Monday, May 07, 2007
I had a wonderful time at SRD; the theme was Mardi gras. We left Friday morning at 6:15am and arrived around 8:40 am. Everyone hooked up at the Hilton. We stayed at the Phoenix Inn and I bunked with Trishanna, Marlee & Chris. The weather was cloudy and overcast on Friday, as well as Saturday, with sun breaks. The speakers were Nancy Markuso, King Markís wife and Paul Vitale. Nancy spoke a great deal about herself and the TOPS organization, King Markís wife spoke about gastric bypass and Paul was a motivational speaker that was just amazing. He told us that we must have confidence, dare to dream courageously and overcome the negative. Attitude, consistency and the ability to overturn adversity is what is needed to succeed and believe in ourselves no matter what happens in our lives, life happens, donít let the circumstances get you. He said we must establish a course of action, if you want to get it done; DO IT! donít procrastinate about it. Also, we are to empower ourselves and others to imagine, unite in a common bound for TOPS it is our journey, be resilient like no others, bounce back donít stay down. He was amazing speaker a little spark of fire and what a handsome little devil. We then checked into the Phoenix Inn and settled in; we took a swim and then went out and got dinner, then headed back for more motivation. They had a Sock Hop, but I was too tired to stay very long day!!!
Saturday was the day of celebration!!!! The king and queen would be crowned for 2006, division winners would be recognized and KOPS members honored and new members would graduate. What an emotional day!! Patsy was crowned our 2006 queen; she lost 217# in 19 mos. She looked great. Joannie placed the crown on her and what an emotional moment for our Chapter. Plus Patsy was divisional winner as well, graduated to KOP status; she gave her yellow rose to Trishanna what a moment. The circle of light was beautiful. This is where all of the KOPS get together and the KING & QUEEN start the light and they turn the lights off and you see the little penlights for all of the KOPS and they surrounded 1000 of us it was amazing. It was awesome!!! For that moment it is dark and Lynda sang a beautiful song; it gave me so much hope. I left there not only motivated to get myself moving but with a determination to lose weight this year. I want to be a KOP; I donít want to struggle anymore with my weight!!!! I knew at that instant that I could do it and stay on task. I know if I asked my TOP Friends for help they will be there. I know if I ask Byron he will be there for me too. It was an amazing weekend. The girls and I talked for hours that night after the banquet; we were roommates but became closer. It was an amazing feeling of empowerment that came over me. I want to do this. People say that we have to want it bad enough, so I guess it finally clicked and I want it bad enough. I exercised my tail off all weekend, without really being a challenge we jogged in place in the pool for 70 minutes and talked it went by so fast. Saturday evening when we got back from SRD, Patsy stopped me and said I have something to give you. I waited while she went through her bag when she pulled her Yellow Rose pin, she said she believed in me to give it to me and that Trish and I would succeed we just need to believe in ourselves and push, even when it got hard. I was an emotional mess. I was touched that she gave me her pin that was hers, she earned when she made KOP status and here she was giving it to me putting it on my vest; a daily reminder that she believes in me. This is my second rose, the first was given to me by our Chapter Leader Rosemary and it has kept me balanced, it reminds me not to give up even though this year has been hard.
All in all I had a wonderful we left at 9:30 and got home at noon on Sunday. I left this weekend feeling empowered, confident and a renewed sense of courage to get it done!!
I know that even if we get pregnant this year, I can still maintain a healthy life style during the pregnancy and end up losing. I have a dream and I will succeed!!!
I got on the scale this morning and it showed I had dropped 8# I was so happy. Amazing, the doctor was right, eating right and doing the exercise and taking the metformin will work!!! I have beaten the medicine challenge by exercising more often, no more excuses, onward for a new skinny me is waiting to come out!!!