Monday, August 06, 2012
I made it a full year and continue to do it.
On July 24, 2012 i actually hit a year, it was one of my proudest day although i think each day has been that was just icing to know i could do it, that i can find other ways of dealing with my emotions without binging. I made a necklace which hold 365 beads see below:
I have changed so much in this past year, I now love to exercise at leasst 5 days a week whether i walk, dance or do something i need to do and love it. When things feel low i find other ways to deal. I talk write or walk. I tell myself i am strong i am a survivor I am beautiful I am brave I am intelligent I am determined! I will continue everyday!
My eating has changed more veggies, fruits and lean meats - heart healthy! Fast food - there is ways to eat healthy there if you want to .. jack in the crack aka box has chicken tenders that are grilled a side salad fruit and water; McD grilled chicken sandwich, apple slices and diet pop or water; you can find ways. Subway is an awesome place for breakfast lunch and dinner Jared knew best!!! You just have to find a way to make things work, the one place i can tell you has no diet items is KFC - no salads just rotisarie chicken and it is just too tempting so not worth going there. I cook a lot more at home and find i can balance things out more. I can have 1 egg, 1 turkey sausage made from scratch and 1 cup oatmeal hits the spot. lunches soups, salads and half sandiwches.
My biggest obsticle has been portion controls that stems from the abuse (food withheld by my dad) I have a tendancy of packing more then i need but it gives me security i end up living things in my lunch pail but it's knowing they are there. I have learned to do bigger salads or veggies soups mentally know it fills me then half a sandwich vs. full sandwiches. smaller containers or snack packs measuring has been key. Deprivation was my other nemisis so i always finds ways to make sure i don't feel that and so far so good, nothing is forbidden.
Well my next challenge besides making it to year two is my half marathon, my gallbladder issues put me down a few weeks of training i am up to six miles and have about 7 weeks left of training to get up to 13 miles will and must do it!! Okay this week will be about walking six miles at least 3 times this week then next week i will bump up to 8miles at relay for life. then continue with six miles next week during the week then do 10 before the end of the month. By second week in Sept. i will have to do 12 and then i should be ready. I will continue to train with my six miles 3 times a week my food dr. who does triatholons told me to just walk daily and do increased walks minimum 3 times a week so i know i can do this it's been working since my week after surgery which i started 5 days after surgery walked 1 mile then went to 1.5 for a few days then was up to 2-3 within two weeks. i have been doing this weekly bumping it up i should be good but worried.
My goal is just to keep focused and determined to do this!!
PS besides my beads as my reward i am in a size 2x and 3x on some workout clothes i brought a two shirts and one pair of bike shorts. New sneaks next week!!