Monday, October 29, 2012
i've been working on maintenance for a while, just taking a bit of a break from calorie-restriction to evaluate where i am and how things are going. i lost 107 lbs, and my weight is pretty much staying there, but i have noticed from day to day, week to week, there is about a 6 lb variation....it goes up, and it goes down, with no real pattern or anything. i believe that means i've learned how to eat for my body's needs. it sounds so boring and unimportant to say that, but it's HUGE for me. i am neither over-eating, nor under-eating--for the first time since childhood (when i was so hyperactive, i burned all my calories away!).
i quit tracking calories, because i found myself becoming obsessive about it, and it caused me to undereat. i think my period of "rest" is over....it's time for a change. i am going to eat like i've been eating for the last few months, but i'll be keeping an account to see what my intake has been like. after doing that for a couple of weeks, i will see how it all pans out, and from there, hopefully i can make plans that are reasonable and rational for ME to drop the last of my weight.
my life is completely different, and i know i will not go back to morbid obesity, but it's not likely i'll ever be "thin." fit...healthy...content....experiencing freedom from a warped body image, unrealistic expectations, yo-yo-dieting, self-loathing.....i'm getting there, and that's much better than thin.