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Day 3 BED Free!

Monday, June 13, 2011

I DID IT DAY 3 emoticon

i'm feeling better and it shows, It is in my attitude! I cannot control everything so i'm going with it just one day at a time. I remind myself of hte TOPS pledge and the serenity prayer and i feel like i'm letting go of thinsg. I know that there are things i can do for myself and i do it. I batched cook today made soups and chicken for my salads this week. I'm really excited about what i want to do to help myself!!!! I am feeling that power from inside to keep the momentum going!!!


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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:17AM

    Thank you ladies!! Never give up attitude!! Because I matter!

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TJHIERS 6/13/2011 9:50AM

    wonderful to hear! you are worth this ! we are here on this journey together, and i know we will win , no matter how long it takes ! emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/13/2011 6:55AM

    The power starts right where you are finding it. Use us to keep it burning!

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Day 1 & 2 BED Free :)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Yesterday was emoticon of a Binge Free Day considering i had a very stress filled day at work and thought it was gonna be reallly bad we did a good job and didn't over it at all. i stayed withing my calories i went over by about 20 or so but that is okay i've been averaging about 800 extra calories from my high end in the past week or so I really needed to see this.

Today was another successful day!!! I really felt positive and met with my TOPS friends for coffee. I have been eating well and had soups during the times i was hungry in between my meals that kept from over eating. i aslo kept busy by cleaning and then working on a puzzle. It keeps my mind active. :)

The good thing is that i never gave up on my exercise i'm really into it. I love it! i go 5 days a week and know that i could have ballooned up more then the few # i gained if i wasn't exercising. I'm looking at a support group and BED treatment to get into my head that specializes in this. When i get emotional i eat, whether it be anger, frustration, loniliness, helplessness, anxiety or sadness i tend to go for food to comfort me.

I feel proud!!! emoticon

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STEPHHAYES227 6/14/2011 12:01AM

    good job, you stopped it before it got way out of control and have a plan of action

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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:35PM

    Carrie BED stands for binge eating disorder it means i feed my emotions and don't always stop.. i can't describe how numbing it feels i feel like the tazmanian devil eating out of control the whole spiral note my new pix... that is how i was feeling. So basically the treatment consists of counseling to help me deal with my emotions. I have always used food to comfort me when things got bad.

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/13/2011 7:40PM

    Okay - I may be dense - but what is BED treatment?

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EBPOOKIE 6/12/2011 7:09PM

    Thanks Robyn!!! I do and i'm well on my way through day 3. emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/12/2011 5:22PM

    Way to go Emmy!!!!!! You should feel proud. emoticon

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Had Enuf!

Tuesday, June 07, 2011

Ever had someone in your life that claims they are there for you but then in reality really isn't? I feel like a fool twice this person has done it to me twice. I have been trying to figure in the past 8 weeks what it was that bothered me most but i know now. I have always been there for this person thick and thin supported them through the highs and lows and when i asked for help through my lows, i got nothing. Why promise something you can deliver on. Why am i not surprised. so basically i have to learn not to reley on anyone for support but to get it from myself because ultimiately i have to battle through things. have my people i know i can count on but don't expect much from others much less this person. Back into my little closet as i used to be. Just sick and tired of giving of me. Time to keep me in the sanity mode and not give so much of myself. Sounds selfish but it really has eaten at me literally lately and just feel betrayed. Okay onward.

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EBPOOKIE 6/13/2011 10:25AM

    Have come to terms that this person will not change and that it is what it is and have moved on. It was extremely dissappointing.

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    I can relate. I have a (friend) that I feel the same way about. She is the only friend I run around with, but she can really bug me most of the time.
Hang in there!
P.S., I haven't chatted with you in a LONG time!

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RD03875 6/8/2011 10:43AM

    I am so sorry to hear this, hugs for you!

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EBPOOKIE 6/8/2011 10:10AM

    Thank you everyone!! I appreciate it. I know who I can count on for my journey now and who I can't.

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CATHYJR73 6/7/2011 10:06PM

    I am sorry to hear about this person letting you down, I have had family who have done that to me too so I understand. Just know that you are loved. Keep your chin up and know that you are the best source of your inspiration and you are inspiring me!! emoticon emoticon

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SUE1512 6/7/2011 7:53PM

    One of my friends went through a period where she rid herself of takers. Those who weren't healthy for her, always took, but never seemed to be there when she needed them. She's much better for it!

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TJHIERS 6/7/2011 7:19PM

    i've learned, it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes being let down, when you need someone the most, to destroy it !
just know we are here, and there are plenty of sparkies to support you.

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    I hear you. Sometimes we have to figure out a particular benefit from a friendship and just leave it at that. Sad to say. Some are not as invested as the rest of us who care (sometimes too much). Good luck & hugs from a fellow Sparker. emoticon

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ROBYN168 6/7/2011 6:20PM

    Emmy - I am sorry that this person has let you down. You have us to lean on when you need!

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EBPOOKIE 6/7/2011 5:56PM

    Thanks Karen!!! :)

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KPACE7 6/7/2011 5:18PM

    A small part of me is glad you recognised the problem. Some people give and give and never realize the other person is a "user'.

You have friends here, let us help you where we can.


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EBPOOKIE 6/7/2011 4:40PM

    I can usually work things through but every so often i need someone... Thanks!

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BORNSOUTHERN 6/7/2011 4:24PM

    I completely understand how you feel.. I have been there with more than 1 person. Sorry you are down. Hope things get better for you!

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SIRENICAL 6/7/2011 4:24PM

    It is really hard feeling betrayed. Find someone who you can count on! The support will be amazing. Be picky ;-)
It is also really important to count on yourself. I am sorry you have to deal with that.

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Exercise and practicing control!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

For the past two weeks now i have gone to my exercise class and kept my commitment to myself. I have been having so much fun, it doesn't even feel like exercise. Well i weighed myself this morning and was at 275 it's the lowest i've been in many years. I felt good the scale is finally showing. It's been 3 days where i've been tracking all my food and kept on my exercise I really watched my carbs the last few days and it paid off i am no longer feeling that plateau burnout that feeling of wanting to give up before i break it. I was at times sabbotoging myself. so here we go. one day at a time and just plugging along!!

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EBPOOKIE 5/16/2011 7:01PM

    OMG Carrie never thoughtof that "LOST MY QUIT" THank you yes i have!!! emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 5/16/2011 6:50PM

    Emmy -- I think you have lost your quit!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EBPOOKIE 5/15/2011 10:42AM

    Thank you everyone!! emoticon

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TJHIERS 5/14/2011 5:59PM

    look like you're on the right track, keep it going, results are showing on the scale. woo hoo !

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Exercise Schedule

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

Well almost a week into it and figuring out the logistics of the when and can here it goes:

Monday & Wednesdays -- Kick N2 Fitness 5:25 pm (Wednesday is a high intensity 35 mins class--WOW is all i have to say) I had to update the blog!
Thursdays -- Kick N2 Fitness 6:30 pm
Friday -- Kick N2 Fitness 6:45 am will have to cut it short to 30-40 min workout because i have to get to work!
Saturday -- Kick N2 Fitness 8:30 AM
Sunday -- Pool with Family for fun!

My workouts are an hour minimum except for Fridays where it willbe a little less. I'll miss on the stregnth training - abs, legs and arms segment of the workout.

Feels good to post this!!

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EBPOOKIE 5/4/2011 11:12PM

    OMG no lots of energy going on right now!!!! i LOVE IT!!! I am breaking a plataue and gettting into a habit!!! I found out Wednesday class is a power class of 35 shear intensity it was awesome!!!! emoticon

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TJHIERS 5/4/2011 9:21PM

    whew, this makes me tired just reading about it,lol
you go girl, keep up the good work, rest a bit too, our bodies need that too...

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