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90 days binge free

Monday, October 24, 2011

Okay i made it and i must say this was the hardest last few days. I have had a mix of emotions because here in our local area we had a child abuse case that took me back to my childhood. I have done a few things i've journaled and decided that it is my time to give back to find ways to do things for Child Abuse Prevention. So my TOPS group has a Christmas Baazar going on and we are selling vendor tables one of which i got to sell my mom's crochet baby blankets and sweaters and i decided i would make small kids shirts and use my embroidary machines to personalize them any money i make off those embroidard onsies and t-shirts will go to child abuse prevention assocation there is location here in portland, with Christmas around the corner there is plenty to do, giving to local foster kids organization and what ever i'll give of my time as well. I'm proud of reaching 90 days now i will work towards 120 and then making it through the holidays. I am feeling good inside, i still get emotions that sometimes overwhelm me but i know eating won't make me feel the way i do right now when i make these accomplishments.

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ALEXIA_ST_CLOUD 10/27/2011 4:36PM

    Such a great streak! YEEAH!

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AAAACK 10/27/2011 1:25PM

    As usual, you have inspired me! In reading this I thought, "but you're now a powerful adult, no longer that vulnerable child you once were." And immediately I realized that I, too, am that adult and not that child. I have been having binge troubles lately and mentally allowing myself to act like that little kid who hid from all the hairy-life-stuff. I'm not her anymore, I'm an adult, and thanks to your inspiration, I intend to think like one and be responsible for my own (eating) actions.

I love that you're giving back - that alone is such a position of strength! And it keeps ya busy, right?!

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RD03875 10/25/2011 4:28AM

    Congratulations on 90 days. Keep it up

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REXTINE1 10/24/2011 7:00PM

    You are setting the standard. I don't think I have ever gone 90 days without falling off the wagon somehow. You give determination a new definition.

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EBPOOKIE 10/24/2011 11:30AM

    Thank you Carrie but you too have been my inspiration you have just kept pushing as through your plateau and you not giving up attitude (lose your quit mentality) has really helped. I am determined not to quit what i have started it is not an option!! SO thank you many times over for supporting my journey as well as being my inspiration!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 10/24/2011 10:06AM

    I love the ideas of giving back. I know you will make it to 120 days and be successful through the holidays. You are an inspiration!!

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11 Weeks of Binge Free living!

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

11 Weeks and 78 days as of today!

Each and every day I get through this I feel stronger and stronger, I feel more confident in myself. I have more energy now that Iím working exercise into my routines and just feel way better about myself overall. I feel as though this black cloud has finally cleared and sunny days are ahead, knowing that thunder storms may pop in sometimes but the rainbows always shine.

This past Saturday, we had our TOPS Area Recognition Days Rally in Canby, Oregon. We have different chapters east of the mountains come together and it is always nice to see people from old chapters that you have formed friendships with because of some previous event. This year my girlfriends from our TOP Chapter and I did a skit, we call ourselves the Women of TOPS and it is always center around something weight loss related. This skit happened to be the very first one we ever did. It was called the Secret. We added humor to it and it turned out to be a blast. Setting a TOPS meeting, everyone is congratulating each other for having a losing week, then in the background you hear ARE YOU SURE THAT IS RIGHT? Out comes the TOPS member who is ready to quit because she had another gain. TOPS members ask her to stay for the meeting even though she is reluctant. So one of the girls just went to a nutritionist and was told the secrets of weight loss. Everyone is interestedÖ so the first secret is eating breakfast. The gainer says I do that I stop at Mickey Dís and get and egg mcmuffin with cheese and sausage and hash brown and 32 oz OJ, the girls say hash brown, gainer says what itís a vegetable a potato is a veggie, no not so much and give her the actual OJ serving size of 4 oz and that she is better off then the next secret is drink water gainer brings out her 2 liter pop and calls it carbonated water ;) the ladies tell her sugar water and 800 calories in the bottle. Then the next item is portion control and they show her a the plate method she pulls out a huge bowl and tell them she hasnít eaten because it was weigh in day but that she would show them her lunch salad, she proceeds to pile it high and add ALL the fixings!! She discovers her salad is a dayís worth of calories. Then they says journaling and exercising are the last two secrets. Gainer says exercise can be dangerous as she sprained her ankle last time she tried walking and is dumbfounded. The ladies of TOPS remind her that all this information is in the TOPS Choice is mine book and she should read it, she says oh wow Iíve been using that as a door stop. So in conclusion they wrap up their chat as their regular meeting is ready to start and gainer realizes she has to attend the meetings, cut her portions, drink water, eat sensibly, exercise and journal her food in order to lose. We got a lot of compliments had people laughing but everyone could see a part of gainer in themselves.

We will be hosting State Recognition Days in Portland, so all of the area chapters were asked for volunteers. I found that since I have taken the leadership role in my chapter as co leader my attitude has changed and I hold myself more accountable as I want to be a good role model. I am going to volunteer I think it will be good for me to continue to give into the very organization that is helping and supporting my weight loss journey.

This weekend the Ladies of Tops are going to the Mountain for a weekend retreat we decided to do for ourselves. We will be cooking and grilling at the Condo and will have one go out night. We practice our eating out skills and making good choices. We will be doing a lot of hiking as there are several local trails and lakes to explore! It is so much easier when we have support!

My goal for this week was meet I stepped up my exercise and now this week starting tomorrow am I will do the following even while on vacation:

Wednesday 5 am Walk 30 mins and then at 5:40 pm my exercise class (dance/kickboxing) 60 mins.
Thursday 5 am Walk 30 mins and then at 5:40pm my exercise class (dance/kickboxing/weights) 60 mins.
Friday 6:30 am Exercise class (60 mins) Day we leave to go to the Mt, still exercising plus hoping we go for a pm hike and or walk for at least 30 mins.
Saturday 6 am Walk same hike or walk later in the day.
Sunday same as above
Monday same as above then a pm exercise class!
Tuesday 5am Walk 30 mins.

Then repeat the cycle more or less adjusting to fit work back in on days that I was getting up at 6am back to 5 pm and then Saturdays will go back to walking at 6am then 8;30 am exercise class. If I knew I could handle walking to class and back and doing the workout I would do it but I donít think I can do it just yet. I will have to figure out the mileage on it out.

I know these goals sound like they might be much but in order for me to break this plateau I will need to step up the exercise and eat healthy.

I just know I have to do this in order to get it all working together, continue to follow my lo-carb diet, and that consists of lean meats, veggies, fruits and high fiber starches ;)

I feel like I can do this that I have it in me no matter how hard it is some days I have it in me to do it.

I will not sit by and let things happen! Iwill make things happen!

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REXTINE1 10/12/2011 4:43PM

    I'm sure you will do it. Keep up the good work!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 10/12/2011 10:51AM

    Sounds like the skit was lots of fun - and sooo true!

I know you will be able to reach those goals and break that plateau!!!
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RD03875 10/12/2011 8:30AM

    Good luck, you can do it.

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CATHYJR73 10/11/2011 8:04PM

    Great blog and I know emoticon
You are more determined than I have ever seen you emoticon

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Ten Weeks Binge Free!

Wednesday, October 05, 2011

10 weeks 71 days Extemely proud! I had to put things into perspective I was disappointed at the scale this morning because i really did everything right and it just wasn't kind but I know i must be patient it's been a week and it will all come together but when i looked at how much i've dropped since last year this time it was down 10# so it's better then gaining when my binging was out of control earlier this year. I have 71 days down and this is what i was really working on so losing will come together i know that i was at a plateau before i got my binge in check now it is all i handle the scale in the past a bad scale would mean a binge today yes i felt bad but i turned to my friends and they supported me and reminded me of what i am doing and how i'm slowly putting all together and to be patient because it maybe slow or seem like it's the same # on and off lately it will come off. I will continue to do what i did last week just add the exercise in this will be the first week were i'll be back in check with exercise. So I feel much better, Wish me luck!!

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FLUTTERBY4JC 10/6/2011 11:58PM

    You are doing so awesome! This is just a part of the journey and the weight will come off as the next part of the journey!Keep up the great work! You are an amazing person and I am blessed to have you as a part of my life!

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REXTINE1 10/6/2011 6:13PM

    That's a great run! Keep it up.

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    Make sure you calorie ranges/goals include your current weight and exercise level. Remember that its a delicate balance. And like you said, just keep going. It will break lose--it has to eventually! Keep up the great work, Emmy. You continue to inspire me!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 10/5/2011 7:17PM

    Emmy, I am so proud of you! You are doing so well and it will pay off at the scale. Just be patient. I am right there too.

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9 weeks - 66 days as of today! New Goals!

Thursday, September 29, 2011

Binge Food Monster

Today Day 66 and a full 9 weeks under my belt of binge free living, it feels great. I have started to put all of what I have learned in the past few months together and think itís time for the losing part to begin. I worked hard on my binge less eating the past 66 days and if you would have told me in June it could be done Iíd laugh at you. My biggest fear now is to lose that momentum and back sliding, so right now the binge monster is check, I have kept him in his cage where he belongs contained. I continue to see myself worth as someone who deserves the hard work and energy I am putting into me. I love myself too much to go there and uncage him.

Iím a visual person and Iím trying to come up with a little critter to put on my lanyard that has the beads which represent how many days Iíve gone binge free! Will be on the hunt and then I will make a picture of him and post him because heíll need a catchy name. He is a part of me, my past; he was the evil that filled my head with negative so he definitely will need a good name. Some people will think Iím a bit off my rocker but I need that visual to remind me of where I was at, and how that part of me was still me but a hurting me and how I know now I donít have to go there. So while I poke fun at binge monster he is real and will always be there lurking so I have to AWARE of him to keep him in his place.

So my goals for October are as follows to get under 270 that number has been just that a number I havenít been there in such a long time that it seems to be scary for me. So that means I have to lose 9 # in order to get there. How will I do that? Well I have lowered my calorie count to 1400-1700 range which I have successfully been working at the past two weeks without feeling deprived. Lo-Carb menu planning is a must! I will add exercise back into the mix; Iíve slowly been getting back into this past week, so I should be okay. Continue to drink water and stay binge free and hit 90 days.

I think they are very attainable! Iím not going to fear this but will use it as challenge! I know it is within me to do this.

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    Way to go Emmy, you are doing so awesome! You ARE worth it!

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EBPOOKIE 9/29/2011 4:43PM

    Rex-for me no food is bad it is just treat food to add once in awhile and only eat a little vs. alot. It's about those darn choices! Staying binge free will continue to be my main focus now for my health i have to get back to losing slowly. I am finally at a point where it has all come together, the foundation is laid now i just have to start putting the work into building the structure called me.

Carrie-yeah trying to see what i can find that will be my binge monster i may even have to make him ;) I am just trying to make mini goals to keep me on track now, they are actually challenges which i like. I used to run if things got hard now i take them on, so her we go!

Thanks both of you for visiting i really appreciate the support more then you think, it really helps me stay focus and on track. emoticon

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REXTINE1 9/29/2011 4:32PM

    Good luck on making your goal in the time you set - but if you just stay with it you will get there eventually. I have been in the 1700-1800 range mostly for years, and it's where I stay even - but I'm older too. The real trick is to stay binge-free. I wouldn't say they are exactly binges, but I still break down and eat things that aren't on my "desired" list. emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 9/29/2011 4:23PM

    Emmy -- looking forward to seeing your "binge monster"! You are doing so well, - I am proud that you have reached 9 weeks. Keep going - your goals are great and I know that you will reach them!

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A few days shy of 7 Weeks being Binge Free

Monday, September 12, 2011

Another week down, i'm extremely proud of myself because this past week i had a .8 oz gain at TOPS I was really dissappointed because i had gone 5 weeks without a gain or had maintained. I didn't get in a few days of exercise and it was really hot last week and i retained some water not much but it was really dissappointing to have a red mark in my book but you know what i had my TOP Friends and Hubby support. I put it all together and realized that i had really been exercing heavily the 3 weeks prior and that week i was not as active. So I stepped it back up. I'm sure it will show this week. I'm excited that i didn't revert to my old ways when something like this happened. I used to eat myself silly. I'm just following my eating plan! Planning and cooking my meals. Last friday I won a bunco game and got these nefty lunch containers and utencils i am so excited to use them :) Just proud of myself!

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    You continue to be such an inspiration to me. Thank you for YOUR support and always being there. I'll do my best to return the favor. emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 9/12/2011 10:38PM

    You are doing great! You will get that .8 lbs off emoticon

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REXTINE1 9/12/2011 9:57AM

    I'm proud of you too. I don't know how long it has been, but I had several pancakes and five or six breakfast sausages yesterday, so I still have the occasional day when the best advice is "Don't get your fingers in the way!"

I don't know if I ever will be really good, but I did have several months at the very start when I was really rigid about it, and the rewards were sweet.

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ROBYN168 9/12/2011 6:37AM

    Emmy good for you. I'm so glad you didn't let that one small uptick deter you. Remember in the complete battle of weight loss sometimes our body just does not behave how it should no matter what we do....it's the bodies way of adjusting to the changes we are asking of it.

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EBPOOKIE 9/12/2011 1:51AM

    Thank you my sparkie buddy, i know you understand. I really like the Blue Ribbon :) I want to share it with you to give you strength!! You can do it one meal at time that is the best advise i can give you!!!! Much appreciation for your support!

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AAAACK 9/12/2011 1:01AM

    Yay you! And that smidgen of weight could easily be from the heat and increased exercising may have dehydrated you a bit. Drink lots of water and watch that weight just fall right off! You are doing so well, SEVEN weeks binge free, that deserves a blue ribbon!

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