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Day 40 - 43 Daily Challenge

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Jan. 11-14, 2013
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Exercise - emoticon SICK!!!!
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No Binging emoticon still streaking!

Friday - had a great time @ bunco with my TOPS friends!!! emoticon

Saturday - had to work from 8-1 and than was wanting to go to the bank and it didn't work out very well the branch i thought was open til 2 wasn't.. emoticon then it hit me hard i thought i was just tired nope sinus infection i had felt the headache earlier but than the congestion hit and was tired!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

Sunday - another sick day rested emoticon emoticon emoticon

Today - still not 100% about 70% sinus infection is kicking tail. Went to BED Therapy and had a great session!! I am hoping to get into a 12 week workshop on intuitive eating getting out of the diet mentality since i have an eating disorder if insurance covers i am golden if not FSA acct should be able to be used since my therapist will refer me as part of my therapy.

i am needing to make some changes that doesn't make the disorder function in warp speed obsessing and counting and measuring is not where i need to be so I have some decisions to make about leading my team. I don't feel i can lead if i am not participating and losing weight i feel like i am not doing my job. I have already been toying with it but i always get pulled in but i really need to work on me. I am will weigh in at TOPS but won't know my weight my good friends Krista will be keeping my weight record log. I have come a long way and my mind will be focusing on just eating healthy or as best as i can and fitness!! no numbers just journaling how i feel daily... so will still keep my challenge and updates but just not measuring success at the scale or numbers at the end of the days minutes or calories or measurements... I am just going to take it one meal at time and make healthy choices for myself and see how it goes. I have basically maintain my weight for two years i'm good with that as i'm fixing my disorder for the past 18 mos.

My closet has many skeltons and they are being worked on - basically i'm putting myself back together in a sense reprogramming and undoing the damage. Any hoodle hoping to feel better sinus wise and well hoping Mom's bacl surgery tomorrow goes well 82 years old almost 83 keep her in your prayers.. I'm scared for her you know she is up there and well i do worry! Anxious about it!! okay practicing my letting go to things i have no control i will pray all goes well and leave it in his hands!

Will update tomorrow pm how things go!

  
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SEWINGMAMACDS 1/16/2013 11:52AM

    As Nell said "We're behind you 100% in whatever decision you make that's best for you, but know that you've been a good leader and I for one would hate to see you go anywhere!"

Hope you are feeling better and that sinus infection is gone!

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EBPOOKIE 1/15/2013 11:37AM

    Still deciding Nell I may put myself in as honorary and lead the team if that is something that you could handle i did it last challenge and it takes the heat of me and numbers i'm not just here to lose weight i am also working on my eating disorder! emoticon

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NBARNES 1/15/2013 10:08AM

    Gosh, hate to hear you even thinking about not being our fearless leader! A leader can fall down and struggle just like the rest of us...it means you're human! It's been a tough week for me as well. Off on my food and for fighting the scale, but it helps me to know others on the team are in the same boat.

We're behind you 100% in whatever decision you make that's best for you, but know that you've been a good leader and I for one would hate to see you go anywhere!
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Day 36 - 39 Daily Challenge

Friday, January 11, 2013

Jan. 7 - 10, 2013
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Meal Plan emoticon No calorie counting just writing it down it's working for me intuitive eating plan just eating healthy!!!
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Sleep - emoticon emoticon Itís happening and Iím happy!
No Binging emoticon still streaking!
Okay Monday started out as a scary night for me I was putting away Christmas stuff in my storage closet at my apt. the door shut behind me at one point I was locked in no knob on the inside and the door was sticking and swollen so I tried kick but was in a panicked state anyone who has followed my blog knows that this is not a good thing that happened. (for those of you new to it I used to be locked up in a crawlspace for days by my dad w/o food and it led to my binge eating disorder-which Iím in therapy for) okay I found my camp lantern and got light and pulled myself got my barings against the boxes and camping gear and kicked as hard as I could broke the door but got my butt out quick. My biggest fear was my husband was sick and asleep as was my mom (FLU)Ö from now on cell phone will come with me. Anyway had a rough night but slept hard. I actually wrote about it in my journal on how I felt. It was a good thing overall. I got my exercise in by running up and down 3 flights of stairs with the Christmas Tubs like 5 times.

Tuesday got up and walked/jogged and decided not to count calories just to eat healthy and that I would measure for portion control to get used to a healthy portion vs. mega portions. I felt good never deprived. Eating a lot more veggies and actually enjoying it. Went to bed early by 9pm

Wednesday another good day and even had a burger was able to make it taste like those nice ones at Red Robin. I made my own Bonsai Turkey Burger. I have been prepping mom for her surgery on the 15th of January.

Thursday this was a little bit more of crazier night lots of running around so I was a little more stressed. Work has been really crazy busy!! I find myself distracted lately, so curbing it and owning it when I see it happening. Talked to my oldest sister regarding momís up and coming surgery all is good and we are on the same page for her care.

Today is going well and will report in later, I play Bunco tonight and today woke up late so had no time to plan meals but so far Iím weathering it out. Dinner will be subway!
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REXTINE1 1/11/2013 5:14PM

    I don't know what the arrangement, but I do know that hardware stores sell locksets for closets. They have a knob on both sides, and no lock. Bathroom and bedroom locksets have a lock on the inside and a small hole for the emergency key so you can rescue a chile who locks themself in by accident, or an adult who had a storke and can't reach the knob. I put closet locksets on the closet doors because they had bedroom locksets, so a kid could lock themselves in and not know how to get out. Now they're safer.

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STEPHHAYES227 1/11/2013 4:54PM

    Must of felt amazing to have the control in the situation. You didn't panic. You came up with a plan. and you didn't allow it to break you.
congrats

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NBARNES 1/11/2013 3:53PM

    Oh dear Emm - what a spot! But it HAS to make you feel somewhat empowered to have gotten yourself out of that spot emoticon

Hope your mom's surgery goes as planned, it's always tough to have these medical issues come up, and how great that you have a sister who can work with you on making sure everything is covered.

So, take a deep breath...but DON'T hold it! emoticon ...blow it out and pat yourself on the back for tackling an issue head on!

Have a great weekend emoticon

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Day 35 Daily Challenge Training has officially started!

Monday, January 07, 2013

01/06/2013
Goals for the day:

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Meal Plan emoticon over on calories no binging but need to watch my portions and types of foods.
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Sleep - emoticon Hoping for another nights sleep!
No Binging emoticon 34 days feels great to be past one month bring on month 2!

Training for my 5k walk/jog and half marathon walk now here are some pix my hubby took we worked out for 25 mins today!


walk/jog interval

  
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COUPONS0216 1/7/2013 1:34PM

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Lovely surroundings to walk in!


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NBARNES 1/7/2013 1:14PM

    Sweet - what a lovely trail you have to train on. Looks like a great surface for walking and jogging.


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Day 33 & 34 Daily Challenge

Sunday, January 06, 2013

01/04/2013
Goals for the day:

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Sleep - emoticon emoticon Finally!!!
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Finally got some well needed sleep had to break down and take a sleep aide not my favorite but needed my rest it was starting to really wear on me.

01/05/2013
Goals for the day:

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Sleep - emoticon Hoping for another nights sleep!
No Binging emoticon

Had a great day today i went to a workshop on Starting the New Year with Acceptance Instead of Resolution it covered intuitive eating and acceptance of yourself this was something that was recommended by Binge Eating therapist who'd also would like me to check into their workshops etc. I'm really interested but not sure if my insurance will cover it as well. I will however call and see. I'm always open for doing things for me the worst that can happen is a no for now.

Well my positive thinking is helping me with my eating and not binging and that is all i care about right now.

  
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COUPONS0216 1/6/2013 10:09PM

    You are starting the year off with a bang, and that's great!
I hope you continue to get a good night's rest, it's easier to do the things we need to do when we're well rested.
AWESOME job, especially with binge eating, I know when I am tired I am more prone to eat excessively, yet you made it through even when you were having sleep problems! WTG!

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NBARNES 1/6/2013 3:34PM

    Good job Em - we can all benefit from a helping hand now and again!
emoticon for helping us remember that it's all up to us to make things happen. I for one need a firmer hand, especially this time around!

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EBPOOKIE 1/6/2013 2:46AM

    Thank you ladies I really appreciate support!!

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RD03875 1/6/2013 2:03AM

    Way to go!

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JOYFUL78 1/6/2013 1:46AM

    emoticon I am sooooooooooooo PROUD of you with ALL of your accomplishments, yeh!!!!!!


and I am so jealous of you that you drink ALL of your daily requirements of water.... I wish I could be like you... I just forget to drink lots of water. I drink like 32 ounces.


again congrats on an OUTSTANDING job! emoticon emoticon

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Day 32 Daily Challenge :) Kitty is better! :)

Thursday, January 03, 2013

01/03/2013
Goals for the day:

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Baby Kitty is doing better she is eating and drinking water. Vet said she was a little dehydrated so the got fluids in her and her arthritis has progress more that is why she is moving slower so it is to be expected as she is 15. Told us to get her some joint supplements to help with her arithritis!! So thank you for the prayers :)

Me i'm going to bed and got meds to help me sleep through the night i hate having to take them but after a week my therapist won't have me going on longer. We are pushing our session to once a week till we get through more of the tough stuff. So here is hoping the meds work.

  
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NBARNES 1/4/2013 4:30PM

    Hang in there and I'll be keeping finger crossed for a good night's sleep for you. I had two good nights in a row emoticon - woo hoo! Then another bad night last night, but they're happening so often now they've become the norm for me and I think I deal pretty well.

Keep up the good fight, we're all pullin' for ya'!


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SEWINGMAMACDS 1/4/2013 11:42AM

    Hope you are able to get some quality sleep. You are doing well in your other goals emoticon emoticon emoticon

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