Saturday, October 28, 2006
I am grateful for living and battling through the hardships. My husband has depression issues and there are times he is good and times it hits hard. This is one of those weekends. We are going to see his therapist at 2pm today, I know it will be good for him to get all his frustrations out. His battle is no differnce then mine with food war, he does well, lives well for months then breaks when he feels things are too good. It's like he wants to sabbatoge himself of all the good work he has done. I find there are times i do that, this summer while he was in the good getting himself together I was falling apart, now I find myself pushing myself to stay and keep myself together. Not make the bad choices for I will do the same. I stay strong so I can be an example to help him along. He says he isn't strong but he is. I see so much good in him he is strong, he is intelligent, he is handsome, he is loving and just all in that I see the beauty within and outside. Days he knows and days he'll say how do you see that. I am strong, I see good in me but I see my faults. He really makes me think during the hard times but never do I doubt my love and my williness to help him through and never any regrets.
I am here and am grateful for having him in my life and that it is good. I will continue to push myself and make good on my dream.