best quote i've heard in a while

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

TORTISE110 posted a blog yesterday: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_j
ournal_individual.asp?blog_id=5133873
here's the quote: "When we force ourselves to connect against our heart's desires, we create false, resentful relationships; when we disconnect from the people who deplete us, we set them free to find their tribes while we find ours."
i just love that! thanks tortise

  

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VETTERMOMMY2U2 11/15/2012 6:22AM

So true. Report Inappropriate Comment

PJBONARRIGO 11/14/2012 10:03PM

Y ep, this is a keeper. Report Inappropriate Comment

smaller size !?!?!?!

Monday, November 12, 2012

i needed to do some shopping for winter clothes. i've been having difficulty keeping my pants up, but i just blamed it on my "funnel" shape. i found out i needed a smaller size of jeans. i am beyond shocked--i don't think i've been in a size 10 since 1982 or 1983. i am shocked for a few reasons....first i never thought i'd fit into that size again. second because when i was a size 26, i thought a 14 would be grand, and lastly because even seeing myself in a size 10, i still am very unhappy with the reflection in the mirror. it's all further proof that this battle will likely rage in my head...probably for the rest of my life. but i will continue to learn and grow, get healthier, and find new ways to think about, and talk to, myself.
my weight hasn't really changed since june...i've been bouncing up and down in the 167-174 range, which puts me hanging out on the cusp of the overweight/obese dividing line. that number, and designation make me feel really fat. i know there are a few factors i have to keep in mind...i have always been structurally dense, i am very large-busted, and i am now pretty muscular. since my weight didn't change, i was surprised to learn my size had. as a teen/young adult, i was anorexic. all of my adult life, i've been overweight-obese. as i've been dropping weight, i have teetered on the edge of anorexia.
i've still got a ways to go! a number on a clothing tag or a scale isn't going to make anything magically different. i will always have to be careful about what i think, what i eat, and what i do.

  

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VETTERMOMMY2U2 11/13/2012 11:51AM

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MAHGRET 11/13/2012 8:59AM

Amazing! Keep up the good work. Maybe since you know you have the eating disorder issues, you need to concentrate on healthy and not the numbers? Is it possible you look fabulous and you just can't see it? Because size 10 is bound to look fabulous! Try to be kind to yourself. Report Inappropriate Comment

BEEJAY49 11/13/2012 4:46AM

You ARE doing great! Love yourself even if what you see in the mirror isn't what you think should be there. You are making wonderful progress if you're jeans are getting smaller. So many factors like you said contribute to the shape of our bodies. Keep moving forward and don't let the anorexia get hold of you again. Love you! HUGS! Report Inappropriate Comment

WORTHART 11/12/2012 10:59PM

Oh wow, a size 10! You are doing so well, especially as you also have to cope with anorexia issues. Before I joined SP my dream was to not have to obsess about food. Before I quit drinking I obsessed all the time about alcohol and after I quit it was such a relief to not have drinking on my mind 24/7, so I wanted that same relief when it came to food. But now I can see that food addiction is different and I will always have to be vigilant. Report Inappropriate Comment

foundational article

Thursday, November 08, 2012

www.sparkpeople.com/resource/motivat
ion_articles.asp?id=729
i just re-read this article. it pretty much sums up the changes i've made in the last 22 months. moderation. progress, not perfection. changing how i think about myself, food and exercise. realizing doing the same thing and expecting different results is insanity--i'm done with the crazy merry-go-round. realizing this is a moment-by-moment, baby steps kind of journey, slowly and consistently learning, and building a new life. when i fall down, i get back up, instead of berating myself and wallowing in the mud. i just move forward.
there are no quick fixes that worked for me, but little changes have added up to 105 lbs gone FOREVER.

  

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BEEJAY49 11/10/2012 5:53AM

Thank you for sharing that. :) You are doing wonderful! :) HUGS! Report Inappropriate Comment

EBURGITE 11/9/2012 9:39AM

thanks, guys. Report Inappropriate Comment

WORTHART 11/9/2012 1:07AM

Wow, that is a huge achievement! I hope one day I can say the same, although with my recent battle with sugar, I'm not making much progress. Thanks for leaving words of encouragement on my blog. Report Inappropriate Comment

NWLIFESRC 11/8/2012 1:37PM

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MAGGIEVAN 11/8/2012 1:23PM

Great achievement. Congrats. Yes it is a great article. Report Inappropriate Comment

push ups

Monday, November 05, 2012

last week, i committed to adding regular strength training to my fitness plan. i just completed the one minute push up test. www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness
_articles.asp?id=1113
i did 27 modified push ups. the last time i tested, i only did ten, so i've improved. i didn't go down to 3" from the floor, but i went down far enough to work those muscles, but good! ouch! it's a start. i'm going to keep working at this until i can get down to three inches from the floor, and do over 30 in a minute....we'll see how long that takes. i'll get some needed upper body strength.

  

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EBURGITE 11/7/2012 8:47PM

46 girly push-ups today. Report Inappropriate Comment

EBURGITE 11/6/2012 10:37AM

thanks for your the encouragement and info, sparkfriends. tomorrow, i'll start my push-up program...3 days a week. woohoo! Report Inappropriate Comment

WORTHART 11/6/2012 12:13AM

That is pretty impressive! Some day I want to be able to do that, maybe after I lose 50 more pounds! Thanks for your comment on my blog, you were very encouraging and reassuring. I still haven't recovered from the sweet binge as I had more sugar tonight, sigh. Donna from Montana Report Inappropriate Comment

COMPUCATHY 11/5/2012 8:24PM

Sounds like a good test...and a good goal! Sending Best Wishes for a great November! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! Report Inappropriate Comment

ARCHIMEDESII 11/5/2012 2:07PM

Pushups aren't easy. they definitely take practice, but the more you practice, the easier they will get. You might also check out this website. it's the 100 push up challenge. it has great advice for increasing push up strength. http://hundredpushups.com/# sthash.mUv2VOtF.dpbs Report Inappropriate Comment

SEATTLE58 11/5/2012 1:52PM

WooHoo for you! Go for it, Girl! I sure wish that I could even try, but not yet anyway, with my RA. My wrists and hands are sooo bad! Have fun along with the work and you'll get better and better! Report Inappropriate Comment

WENDIGAYLE 11/5/2012 11:25AM

That's one exercise I can't do since shoulder surgery on both sides. I can do the ones against a wall. Keep up the good work. Report Inappropriate Comment

one word just for fun

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Not as easy as you might think! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. It's really hard to only use one word answers.

Where is your cell phone?
purse

Spouse?
supportive

Your hair?
silver

Your mother?
gone

Your father?
scary

Your favorite thing?
love

Your dream last night?
forgotten

Favorite drink?
water

What room are you in?
big

Your hobby?
creative

Your fear?
failure

Where do you want to be in 6 years?
unknown

Where were you last night?
home

Something that you aren't?
male

Muffins?
glutenfree

Wish list item?
vacation

Last thing you did?
drank

What are you wearing?
jammies

Your pets?
precious

Friends?
fantabulous

Your life?
changing

Your mood?
hopeful

Missing someone?
no

Drinking?
Water

Your car?
toaster

Something you're not wearing?
hat

Your favorite store?
bead

Your favorite color?
PURPLE!

When is the last time you cried?
sunday

Where do you go over and over?
bed

Five people who email me regularly?
family

Favorite place to eat?
home

Favorite place I'd like to be right now?
beach

  

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COMPUCATHY 11/1/2012 12:54PM

Well, I really liked your one-word answers. Very cool...you did great! Keep up the good work! Thanks for the encouragement! Spark on! Report Inappropriate Comment

EBURGITE 10/30/2012 1:06PM

that's liz! Report Inappropriate Comment

LIZOFSTAD 10/30/2012 12:11PM

I don't have a blog, but I want to play. Where is your cell phone? desk Spouse? partner Your hair? brown Your mother? heavenly Your father? gone Your favorite thing? chocolate Your dream last night? forgotten Favorite drink? pop What room are you in? cubicle Your hobby? movies Your fear? fear Where do you want to be in 6 years? thinner Where were you last night? party Something that you aren't? atheist Muffins? please! Wish list item? Cuisinart Last thing you did? typed What are you wearing? clothes Your pets? heavenly Friends? wonderful Your life? good Your mood? fun Missing someone? yes Drinking? pop Your car? parked Something you're not wearing? earrings Your favorite store? grocery Your favorite color? blue When is the last time you cried? unknown Where do you go over and over? sister's Five people who email me regularly? friends Favorite place to eat? mexican Favorite place I'd like to be right now? Hawaii Report Inappropriate Comment