean more to me than they know, and I'm not giving up on being their friend.
If you're interested and would like to be my friend IRL, feel free to add me on Facebook - I try not to spend much time there, either, but still:
I'm Eddy-Zvika Meese on Facebook.
I'm not taking a break from losing weight or because SP is somehow to blame for my failures, I'm taking a break because I need to rethink how I'm committing myself to this process. I love SP, but I don't want to just go through the motions - I want to be a success story. I may come back in a week, maybe a month, maybe not at all. Who knows?
Monday, August 25, 2014
Thank you to everyone who commented on my previous blog...I try not to dwell on the baby thing all of the time, but I go through these cycles where I just get so overwhelmed by it all. I wish I didn't want it, but I do.
Anyway, it's time to move on.
Thank you for the support :)
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