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Emotional Eating -- Frustration!

Friday, August 06, 2010

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Iím having a bit of a slump and canít seem to get my mind back in the game the past few weeks Iíve gained and then lost it overall Iím up a bit but not so bad.
I have always struggled with emotional eating, it stems from my childhood. I ate to comfort myself when I was home alone (latch key kid-dead beat dad; mom worked 3 jobs to keep a roof over our heads) or when I couldnít express my true feelings. I still struggle with anger and frustration. The past few weeks have been extremely hard on me financially, my husband is unemployed the anticipation on whether or not he will get his unemployment check sucks! He has been unemployed for almost 18 months. I know I should let go of things that I have no control over but you know I love having a roof over my headÖ I have given up several things to get myself in a better financial space. Gotta tell you Iím not missing cable as much as I thought I would but do wish I could watch my morning traffic and weather as I get ready in the am. I am reading more. I have recently taken on going to the pool once or twice a week and then walking or hiking for exercise, if it wasnít for that I would be back up weight wise!! I have a great support system and wish I could carry my buddies in my pocket with me. ARGH!!!

I know what do to and what works I just have to do it. I have to prepare my lunches ahead of time (batch cooking on Sundays-making stone soups with protein & veggies, whole grain breads and make ahead meals that can be popped into the microwave on busy days) and most important I have to get enough sleep 6-8 works best for me and then get up and make my breakfasts daily!!! Make sugar free jello, cut back on the soda pop and get back to water and or other drinks like tea, etc.. if I need a soda, get ones made with natural sugars and no high fructose crap. Throwback Pepsi is made with sugar. Go back to having only 6 oz per day at most less if possible. Make my own drink that uses sugar in moderation like strawberry water and other itemsÖ I have to really get on myself on this stuff.

Okay i need an attitude adjustment!

  
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-POOKIE- 8/7/2010 2:47AM

    Planning ahead with the batch cooking is a great way to beat stress... it would play into my need to save money as well, knowing I can't waste the food I have already made... does it help you feel good that way too?

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EBPOOKIE 8/7/2010 12:11AM

    Thanks everyone!!

My husband is getting unemployment it started at 200 then went to 160 then back up 200 and now it is at 140.00 and most likely his last extension. He has had several interviews and the one today looks good, just praying for him, he has some disabilities that have gotten in the way before. People can be very judgmental when it comes to his disabilities. Anyway, the VA has been helping him the past 8 weeks and sending him to jobs that hire disables, Goodwill, Vincent dePaul, factories that hire a % of disabled vets etc... so praying he gets the one that interviewed him today!! I know I will do okay because i have to. I can't eat myself happy right? As a matter of fact eating makes me feel bad and if my choices are feeling happy or sad i'm taking happy, if it takes a little more effort for a few days to get past the blues anything for sunshiney feelings :) No more Mister Blue ;) Thanks again!!

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DIFROMWYOMING 8/6/2010 11:59PM

    I have had similar financial stresses with 3 college aged sons out of work all summer and we are stretched as thin as possible trying to keep them afloat. I wonder if we'll survive this, sometimes.
I also struggle with emotional eating and have not had a great summer. It is not easy, but you have a great plan here and I truly believe you CAN and WILL do this for yourself!
Hang in there. I wish your DH the best in finding work. 2 of my sons just did, so things are starting to improve out there!

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REXTINE1 8/6/2010 5:21PM

    I don't know where you live, but maybe you could use an inexpensive antenna to get broadcast TV. We have cable, but the only thing we watch regularly is an hour Saturday night and an hour and a half Sunday night on PBS. The library gets most of our business. Unfortunately, the time to get a cheap converter has passed, but it still would be a permanent fix.

I'm sorry your husband is out of work - we had a son-in-law who was unemployed for two years once, and I was thinking that he should be working at any survival job instead of waiting for an engineering job. For the past few years his family has been OK, but I worry about them. Delivering Pizzas is OK for a part time job, but I don't know if you get unemployment if you do that.

I know there's no way you can just forget everything, but maybe you can think positive for a while each day. Good luck.

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BUGSMOM211 8/6/2010 4:09PM

    You can do it! Keep your head up and think positive for yourself!

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Emotional Eating -- Frustration!

Friday, August 06, 2010

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Iím having a bit of a slump and canít seem to get my mind back in the game the past few weeks Iíve gained and then lost it overall Iím up a bit but not so bad.
I have always struggled with emotional eating, it stems from my childhood. I ate to comfort myself when I was home alone (latch key kid-dead beat dad; mom worked 3 jobs to keep a roof over our heads) or when I couldnít express my true feelings. I still struggle with anger and frustration. The past few weeks have been extremely hard on me financially, my husband is unemployed the anticipation on whether or not he will get his unemployment check sucks! He has been unemployed for almost 18 months. I know I should let go of things that I have no control over but you know I love having a roof over my headÖ I have given up several things to get myself in a better financial space. Gotta tell you Iím not missing cable as much as I thought I would but do wish I could watch my morning traffic and weather as I get ready in the am. I am reading more. I have recently taken on going to the pool once or twice a week and then walking or hiking for exercise, if it wasnít for that I would be back up weight wise!! I have a great support system and wish I could carry my buddies in my pocket with me. ARGH!!!

I know what do to and what works I just have to do it. I have to prepare my lunches ahead of time (batch cooking on Sundays-making stone soups with protein & veggies, whole grain breads and make ahead meals that can be popped into the microwave on busy days) and most important I have to get enough sleep 6-8 works best for me and then get up and make my breakfasts daily!!! Make sugar free jello, cut back on the soda pop and get back to water and or other drinks like tea, etc.. if I need a soda, get ones made with natural sugars and no high fructose crap. Throwback Pepsi is made with sugar. Go back to having only 6 oz per day at most less if possible. Make my own drink that uses sugar in moderation like strawberry water and other itemsÖ I have to really get on myself on this stuff.

Okay i need an attitude adjustment!

  
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BORGQUEEN 8/8/2010 12:26AM

    Emmy, I'm sorry you are having such a rough time. This economy has been brutal on a lot of people. Just do your best, and don't be too hard on yourself. Best wishes to your Hubby, tell him to keep his chin up. You too, things WILL get better.
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EBPOOKIE 8/6/2010 3:14PM

    Thanks YesIwilldoit!!!!

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YESIWILLDOIT 8/6/2010 3:10PM

    emoticonme too!
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Believing continues!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Well sometime has gone since I last blogged about my journey and while I had some hick up mid June it was nothing I couldnít recoup from but it stalled my weight loss. I managed to get back into some bad habits but I know the culprit that sent me back to my old ways. Emotional eating is my culprit -- financial & work stressors will do me in. I have no control over it and I finally decided to let things go because ironically things are falling into place and no matter how much I stress things happen, I just have to let it go and make good sound decisions whether painful or not but then that gives me back the control in order to make it better in the end. So small sacrifices made will bring success in all aspects of my life. I know my husband will find a job eventually and so far God has not failed me because I found something on the side to help supplement our incomeÖ so my last 3 weeks of fighting with myself emotional eating has been a waste of time. Again, I am learning to say what the heck and let things fall as they must it will work out always. Any hoot, I was feeling fat and ugly yesterday afternoon, I had gotten home from camping this past weekend, it was a happy time, my good friend got married on the beach. I thought I had eaten badly but really after journaling last night and this morning I found I really hadnít done that bad plus all of the little walking back and forth to the beach to help put chairs out and watching little kids on the beach, walking to and from the potty house, small walks to the light house we visited and packing and unpacking the camping gear must have worked because I lost 4 pounds. I got on the scale 4 times, the last time I asked my husband to read the numbersÖ This was good because I was feeling bad yesterday and it motivates me to get back on real track, weighing my foods and going back to planning my menus and sticking to them. I am grateful to my TOPS Pals who kicked my butt when I asked them to. Iím taking the motivation and running with it!!! I have lots to go but small steps is how I like it. Want to break to 280ís by 7/27 weigh in and then I will have another 10# to make my other goal to labor day of leaving the 270ís. I can get it done I have lost a grand total of 34.9 since I began and a total of 25# in the past 11 weeks! I have been motivated in the past but this time Iím not stopping I havenít been this low in 3 years, I was going the wrong way, no more! Iím sliding to the left not to the right of the scale!!! Okay as my favorite song says: THIS IS MY MOMENT!!

  
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EBPOOKIE 7/31/2010 2:41AM

    I'm actually doing okay, got into my old habits but am getting myself back on track, i need to make my meals ahead of time on sundays.... busy or not i have to make my meals in order to stay focused hoping to make another milestone in the next two weeks. wish me luck!

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REXTINE1 7/30/2010 8:34PM

    I just edited my comment - I dug out my weight charts from five years ago for a TOPS friend, and it turns out my memory wasn't accurate - I only lost 40 pounds in six months and 60 in the next two years. That was the best I could do.

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EBPOOKIE 7/15/2010 12:33AM

    Thanks!!!

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REXTINE1 7/14/2010 2:45PM

    You are on a roll - the last time I was really motivated I had a goal of 60 pounds in 6 months, and I did lose 40. That is fast and serious weight loss. I probably shouldn't tell you, but it took me two years to lose the next 60 pounds, but thanks to TOPS I didn't go back to gaining.

You are doing very very well. Congratulations.

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NAMSMOMMY 7/14/2010 2:24PM

    You totally can do this. I know when I find myself wanting to eat for just emotional reasons, I do the before, during, after journal. Journal before- why do you want to eat, what is stressing you, how do you feel, ect. Then I journal during, what choice did I make, how did that make me feel, ect. Lastly I journal after, ultimately how did I feel about my eating? I find the first two especially helpful in seeing what exactly triggers my emotional eating (horrible acting kids?! lol) HUGS! I know you can do this. You are worth every ounce of effort you put in!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 7/14/2010 11:11AM

    emoticon great job --continue keeping focused and don't let yourself get down over those "hickups". I had the slump in June too. We can do this!!

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1FAVOREDLADY 7/13/2010 7:28PM

    Woo HOO! I am proud of you! I needed your blog and am sooo glad you did it. I have been fighting this battle a long time too . I lose and gain it back. When I read stories like you I get fired up! PUMPED! Determined! I mean it! I have been in a slump for a couple of weeks now. I was starting to feel afraid because i know how I have done in the past. When I slipped it could last yrs. My mind is clearing as it has been off and on with I can mentality today and you pushed me over into the Let,s GO! Thank you spark friend ! God Bless you in this journey.

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Believing in myself

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

I have looked into the mirror and have accomplished several goals i have set for myself. I have lost 20# in the past six weeks, i manage to lose 3.8 while on vacation, had no gains - but lost and or maintained for six weeks something i have never done in TOPS and hit a weightloss marker i had set for myself for these last six weeks i did it... I really did it. I no long have to have Pepsi daily, i don't crave it. I have learned to grill my meals and make my own fresh sauces, salad dressing and or marinades that contain hardly any sodium or sugars, i tend to eat veggies, lean proteins and fruits and high fiber carbs once and a while i'll have my hot dogs (i love them). I drink more water and am learning to exercise more often even through a torn tendon in my ankle i have manage to exercise and lose. I have lots to be proud of. I am believing in myself!!!! I saw myself in the mirror, it is then when i saw beyond the vanity that i saw inside my heart! I believe and hope others learn to believe in themselves it is a great feel! emoticon emoticon

  
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REXTINE1 6/9/2010 3:20PM

    You're on a roll! That is fabulous progress, and you sound like you're ready to hang in there for the long haul. Congratulations. Losing over the holiday is especially impressive, but 20 pounds in six weeks is someone who is on a mission. Good work. emoticon

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YASMINSHORTER 6/9/2010 1:50PM

    What great accomplishments!!! Especially losing when on holiday that is well unfathomable to me! I'll be at that point at one time, and I look forward to it!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/9/2010 12:26PM

    Emmy - congratulations- you are an inspiration!

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EBPOOKIE 6/9/2010 11:24AM

    Thank you ladies it is by far the most powering feeling I am experiencing. It like someone lit the flame and i'm keeping the fire buring.. I really like it and I like sharing it with others i want them to experience this feeling it is beyond explanation. emoticon

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BORGQUEEN 6/9/2010 9:20AM

    I think you've found the secret to success. Way to go, Emmy.
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-POOKIE- 6/9/2010 4:58AM

    When you realise you CAN do this for yourself its an amazing feeling!

Be proud!

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5 Motivators

Thursday, May 20, 2010

5 motivators:
Myself
Health
Dreams
Tops & Spark Friends
Family

Plan of action:

Continue to cook with minimal process foods eating as fresh as possible.

Exercising Daily! 25 mins!

Telling myself I am worth it when I wake up and look at myself in the mirror I am worth it and I love me!

Meal planning

Measuring to ensure portions

Water, water and more water!

Support my PInk Team!

  
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EBPOOKIE 6/9/2010 2:42AM

    I love i put myself first too!! emoticon

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EBPOOKIE 6/2/2010 10:19PM

    Thank you everyone for stopping by... exercise is the hardest think for me to do because of my ankle but i still work around it!! I am putting myself first because i am so worth it!!

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REXTINE1 6/2/2010 8:21PM

    I think you are making good progress. You have lost weight, and I'm sure you will lose more. As you weigh less it gets easier to exercise, and it gets easier when it becomes a habit. My wife took two years to lose 30 pounds, and I took three years to lose the last 100 pounds. You just have to be stubborn. It was easier when people were out in the fields, and anything you were going to eat had to be cooked for that meal. When the house is the size of a toy alphabet block on the horizon, you don't just run in for a snack - you just keep making hay and appreciate the water jug on the wagon. It's easier that way, and tougher when everything is readily available and easy to reach.

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DEBSZOO74 5/26/2010 12:41AM

    Great motivators! emoticon

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SEWINGMAMACDS 5/21/2010 11:49AM

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-POOKIE- 5/21/2010 8:53AM

    I like that you put yourself first on the list, good going emoticon

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-WRKNG2ABTTRME- 5/20/2010 6:22PM

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