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Days 4-7 Good Grief!

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Good Grief what is wrong with me. I am having a hard time with this change!! I just feel defeated!! I'm feeling depressed and not really having the energy to push myself. I basically want to sleep and eat!!! I don't want to really try much of anything. I'm really feeling down. I shouldn't feel this way, I have a great husband, wonderful furkids and a roof over my head, hungry we are not. I just am feeling really bad about myself. I can't even understand why. Inside I feel very alone, isolated. I know it is my head doing this. I feel like a hypocrite, here I am leading a team but yet I can't manage to lead myself. ARGH!!!! I feel like food has got an overwhelming power over me. DEFEAT!! I am trying to figure out how to get out this hole I feel I am in.

  
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MOOMOOSCARYGIRL 4/2/2009 9:45AM

    Depression is a kicker...I've only suffered from mild bouts but I know others who have and still suffer from severe depression...sometimes I find that I have to tell myself it is the depression that is wanting me to eat and since I am a Christian...I also say other things that help get me out of my funk but I won't go any further on that unless you are interested...Think of the wonderful testamony you will have and be to the others on the team once you get through this and can help others with what you are going through...there is always light at the end of the tunnel...try to stay focused and fight those negative urges...even when you don't want to...My prayers are with you...

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DIVA26 4/1/2009 2:40PM

    Hang in there Em! My husband and I have both been in one of those funks this week! And I KNOW the solution is to get some exercise in and make sure I am eating healthy, but sometimes when you are in this funk, it makes it even harder! Keep trying!

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CUATROMOMMY 3/30/2009 1:25PM

    Em-please see my post on our group chat. I'm feeling the same way & it appears that many others are as well.

It's time for a group intervention. We all need to pitch in & figure out how to do a group intervention.

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EBPOOKIE 3/30/2009 10:32AM

    Thank Jan, it's not that bad, I get into funks everyone once and a while never for long periods of time, I've just have to sort through it I know I will. Thanks!!
Will try and get my eating under control! Exercise will help as well. It will give me something to focus on... You take care of yourself and yes I understand about the leading the team aspect of it. I have been doing it for 2 plus years and I am seriously thinking of moving on next challenge. I keep thinking by doing this I won't gain more then I have but I really haven't done for myself. Anyway, have to get going-- work today, really pushing myself to go in, I could use another day off but I will have a long weekend in two weeks.



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THINKGREEN 3/30/2009 10:24AM

    Emmy, you are not alone. I also suffer from depression and even with meds it sometimes gets the better of me. And like you, I feel a great amount of guilt leading a team and yet being one of the folks who is posting gains each week. I keep asking myself if maybe I should step down because if I can't motivate myself how can I motivate a whole team? But we will turn this around. If you've been suffering from depression symptoms for more than two weeks, I would urge you to seek professional help if you haven't already. You can start with having your primary physician recommend someone. Try and push yourself to eat healthy and get at least 30 min of aerobic exercise daily (easier said than done -- believe me I know!). And most of all know that you have friends here on SP who care.
Jan (aka Thinkgreen)

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Day 2 & 3

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Not so bad, had a migraine for almost 2 days but taking baby steps to doing things yesterday i walked the stairs at work twice and walked around the building twice, we are on a hill so walking around the building is no cake walk. so will continue to push myself as we move along.

  
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RAINMUSIC 3/26/2009 6:56PM

    Go! Go!! GO!!!

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GRIZZLYBEAR3 3/25/2009 4:17PM

    Be not afraid of taking the small steps to prosperity, only worry if you were not walking at all. Grizz emoticon

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GIQCKDIET 3/25/2009 11:59AM

    Keep it going. Your really inspiring me!

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DAY 1

Monday, March 23, 2009

OKAY SO FAR SO GOOD, GOT THE FOOD JOURNALING DOWN SO FAR THIS MORNING, NEXT IS EXERCISE THIS EVENING WITH BYRON WE WILL WALK!! THEN LAST BUT NOT LEAST

BATCH COOKING - PREPLANNING FOOD FOR SUCCESS THIS WEEK.

  
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RAINMUSIC 3/25/2009 1:22AM

    Oh, I've never been able to do that planning thing. About the only batch cooking I do is roasting two chickens at once or making a huge pot of Whatchagot Stew.

I shy away from diets that have menus to follow. I just don't shop that way. Someday I'm going to write "The Loss-leader diet." How to buy groceries on sale and still lose weight.

First, I need to make it work, though.

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WITHSPIRIT 3/23/2009 10:25PM

    Yay, Emmy!!!!! I hope you had a fun walk with Grizz =) Lisa

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NO MORE EXCUSES!! I CAN DO IT!!

Sunday, March 22, 2009

BACK TO BASICS!!

JOURNALING MY FOOD INTAKE DAILY NO BUTTS!
PACKING AND PLANNING MY MEALS I SEEM TO HAVE GOTTEN OFF TRACK THESE PAST FEW WEEKS!!

EXERCISE DO IT DON'T SAY YOU WILL JUST GET OFF MY BUTT AND GET IT DOWN. I NEED TO DO IT. MY BACK IS HURTING MY EMOTIONAL SIDE IS HURTING, I'M NOT LIKING MYSELF MUCH. TIME FOR CHANGE!!!!

  
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NOTEGRL1 3/23/2009 12:29AM

    I KNOW U HAVE THE DRIVE AND WILL TO REACH YOUR GOALS. YOU WERE ONE OF THE FIRST PEOPLE TO WELCOME ME TO SPARKS. JUST FROM THAT I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT . EVERYONE HAS THE BLAH DAYS BUT I KNOW YOU WILL FIND YOUR PASSIONS AGAIN. GOOD LUCK.
MICHELLE

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WITHSPIRIT 3/22/2009 11:04PM

    You can do it, Emmy!!!!! I believe in you! When I started tracking my food in January, I finally lost ten of the pounds I regained! I have another 12 or so to go =D I'll be watching for you to succeed too, friend!!! Hugs, Lisa

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Finally feeling well!!!

Friday, February 27, 2009

Well after getting sick with Bronchitis and being sick for over 7 weeks I'm happy to say I am feeling alot better. I am back to routines and yes it is still easy and i'm eating all sorts of stuff. While on predosone I gained quite a bit of weight then lost it all within a week and now I have been maintaining but this week i started journaling my food and measuring I expect a nice lose by the time I go to TOPS!! I know I can do this and keeping my portions in check is what is needed. I still have desserts just small ones like cheesecakes bits for 100 calories or 100 calorie cake. I have been preplanning my meals each day before I got to bed and it's been working. I had a breakfast burrito which was about 200 calories and a glass of OJ for lunch i had chicken noodle soup and a ham sandwich on lite bread with jello for snacks applesauce and bananas. Drinking my water and i'm just about weened off regular pop. i got these 12 oz pepsi's and i'm drink half of one daily and today didn't want one. just drank water. I won't depreieve but i won't binge anymore on stuff. I know I have to practice a little more self control.

Well onward and need to get to bed.

  
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RAINMUSIC 2/27/2009 8:35PM

    Good for you!

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