Saturday, June 30, 2007
I start my morning off today with a little exercise and enjoying the scenery, no rain :) I feel good about myself. I got up at 4:45am this morning, ate my breakfast and got ready for a good walk. My day will take me to the farmers market and then a trip to the butcher's market. I promised myself this week, that i would plan all my meals I did a seven day planner and have based my grocery shop around it, it's keeping me focused. This is my mini goal, to make it through this week measuring and preparing all my meals ahead of time for the next day. Every evening I will make my lunch and snacks for the next day. DInners are all 30 minute meals or less. I did alot of my meal plan from KRAFT.COM. I have so many yummy salads for lunches, they all have either chicken or beef in them and the range from 200-350 calories max. I am really going to push myself to get up early and go to bed no later than 10pm. It is time for me to really step it up. I have chosen low carb foods. my meals plans do not exceed 1600 calories. :) I have it posted it at work and on my fridge as my reminder to stay focus! NO fast food. I even have a great meal for Friday, a slice of pizza, basil, tomato and cucumer salad and raspberries. I don't think i'll feel depreived I am making a really nice jello mold with cantalope and it is regular jello, not skimping on taste to save calories. That way eveyrone can eat the treat it is only 90 calories and is included in my plan. I can do this and will do this. I really want to lose this weight and stop bouncing back and forth, I am not a ping pong ball. I am worth my dreams being fulfilled!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
How do I motivate myself?
Wow, that is one tough question because I can start out strong and then get bored easily and lose focus quickly. Some of the things that help me is going to my TOPS meetings weekly, posting on the Sparks message boards, tracking my food, reading motivating articles-others peoples success.
Iím always reading on how to prepare foods to work with my low carb program. In reading I am educating myself, learning the things that my body needs and why it is broken. I am insulin resistant so therefore I must make good carb choices or I wonít lose. So I educate myself.
Not to say staying motivated is easy, but the one thing I know is I wonít quit, I keep at it. If anything I maintain or stay within 10#. This year has been hard for me, thus I continue to push myself. Going to TOPS SRD (kind of a 2 day motivational retreat) helped but the hardest thing I have had to do is force myself to exercise, it doesnít get easier as I thought it would. I actually tread it; Iíd like to know how to get passed it. ARGH!!! I will continue to push myself as needed.
Well that is how I stay motivated most of the time. I wish I had my own personal chef and trainer at home, donít we all!!! Someone to crack the whip but give me the enthusiasm needed.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
When things get tough and they often do; when I'm feeling down and feel like giving up; when the motivation dies; when you just have no more to give and feel you want to give up--- DON'T!!!
I have this poem I carry with me at all times and want to share with any one who visits my page.
Dont quit when the tide is lowest,
For it's just about to turn;
Don't quit over doubts and questions,
For there's something you may learn.
Don't quit when the night is darkest,
For it's just a while 'til dawn;
Don't quit when you've run the farthest,
For the race is almost won.
Don't quit when the hill is steepest,
For your goal is almost nigh;
Don't quit, for you're not a failure
Until you fail to try.
Author: Jill Wolf
So keep going and never ever quit!!!
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
For a long time, I didn't have the confidence I have in me now. I know now that with hard work on my part I can do anything. Yes life throws you obsticals on a daily basis but it is up to us to have the faith to succeed in life. We an either sit and watch life continue to move or we can move along with it. I finally got it! TOPS retreat this year gave me alot of motivation. My friends believe in me that I can lose this weight. I don't want to let them down, so I must believe in me and take the energy they feed me each week with me. I made many good friends and I remember the good times I had that day to get me through a hard day. I take it hour by hour sometimes minute by minute but I know I can.
Monday, May 07, 2007
I had a wonderful time at SRD; the theme was Mardi gras. We left Friday morning at 6:15am and arrived around 8:40 am. Everyone hooked up at the Hilton. We stayed at the Phoenix Inn and I bunked with Trishanna, Marlee & Chris. The weather was cloudy and overcast on Friday, as well as Saturday, with sun breaks. The speakers were Nancy Markuso, King Markís wife and Paul Vitale. Nancy spoke a great deal about herself and the TOPS organization, King Markís wife spoke about gastric bypass and Paul was a motivational speaker that was just amazing. He told us that we must have confidence, dare to dream courageously and overcome the negative. Attitude, consistency and the ability to overturn adversity is what is needed to succeed and believe in ourselves no matter what happens in our lives, life happens, donít let the circumstances get you. He said we must establish a course of action, if you want to get it done; DO IT! donít procrastinate about it. Also, we are to empower ourselves and others to imagine, unite in a common bound for TOPS it is our journey, be resilient like no others, bounce back donít stay down. He was amazing speaker a little spark of fire and what a handsome little devil. We then checked into the Phoenix Inn and settled in; we took a swim and then went out and got dinner, then headed back for more motivation. They had a Sock Hop, but I was too tired to stay very long day!!!
Saturday was the day of celebration!!!! The king and queen would be crowned for 2006, division winners would be recognized and KOPS members honored and new members would graduate. What an emotional day!! Patsy was crowned our 2006 queen; she lost 217# in 19 mos. She looked great. Joannie placed the crown on her and what an emotional moment for our Chapter. Plus Patsy was divisional winner as well, graduated to KOP status; she gave her yellow rose to Trishanna what a moment. The circle of light was beautiful. This is where all of the KOPS get together and the KING & QUEEN start the light and they turn the lights off and you see the little penlights for all of the KOPS and they surrounded 1000 of us it was amazing. It was awesome!!! For that moment it is dark and Lynda sang a beautiful song; it gave me so much hope. I left there not only motivated to get myself moving but with a determination to lose weight this year. I want to be a KOP; I donít want to struggle anymore with my weight!!!! I knew at that instant that I could do it and stay on task. I know if I asked my TOP Friends for help they will be there. I know if I ask Byron he will be there for me too. It was an amazing weekend. The girls and I talked for hours that night after the banquet; we were roommates but became closer. It was an amazing feeling of empowerment that came over me. I want to do this. People say that we have to want it bad enough, so I guess it finally clicked and I want it bad enough. I exercised my tail off all weekend, without really being a challenge we jogged in place in the pool for 70 minutes and talked it went by so fast. Saturday evening when we got back from SRD, Patsy stopped me and said I have something to give you. I waited while she went through her bag when she pulled her Yellow Rose pin, she said she believed in me to give it to me and that Trish and I would succeed we just need to believe in ourselves and push, even when it got hard. I was an emotional mess. I was touched that she gave me her pin that was hers, she earned when she made KOP status and here she was giving it to me putting it on my vest; a daily reminder that she believes in me. This is my second rose, the first was given to me by our Chapter Leader Rosemary and it has kept me balanced, it reminds me not to give up even though this year has been hard.
All in all I had a wonderful we left at 9:30 and got home at noon on Sunday. I left this weekend feeling empowered, confident and a renewed sense of courage to get it done!!
I know that even if we get pregnant this year, I can still maintain a healthy life style during the pregnancy and end up losing. I have a dream and I will succeed!!!
I got on the scale this morning and it showed I had dropped 8# I was so happy. Amazing, the doctor was right, eating right and doing the exercise and taking the metformin will work!!! I have beaten the medicine challenge by exercising more often, no more excuses, onward for a new skinny me is waiting to come out!!!
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