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A few days shy of 7 Weeks being Binge Free

Monday, September 12, 2011

Another week down, i'm extremely proud of myself because this past week i had a .8 oz gain at TOPS I was really dissappointed because i had gone 5 weeks without a gain or had maintained. I didn't get in a few days of exercise and it was really hot last week and i retained some water not much but it was really dissappointing to have a red mark in my book but you know what i had my TOP Friends and Hubby support. I put it all together and realized that i had really been exercing heavily the 3 weeks prior and that week i was not as active. So I stepped it back up. I'm sure it will show this week. I'm excited that i didn't revert to my old ways when something like this happened. I used to eat myself silly. I'm just following my eating plan! Planning and cooking my meals. Last friday I won a bunco game and got these nefty lunch containers and utencils i am so excited to use them :) Just proud of myself!

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    You continue to be such an inspiration to me. Thank you for YOUR support and always being there. I'll do my best to return the favor. emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 9/12/2011 10:38PM

    You are doing great! You will get that .8 lbs off emoticon

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REXTINE1 9/12/2011 9:57AM

    I'm proud of you too. I don't know how long it has been, but I had several pancakes and five or six breakfast sausages yesterday, so I still have the occasional day when the best advice is "Don't get your fingers in the way!"

I don't know if I ever will be really good, but I did have several months at the very start when I was really rigid about it, and the rewards were sweet.

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ROBYN168 9/12/2011 6:37AM

    Emmy good for you. I'm so glad you didn't let that one small uptick deter you. Remember in the complete battle of weight loss sometimes our body just does not behave how it should no matter what we do....it's the bodies way of adjusting to the changes we are asking of it.

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EBPOOKIE 9/12/2011 1:51AM

    Thank you my sparkie buddy, i know you understand. I really like the Blue Ribbon :) I want to share it with you to give you strength!! You can do it one meal at time that is the best advise i can give you!!!! Much appreciation for your support!

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AAAACK 9/12/2011 1:01AM

    Yay you! And that smidgen of weight could easily be from the heat and increased exercising may have dehydrated you a bit. Drink lots of water and watch that weight just fall right off! You are doing so well, SEVEN weeks binge free, that deserves a blue ribbon!

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6 weeks binge free and still working it!

Monday, September 05, 2011

Well been rocking my program doing my therapy homeworks as given and feeling great. I am actually feeling like i can do these more and more each day. I discovered the greatest cook book from Taste of Home called the Comfort Food Diet. I have made cream of chicken and veggies soup at 200 calories, i made shepperds pie 350 cals tonight and it was great! i served my piece over a bed of shredded cabbage it was awesome and filling for dessert i learned this one from Hungry girl. I used a Won Ton wrapper and filled Apple cinnamon and splenda brown sugar and baked it in the oven then dusted with cinnamon sugar :) 100 calories i am soo satisfied, i drink sparkling water with MIO flavorings since those are splenda based i can drink them can't do diet pop anymore gives me migraines. Water is what i grave more of now. I don't feel depreived my book has lots of ideas and so does the net under taste of home. I also feel that there some foods that maybe "high end" foods but if i eat a smaller portion over a bed of lettuce, cabbage or spinach alot of the times i don't feel the depreviation, my new attitude is i can have anything but all in moderation. I find that not binging gives me more opportunites to focus on different things like my exercise, things to challenge myself with and i am much more organized when it comes to meal planning. I tell myself by planning and making these great choices that I am worth it. I feel good!

I love to cook and getting creative. I love soups and as winter approaches i cannot wait to create some great soups and stews! My other find for sandwiches and burritos i found from Hungry girl. is the Laughing Cow cheese wedges, 35 calories for great flavor. Weight Watchers has the same type of cheese and my favorite is the Jalapeno Pepper.

I planned my breakfast & lunches this week. I made a great egg scramble with turkey bacon or one with turkey sausage. I will make burittos or pita sandwiches for breakfast this week. I will add cabbage and tomatoes and salsa to them and fresh fruit. Lunches will consist of my new found cheese on toasted bread for a grill cheese with tomatoes and will have it with soup (tomatoe veggie or chicken veggie based) I made them ahead and froze them, each week i'll swap my ideas around if it gets too hot i;ll do a salad instead of the soups.

My snacks consist of yogurts, trailmix (fruity or nutty) types, fruits and homemade jello. Since i have an allergy for artificial sweetners i have had to make some changes. So I got knox gelatine and added fruit purees or juices that are 100 % in order to get my jello. So it is feeling much better to know i still have choices like that.

My budget is tight this month so i'm going to have to relay on my walking and dvd's for exercise.

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SUE1512 9/9/2011 1:15AM

    Keep it up!! emoticon

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EBPOOKIE 9/6/2011 10:15AM

    Thanks everyone I really appreciate you stopping by my blog!

OOLALA53-I do belong to the living binge free and do post but not on the main page all of the time. I try to encourage when newbies come on. My first few weeks i mostly concentrated on me and a few teams because i really felt i needed to focus my energy on me first slowly i started posting again, but mostly on my blogs i have made a few friends on the living binge free so far and hope to participate more. Again thanks for stopping by!

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NITELITE72 9/6/2011 7:53AM

    Way to go!! I am so proud of you! It is obvious you are spending time and setting yourself up for success!

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OOLALA53 9/6/2011 1:50AM

    I started mixing many dense foods and sauces with lots of veggies years ago. It really helped keep me happy when I first committed to my plan, and I do it to this day. I love it and miss it when having to eat out often makes it hard. (I think the veggie options in most restaurants are pathetic, not to mention expensive. Plus, I do like the entrees! Just not the portions.)

Keep at this. Even if you stumble, get up and keep going. Two years is considered to be the minimum time "losers" must adhere to a plan before their risk of serious relapse decreases. But you are laying the ground work!

I don't recognize you from the Living Binge Free team. Do you post much there? Perhaps it's on a different thread? emoticon

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AAAACK 9/6/2011 12:39AM

    You ROCK! Wow, 6 weeks, I'm so proud of you and hope you are too!

Hey, if you like the apple desserts, try this:
cube an apple, heat a little lite butter (1 tsp is plenty and about 22cal) in a small pan. Then stir fry the apple, you can add raisins, nuts, craisins, dates, a T of oatmeal, whatever you want. Then toward the end of the "fry" sprinkle with cinnamon & your sweetener of choice. Serve immediately and top with fat free whipped topping (I use the spray can kind). It's super low in calories and fat, and you get another serving of fruit. Yay! If you want, you can serve it on a wonton wrapper "fried" in the leftover light butter.

Enjoy your new lifestyle! I am inspired by you.

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EBPOOKIE 9/5/2011 11:48PM

    Thanks Robyn, yes the bed of lettuce fills up the other thing i do is all my soups have lots of them in it too, it's my only way of getting them down without getting bored and depreieved :) thanks for the support!!

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ROBYN168 9/5/2011 11:30PM

    Way to go Emmy!!!!Everything you mentioned sounds so yummy.

I always try and have a big bed of lettuce to help fill me up too - it works!

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I'll Stand by me!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

I love the show Glee & I was listening to the song I'll stand by you. This song is a beautiful song & i posted the you tube video on my husbands facebook page because i really dedicated it to you. His response was thank you but i was to listen and rededicated to myself because he said you are standing by yourself you are taking care of yourself you are doing it because you love yourself and you won't leave you on the side of the road. You are doing everything to stay bingefree. I sat there in awe because he is right i am standing by my convictions and fighing for myself in the song it says i'll stand by you and i'll fight for you. My gosh he is right because I am there even through my darkest hours as it stats in the song i'm standing by myself... It is a euphoric feeling to relisten to the song and put it back on myself and see what he sees that i'm doing. I'm just doing because it is what i want for myself but the way he had me listen ad walked me through the tune and showed me was amazing i am truely blessed by this wonderful man!

I'm on a cloud and I just want to keep pushing.

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    That's wonderful Emmy. You keep going girl. You do deserve it and I'm so proud of you and what you are doing for yourself.

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/28/2011 9:30AM

    What a wonderful husband! And to recognize all your hard work had to feel great. Keep it up, you're worth it! emoticon

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REXTINE1 8/27/2011 4:43PM

    Good luck - you will make it! emoticon

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SDSMALLX3 8/27/2011 5:09AM

    You go girl! Having a support system is amaaaaaaaazing! Initially it may seem almost impossible to commit to living binge free. I know when those urges kick in, there's nothing anyone can say or do to get you to stop. The more you work at it, the easier it becomes. You seem like you're well on your way to living a healthful binge free life! Congrats & keep it up; you can do it! :)

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BED Therapy is working 4.5 weeks binge free :)~

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

What is the difference about me well I found out several things about me and Iím loving me! Sounds conceded maybe but this is what I can tell you for many years I tormented myself over things that happened in my preteen-teen years and I thought I was this horrible person but what I found out when I faced the past instead of burying it in the closet like I always do when confronted with problems. I hate confrontation, hated things that were hard, hated anything that required more effort, call it lazy or what but I had this negative feeling about things that made me feel uneasy or that I was afraid of.

So what now, well I found out what a brave and intelligent kid I was when I had to do homework for my BED therapy. I found out so much more about myself and I actually liked it, so I sound like a broken record but Iím loving how I feel because it shows for the past 4 weeks I have maintained or had a loss. Now when emotions happened I deal with them head on even if they feel uncomfortable.

When I feel alone I do the things that help me instead of turning to food. I love to scrapbook, hike, camp, walk, volunteer work, cook Ė yes cook, sing- music has always been what I turned to it makes me happy, exercise used to be a chore but I found what I like and you know what Iím doing it. I never in my life thought I could walk 9 miles during the relay for life I got a lanyard for 2.00 and the beads where free every lap you did you got a bead I ended up doing 9 miles, my goal was 6 miles.

I showed myself that when I confront my fears I see I can do it and even if I canít finish or get it done that minute I can go back to it. This weekend I hiked 9.5 miles in total, mind you that was 3 days worth of hiking but I did it. Once again I challenged and completed.

I wonít go back to therapy until next Friday because of vacation scheduling and conflicts but my goal was to get through those 3 weeks without a binge so by the time I go back Iíll be close to six weeks.

When I started my BED therapy I knew it was something that I needed to do I jumped in head on because I had already put things in place this was the final piece to really help my journey. I go to TOPS and have a great support system there my friends at TOPS and I get together and practice eating out, we have our set time each week for just get through the weekend time, dinners out are planned we get out quarterly now and do mini retreats at the beach or mountain or the annual TOPS trips. I use Sparksís tools and have support groups here that relate to my BINGE disorder and then I have an awesome support at home.

So this shows me that all along I was creating an environment for success and while I struggled I never gave up on myself. My counselor tells me I committed myself into it and that is why I was ready for the bed therapy and it is succeeding. I know that I will have hard times but it is how I react to them and practice makes perfect.

I love myself to make those choices to care about how I treat myself. My last homework was to write the compassionate letter to self and it had major breakthroughs for me now that kid has written back and I have to tell you she is my cheerleader my little self is really routing for me each day I get through without binging. She reminds me I am worth all of the good in me she reminds me how brave, loving, intelligent and beautiful I am and I believe her. That is the key is I believe in me and love me. So my journey moves on and each time I get through things I know it will be easier for once I am really taking care of myself. I know I made the right choices for myself and am proud! I canít wait to see how much more will come! Nothing is impossible because I make it all possible!! emoticon

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OOLALA53 9/6/2011 1:53AM

    It is downright lovely to hear of your newfound appreciation for yourself. Thanks for sharing it with us!

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REXTINE1 8/25/2011 8:00PM

    Keep it up. You're talking like a winner, and you can't help winning.

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/24/2011 9:54AM

    This is wonderful, Emmy, and I'm so happy for you. I know how it feels to embrace that inner child and let the rest of the negatives float away, it's very freeing. Good for you!

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FLUTTERBY4JC 8/24/2011 12:34AM

    You are an amazing person! I love that I am getting to see the transformation you are going through! I am truly blessed to have you in my life! Keep up the great work!

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EBPOOKIE 8/23/2011 11:51PM

    Thank you for the support and comments i feel truly blessed to have great spark friends!

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TAZZIT1 8/23/2011 11:47PM

    You are wonderful and a true winner.

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.DUSTY. 8/23/2011 10:19PM

    emoticonI'm so happy you are doing so well! emoticon

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    emoticon emoticon Keep it up!

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One postive word that describes you!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011


I am willing to fight for me and never give up!

What about you? What postive word describes you and why! Hoping my friends will share it with me!!

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EAGLES_WINGS 8/22/2011 7:38AM

    Resilient, coming back through the storms to make it to the other side and win!

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FLUTTERBY4JC 8/17/2011 2:13PM

    Committed.....I may fall sometimes but I get back up. Something might not be working for me but I get creative on how to make things better. I am committed to being healthy no matter what life throws my way!
Thank you for always making me think and for helping me on this journey! You are a wonderful friend!

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EBPOOKIE 8/17/2011 12:13PM

    Thank you all for sharing your one words and why!! Feels good to read and know that you are these and i see them in you all. I am so blessed to have such great sparkers to continue my journey with!!

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PATTYS74 8/17/2011 11:04AM

    limitless - I have decided that I have no boundaries...This is awesome Emmy. Thanks for sharing.

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REXTINE1 8/16/2011 8:16PM

    Stubborn. My father lived 10 years after the doctors said he wouldn't last a week. They said that again about 4 years later.

I'm still going, and plan to keep on going.

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THEEXERCISER 8/16/2011 3:05PM

    I am determined!

Great blog!

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EBPOOKIE 8/16/2011 2:33PM

    wow Ronnie and Basil you are rocking it you are doing what needs to be down to make yourselves number 1 keep up the great works and thank you for sharing your one word with me and why!!! You are strong and daring YOU BOTH CAN DO EVERYTHING emoticon

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RONNIE0404 8/16/2011 2:26PM

    I am: DARING! I never took risks and never stepped out of my comfort zone. These past few months, I've done things I NEVER though I'd have the nerve to do. YAY!!!!!!

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BASIL989 8/16/2011 2:02PM

    I am: STRONG! A word I never thought I'd use to describe myself! I can push myself, I have will power, I DO have muscles! I'm stronger than I ever thought I could be!

Keep up the tencaity Pookie!! We can do it!

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