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Believing continues!

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Well sometime has gone since I last blogged about my journey and while I had some hick up mid June it was nothing I couldnít recoup from but it stalled my weight loss. I managed to get back into some bad habits but I know the culprit that sent me back to my old ways. Emotional eating is my culprit -- financial & work stressors will do me in. I have no control over it and I finally decided to let things go because ironically things are falling into place and no matter how much I stress things happen, I just have to let it go and make good sound decisions whether painful or not but then that gives me back the control in order to make it better in the end. So small sacrifices made will bring success in all aspects of my life. I know my husband will find a job eventually and so far God has not failed me because I found something on the side to help supplement our incomeÖ so my last 3 weeks of fighting with myself emotional eating has been a waste of time. Again, I am learning to say what the heck and let things fall as they must it will work out always. Any hoot, I was feeling fat and ugly yesterday afternoon, I had gotten home from camping this past weekend, it was a happy time, my good friend got married on the beach. I thought I had eaten badly but really after journaling last night and this morning I found I really hadnít done that bad plus all of the little walking back and forth to the beach to help put chairs out and watching little kids on the beach, walking to and from the potty house, small walks to the light house we visited and packing and unpacking the camping gear must have worked because I lost 4 pounds. I got on the scale 4 times, the last time I asked my husband to read the numbersÖ This was good because I was feeling bad yesterday and it motivates me to get back on real track, weighing my foods and going back to planning my menus and sticking to them. I am grateful to my TOPS Pals who kicked my butt when I asked them to. Iím taking the motivation and running with it!!! I have lots to go but small steps is how I like it. Want to break to 280ís by 7/27 weigh in and then I will have another 10# to make my other goal to labor day of leaving the 270ís. I can get it done I have lost a grand total of 34.9 since I began and a total of 25# in the past 11 weeks! I have been motivated in the past but this time Iím not stopping I havenít been this low in 3 years, I was going the wrong way, no more! Iím sliding to the left not to the right of the scale!!! Okay as my favorite song says: THIS IS MY MOMENT!!

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EBPOOKIE 7/31/2010 2:41AM

    I'm actually doing okay, got into my old habits but am getting myself back on track, i need to make my meals ahead of time on sundays.... busy or not i have to make my meals in order to stay focused hoping to make another milestone in the next two weeks. wish me luck!

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REXTINE1 7/30/2010 8:34PM

    I just edited my comment - I dug out my weight charts from five years ago for a TOPS friend, and it turns out my memory wasn't accurate - I only lost 40 pounds in six months and 60 in the next two years. That was the best I could do.

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REXTINE1 7/14/2010 2:45PM

    You are on a roll - the last time I was really motivated I had a goal of 60 pounds in 6 months, and I did lose 40. That is fast and serious weight loss. I probably shouldn't tell you, but it took me two years to lose the next 60 pounds, but thanks to TOPS I didn't go back to gaining.

You are doing very very well. Congratulations.

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Comment edited on: 7/30/2010 8:31:44 PM

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NAMSMOMMY 7/14/2010 2:24PM

    You totally can do this. I know when I find myself wanting to eat for just emotional reasons, I do the before, during, after journal. Journal before- why do you want to eat, what is stressing you, how do you feel, ect. Then I journal during, what choice did I make, how did that make me feel, ect. Lastly I journal after, ultimately how did I feel about my eating? I find the first two especially helpful in seeing what exactly triggers my emotional eating (horrible acting kids?! lol) HUGS! I know you can do this. You are worth every ounce of effort you put in!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 7/14/2010 11:11AM

    emoticon great job --continue keeping focused and don't let yourself get down over those "hickups". I had the slump in June too. We can do this!!

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1FAVOREDLADY 7/13/2010 7:28PM

    Woo HOO! I am proud of you! I needed your blog and am sooo glad you did it. I have been fighting this battle a long time too . I lose and gain it back. When I read stories like you I get fired up! PUMPED! Determined! I mean it! I have been in a slump for a couple of weeks now. I was starting to feel afraid because i know how I have done in the past. When I slipped it could last yrs. My mind is clearing as it has been off and on with I can mentality today and you pushed me over into the Let,s GO! Thank you spark friend ! God Bless you in this journey.

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Believing in myself

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

I have looked into the mirror and have accomplished several goals i have set for myself. I have lost 20# in the past six weeks, i manage to lose 3.8 while on vacation, had no gains - but lost and or maintained for six weeks something i have never done in TOPS and hit a weightloss marker i had set for myself for these last six weeks i did it... I really did it. I no long have to have Pepsi daily, i don't crave it. I have learned to grill my meals and make my own fresh sauces, salad dressing and or marinades that contain hardly any sodium or sugars, i tend to eat veggies, lean proteins and fruits and high fiber carbs once and a while i'll have my hot dogs (i love them). I drink more water and am learning to exercise more often even through a torn tendon in my ankle i have manage to exercise and lose. I have lots to be proud of. I am believing in myself!!!! I saw myself in the mirror, it is then when i saw beyond the vanity that i saw inside my heart! I believe and hope others learn to believe in themselves it is a great feel! emoticon emoticon

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REXTINE1 6/9/2010 3:20PM

    You're on a roll! That is fabulous progress, and you sound like you're ready to hang in there for the long haul. Congratulations. Losing over the holiday is especially impressive, but 20 pounds in six weeks is someone who is on a mission. Good work. emoticon

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    What great accomplishments!!! Especially losing when on holiday that is well unfathomable to me! I'll be at that point at one time, and I look forward to it!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 6/9/2010 12:26PM

    Emmy - congratulations- you are an inspiration!

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EBPOOKIE 6/9/2010 11:24AM

    Thank you ladies it is by far the most powering feeling I am experiencing. It like someone lit the flame and i'm keeping the fire buring.. I really like it and I like sharing it with others i want them to experience this feeling it is beyond explanation. emoticon

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BORGQUEEN 6/9/2010 9:20AM

    I think you've found the secret to success. Way to go, Emmy.

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-POOKIE- 6/9/2010 4:58AM

    When you realise you CAN do this for yourself its an amazing feeling!

Be proud!

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5 Motivators

Thursday, May 20, 2010

5 motivators:
Tops & Spark Friends

Plan of action:

Continue to cook with minimal process foods eating as fresh as possible.

Exercising Daily! 25 mins!

Telling myself I am worth it when I wake up and look at myself in the mirror I am worth it and I love me!

Meal planning

Measuring to ensure portions

Water, water and more water!

Support my PInk Team!

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EBPOOKIE 6/9/2010 2:42AM

    I love i put myself first too!! emoticon

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EBPOOKIE 6/2/2010 10:19PM

    Thank you everyone for stopping by... exercise is the hardest think for me to do because of my ankle but i still work around it!! I am putting myself first because i am so worth it!!

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REXTINE1 6/2/2010 8:21PM

    I think you are making good progress. You have lost weight, and I'm sure you will lose more. As you weigh less it gets easier to exercise, and it gets easier when it becomes a habit. My wife took two years to lose 30 pounds, and I took three years to lose the last 100 pounds. You just have to be stubborn. It was easier when people were out in the fields, and anything you were going to eat had to be cooked for that meal. When the house is the size of a toy alphabet block on the horizon, you don't just run in for a snack - you just keep making hay and appreciate the water jug on the wagon. It's easier that way, and tougher when everything is readily available and easy to reach.

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DEBSZOO74 5/26/2010 12:41AM

    Great motivators! emoticon

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-POOKIE- 5/21/2010 8:53AM

    I like that you put yourself first on the list, good going emoticon

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Looking in the Mirror Update 05/10/10

Monday, May 10, 2010

My life has changed since I started looking in the mirror on 4/21/10 in the past few weeks I have made a lot of changes to be proud of.
1. I have choosen not to eat process foods (well as much as I can avoid them)
2. I have a new love for my Forman Grill, every day I love myself enough to cook my dinner and lunch for the next day. I make grilled vegetables which I am really loving, I donít just have to eat salads, grilled Portobello mushrooms, zucchini, yellow squash, asparagus, grilled sweet and regular potatoes and my newest find was Eggplant. I grill my proteins-fish, chicken, beef and or pork. I even grilled pineapple and mango and it was great.
3. I exercise with Richard Simmonís dvd-sit tight (I tore a tendon in my ankle while hiking)Ö
4. I journal my thoughts-prime example was I had a bad day yesterday and instead of eating I wrote what bothered me the lack of control over certain situations. I didnít eat!.
5. I track all of my food daily and maintain an average of 1400-1500 per day.
6. Drinking 8-12 cups of water daily
7. I measure all my foods and got a portion plate from TOPS and am actually using it.
8. I tell myself each day I love myself! It isnít lame anymore. Itís about a great attitude about me.
9. I cut back the soda pop to just a few days as a treat and now only drink a few ounces vs. a few bottles at a time. I no long crave it.
10. My blood sugar readings were at 166 -242 they are now 100-130 in the past 3 weeks
So in the past 3 weeks I have changed quite a bit and found it isnít hard, I found time to make me the priority and to use my love of cooking to cook for myself because I am worth it.
I have gone out for dinner with friends-I picked the restaurant and we ate at Applebeeís and I tried their tilapia Ė I had never had it, now I grill it home because I liked it.
That one simple homework from TOPS made me really look deep inside. I really feel I can do this, I hope to continue to write you with my status if it is okay and let you know how I am doing, I will finish this and continue my life change. Itís all about the portions, exercise and attitude!
If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. I will not do this. I will love myself enough each day to plan my meals and exercise!
I have lost 14# to date!

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EBPOOKIE 5/16/2010 8:18PM

    Trish i am happy to hear you are trying in the mirror :) I sure think great about you!!!! I think you are a terrific person and friend. Thanks for visiting at SRD it meant alot to me!!! The girls enjoyed having you there as well!!! I can't wait till next year SRD~!!!!!

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FLUTTERBY4JC 5/14/2010 11:09AM

    I have decided to try this Emmy! I have a really hard time looking at myself in the mirror, but I know when I did this a long time ago I felt better about myself and I took care of myself and lost weight. I also am going to list something every day that I like about myself.
I started today.....I listed that I like how I take care of my family and that I do a good job of it.
Thank you Emmy for being so inspiring!! You really are a very good friend to me and I appreciate your friendship more than you know

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EBPOOKIE 5/13/2010 10:36AM

    Carrie, no surgery needed thank goodness at least that is what iwas told on Tuesday ;) i'll be out of my cast in two weeks and hoping it will be better.

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SEWINGMAMACDS 5/12/2010 6:21PM

    Wow! You are doing fantastic! It is so great to see the goals you have reached. I know you will continue to do well!!!
I pray your ankle tendon will heal. Do you have to have surgery?

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FLUTTERBY4JC 5/10/2010 10:05PM

    You are doing awesome! You are inspiring as usual!
Keep up the great things you are doing!


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If you Fail to Plan - You plan to Fail!

Monday, April 26, 2010

Boy did i do some major planning! I pretty much spend the last two days batch cooking, I did manage to get other things done but got cooking done.

I made some minestrone soup loaded it with veggies and then added meatball (frozen). It was my lunch on Sunday and then I divided the left overs into 4 1 cup servings. I put one in the fridge for my lunch today and then the others in the freezer for future lunch or dinners. ;) I got cabbage (slawmix) at the grocery store and lettuce and mixed it for some nice pita chicken pocket sandwiches. I grilled up chicken tenders (1oz each) and froze those as well. I love my Forman Grill. I made a spaghetti meat/veggie sauce (carrots, zuchini, mushrooms & lean ground). Now all i have to do is cook up some whole wheat pasta and serve it with a salad.

I am proud of myself cuz i managed to make some things ahead a time which means i am thinking of myself.

My menues:

Monday: Grilled Chicken Dinner Salad with lite dressing & Roll
Tueday: Spaghetti and veggie meatsauce & salad w/lite dressing
Wednesday: Pepper Beef Steak with onions, Roasted Zucchini & Brown Rice.
Thursday: Pasta Surprize (grilled veggies & chicken) with a side salad with a balsamic vinergarette.
Friday: Chicago Style Hot Dogs, Homemade lite slaw and baked jojo potato wedges.
Saturday: Cheese & Chicken Enchiladas (2) with a side salad with salsa (pico de gallo)

I also found Jello Sugar Free Cheesecake pudding is bomb, i made a parfait using frozen blueberries and granola. about 130 cals for dessert it really was great.

When I shooped i spend less this past weekend. I got some prepped items like the Frozen meatballs, canned sauces and same jello puddings and gelatin. I shopped around the outside parameter of the grocery store. then hand picked the stuff in the middle. I use the semi home made mentality.

Well i feel proud of myself for caring to sit down and plan my menues, shop around those menues then cook the things i could ahead of time to cut time.

I am getting ready to to go camping for Memorial day weekend and I have the honors to plan our meals, yes we will still have some of our favs in moderation, but there will be more salads because we can grill our meats, fish & poultry. You know a hamburger patty can still make a good salad :) I just cut it up and add it to my meal and use some thousdand island lite dressing makes for a nice big mac without the calories ;) I am substituting buns for whole wheat buns and leaner meats.

I am really focusing on myself because i have to. No one can do this but myself and i have the tools around me. There is so much all over the place, recipes on line, support groups and of course me myself and I.

I planned to succeed I know I will have a loss this week because I planned!!!!

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SEWINGMAMACDS 4/27/2010 11:34AM

    Great jog at planning - that is one thing that has been hard for me. Keep up the great work!

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EBPOOKIE 4/27/2010 11:20AM

    Thanks you guys i'm really working at it!!!

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FLUTTERBY4JC 4/27/2010 11:00AM

    Great Job Emmy!!!
You are inspiring me to get back on track with my planning. I see the most success when I have planned ahead like this!
Keep up the good work towards your goal!!


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BORGQUEEN 4/27/2010 9:43AM

    Emmy, thanks for this blog, it's a good reminder to us to take care of ourselves by planning! Once again, you are inspiring me.
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