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Day 5 BED Free--Said no to free food

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Today i said no to free food, i order lunch in for a meeting and the meeting facilitor gave me a box lunch from panera with a veggie sammie but in that box is a huge sandwich, huge cookie worth at least 300 calories and a back of kettle chips rining in at 160 so not only does he give the box lunch but then gives me another cookie and chips i placed everything in the box and then put in the fridge at work. I ate my salad with enchilada chicken - carb freee no tortillas :) When it was time to go home I grabbed it and brought it home the sandwih i will have for lunh tomorrow with soup - veggie and my family got the cookies and chips. Not me it felt good not to cave. I can't tell you how often i thought about it but it was weigh in day at TOPS and I wasn't gonna have a gain!!! I worked to hard the last 5 days to blew it. The inner child in me wanted the cookie but i said nope not now. I kept ignoring it. I feel awesome that i was able to pass it up. Day 5 completed!!!

  
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GONNABEHALFOFME 6/15/2011 7:49PM

    Go Emmy! I'm so proud of you. It's so difficult to turn down cookies (for me at least!) and you did it!

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So proud of you!

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SUE1512 6/15/2011 7:30PM

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KEEP IT UP!!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/15/2011 5:45PM

    You are going strong!

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SKYRUNHER 6/15/2011 6:57AM

    it's those small wins that matter!! Keep it up!

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AMBERZADE 6/15/2011 1:09AM

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Day 4 BED Free (BED = Binge Eating Disorder)

Monday, June 13, 2011

emoticon DAY 4 down woohoo!!

Another fine day and made great choices!! I will keep on my momentum!!! WOOHOO!!

I went to my KICK N2 FITNESS class and really pushed harder, i was able to do more, my attitude was to push harder on those core and leg exerises!!! I did them!!

  
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FLUTTERBY4JC 6/14/2011 8:13PM

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Keep up the great work!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/14/2011 11:53AM

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Day 3 BED Free!

Monday, June 13, 2011

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i'm feeling better and it shows, It is in my attitude! I cannot control everything so i'm going with it just one day at a time. I remind myself of hte TOPS pledge and the serenity prayer and i feel like i'm letting go of thinsg. I know that there are things i can do for myself and i do it. I batched cook today made soups and chicken for my salads this week. I'm really excited about what i want to do to help myself!!!! I am feeling that power from inside to keep the momentum going!!!

YEAH!

  
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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:17AM

    Thank you ladies!! Never give up attitude!! Because I matter!

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TJHIERS 6/13/2011 9:50AM

    wonderful to hear! you are worth this ! we are here on this journey together, and i know we will win , no matter how long it takes ! emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/13/2011 6:55AM

    The power starts right where you are finding it. Use us to keep it burning!

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Day 1 & 2 BED Free :)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Yesterday was emoticon of a Binge Free Day considering i had a very stress filled day at work and thought it was gonna be reallly bad we did a good job and didn't over it at all. i stayed withing my calories i went over by about 20 or so but that is okay i've been averaging about 800 extra calories from my high end in the past week or so I really needed to see this.

Today was another successful day!!! I really felt positive and met with my TOPS friends for coffee. I have been eating well and had soups during the times i was hungry in between my meals that kept from over eating. i aslo kept busy by cleaning and then working on a puzzle. It keeps my mind active. :)

The good thing is that i never gave up on my exercise i'm really into it. I love it! i go 5 days a week and know that i could have ballooned up more then the few # i gained if i wasn't exercising. I'm looking at a support group and BED treatment to get into my head that specializes in this. When i get emotional i eat, whether it be anger, frustration, loniliness, helplessness, anxiety or sadness i tend to go for food to comfort me.

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STEPHHAYES227 6/14/2011 12:01AM

    good job, you stopped it before it got way out of control and have a plan of action

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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:35PM

    Carrie BED stands for binge eating disorder it means i feed my emotions and don't always stop.. i can't describe how numbing it feels i feel like the tazmanian devil eating out of control the whole spiral note my new pix... that is how i was feeling. So basically the treatment consists of counseling to help me deal with my emotions. I have always used food to comfort me when things got bad.

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/13/2011 7:40PM

    Okay - I may be dense - but what is BED treatment?

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EBPOOKIE 6/12/2011 7:09PM

    Thanks Robyn!!! I do and i'm well on my way through day 3. emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/12/2011 5:22PM

    Way to go Emmy!!!!!! You should feel proud. emoticon

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Had Enuf!

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Ever had someone in your life that claims they are there for you but then in reality really isn't? I feel like a fool twice this person has done it to me twice. I have been trying to figure in the past 8 weeks what it was that bothered me most but i know now. I have always been there for this person thick and thin supported them through the highs and lows and when i asked for help through my lows, i got nothing. Why promise something you can deliver on. Why am i not surprised. so basically i have to learn not to reley on anyone for support but to get it from myself because ultimiately i have to battle through things. have my people i know i can count on but don't expect much from others much less this person. Back into my little closet as i used to be. Just sick and tired of giving of me. Time to keep me in the sanity mode and not give so much of myself. Sounds selfish but it really has eaten at me literally lately and just feel betrayed. Okay onward.

  
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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:25AM

    Have come to terms that this person will not change and that it is what it is and have moved on. It was extremely dissappointing.

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PRECIOUSPEPPER 6/8/2011 11:22AM

    I can relate. I have a (friend) that I feel the same way about. She is the only friend I run around with, but she can really bug me most of the time.
Hang in there!
P.S., I haven't chatted with you in a LONG time!


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RD03875 6/8/2011 10:43AM

    I am so sorry to hear this, hugs for you!

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EBPOOKIE 6/8/2011 10:10AM

    Thank you everyone!! I appreciate it. I know who I can count on for my journey now and who I can't.

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CATHYJR73 6/7/2011 10:06PM

    I am sorry to hear about this person letting you down, I have had family who have done that to me too so I understand. Just know that you are loved. Keep your chin up and know that you are the best source of your inspiration and you are inspiring me!! emoticon emoticon

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SUE1512 6/7/2011 7:53PM

    One of my friends went through a period where she rid herself of takers. Those who weren't healthy for her, always took, but never seemed to be there when she needed them. She's much better for it!


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TJHIERS 6/7/2011 7:19PM

    i've learned, it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes being let down, when you need someone the most, to destroy it !
just know we are here, and there are plenty of sparkies to support you.
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JONICACALDWELL 6/7/2011 6:31PM

    I hear you. Sometimes we have to figure out a particular benefit from a friendship and just leave it at that. Sad to say. Some are not as invested as the rest of us who care (sometimes too much). Good luck & hugs from a fellow Sparker. emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/7/2011 6:20PM

    Emmy - I am sorry that this person has let you down. You have us to lean on when you need!

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EBPOOKIE 6/7/2011 5:56PM

    Thanks Karen!!! :)

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KPACE7 6/7/2011 5:18PM

    A small part of me is glad you recognised the problem. Some people give and give and never realize the other person is a "user'.

You have friends here, let us help you where we can.

Karen

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EBPOOKIE 6/7/2011 4:40PM

    I can usually work things through but every so often i need someone... Thanks!

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BORNSOUTHERN 6/7/2011 4:24PM

    I completely understand how you feel.. I have been there with more than 1 person. Sorry you are down. Hope things get better for you!

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SIRENICAL 6/7/2011 4:24PM

    It is really hard feeling betrayed. Find someone who you can count on! The support will be amazing. Be picky ;-)
It is also really important to count on yourself. I am sorry you have to deal with that.

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