I have struggled to get under 270 # i have a habit of sabbotoging my efforts of under and staying under. I have had many accomplishments but this one remains elusive to me. I know I must push myself to do this and not be AFRAID of getting past that, once i lose that i know i will break my own mind head game so I am going to try my best to make this by the end of the year.
2. Exercise which coincides with my Spring Half training (25 weeks)
3. Journaling tracking my food and feelings it works just do it and stay consistent!
4. Its just a number and that number does not define me remember it daily!!
5. Attitude is everything if i say i can't - i might as well just give up now.. so say you can and that you are worth it daily!! & you will!!
6. Keep a daily blog as much as you can on how you did. Accountability.
7. Eat Clean and watch portions
8. Plan you meals and day and don't steer from your goal finish each day!
Still pushing through. Enjoying time with my ladies of Tops. They give me the encouragement I need to continue to succeed. Last year we hiked the mountaint to Mirror Lake, Mt. Hood Oregon. We did it and this year we wanted to repeat the hike but the weather was not cooperating, snow in the higher elevation. We decided we would still hike today. We found another hike to some beautiful falls found obstacles along the way and climbed over them literally (climbed over a log) but got our prized a beautiful ZigZag Falls. Another triumph for us. Tomorrow we will see what the weather will bring. Today we had snow, rain and sunshine... It amazes me that when it was time to do our hike the sun came out almost like God was saying her you go ladies do your magic and we did!! So now it is raining but tomorrow it may not and off we will go to do more adventures!!
I feel strong with the encouragement of my friends and know i can continue my journey!!! My climb continues!!
Eating sensibly by eating the right carbs, and clean eating this week plus my marathon i lost 4.2#. Ever since the half marathon i started thinking here i am doing this half i knew i had to start feeding my body better foods!! I realized my body is me and i love me so there i must eat cleaner!!! I have made things from scratch this week and reved up the water!! I am worth it!!!
The half started @ 8:10 am and was to finish at 1:05 PM. I had to have it done by 1pm in order to get my medal and complete it. I asked my good friend Brian to do this with me because I knew he would motivate and keep me going. Boy did he - I felt like I had a personal trainer on my back constantly telling me the pace time - we are behind, on or ahead of pace is what I would hear. I was feeling strong at mile marker 8 I took a pedestrian bridge pretty fast and it was hilly. I hit the 10.5 mile marker and that is when I hit the wall, I ran out of water and my left shin started to cramp up then at around mile marker 11 my right calve cramped up – at that point I was ready to cry I hear my best friend yell “WALK IT OFF – KEEP MOVING; WE DON’T HAVE TIME FOR THIS MOVE IT!! YOU WONT FINISH IF YOU DON’T WALK” I kept moving and walking after attempting to rub it down which didn’t help. I hit the 11.5 mile marker aid station, got two cups of water, 2cups of Gatorade and drank them plus they poured water over me and gave me a to go bottle. When I hit mile marker 12 I asked my friend Brian am I going to finish this on time. He turns around and says YES we have an hour but that doesn’t mean you can slow down FINISH STRONG KEEP MOVING!! I did I fought through major cramps to see the finish line at the ¼ mark yet it still feel sooo far really sucks. I made it through the finish line and it was the greatest feeling of accomplishment in my life. I got my medal – dogtag and gave my buddy a hug and said thank you. Love ya but hate ya! Lol. I thought we were last because we had passed up a team mom and daughter and the daughter was having a hard time come to find out afterwards she rolled her ankle on mile one. I didn’t think they were going to make it on time. Then we heard that they had 4 more walkers coming in I just got up from my stands and cheered her on. I knew how important it was to hear you did it we high fived and hugged!! It was a great experience something I will do again this time I want to better my pace. Considering my training got cut short because of my gallbladder surgery right in the middle was my proudest moment. As we drove back to camp, I realized as I could see the trail from the freeway I just walked this. I felt strong!! I continue to feel that way! After years of being told no or that you can't and believing it - believing you couldn't. Then have this and you see i could it is an amazing feeling inside me to carry forth on. Tell me I can't now and i know i will say - let me show how i did and will!
I promised everyone i would post some pictures here they are:
this is me at about a 1/4 mile left to go!
My good friend and motivator - at times I really wanted to hurt him but at the same time he challenged me to do my best time and finished it!
I'm feeling so very stuck right now, really not knowing which way I'll travel. I get anxious and overwhelmed with all the roadblocks and detour signs being handed out. Why can't the directions on this map be smooth and easy?
Life is a journey and has a habit of putting pot holes on your road and sometimes just downright breaks you down to where you need a major service haul. That is where i am right now! I'm in the garage patiently waiting for myself to get repaired.
Just when I thought I was there; a big pot hole appeared a few weeks ago and i went crashing into it. I was flooded by memories and flashbacks - a setback but while at times I have felt numb I know those small adjustments that I am making in the garage will help turn on the headlights. I know i have had some major repairs in the past year and this one had more damage but I am determined to look for the solutions need to get back on the road.
For you see every road has bumps, detours and major potholes in life but each time I've hit one of them I continue to learn and get back out on the road. Each time I learn a little more about myself. I look inside and answer the questions within myself and generate a great eternal force from my power within to gas up and move on the road again! I am just about there but not quite just there I need a push maybe even just a little jumpstart to get it going.
While in the garage I'm told to stay off the scale and be gentle and kind to myself. To follow my heart for it will heal. This weekend is important to me; I walk my first half marathon while I am scared I am also very excited. I know it will take alot of of spark to finish it but I know I will because I have alot of power inside. I hope to find that power deep within and turn the highbeams on so that I won't be missed while on the road and make it within the time alotted to complete the half. I don't want to stay in the garage so therefore I must get that push out.