EBPOOKIE   93,856
SparkPoints
80,000-99,999 SparkPoints
 
 
EBPOOKIE's Recent Blog Entries

I took the leap a faith & I feel great!!

Saturday, November 29, 2014

Last week I made the decision to take my health back and have put together a very special team. I have never asked for help but I know I need it and I have been afraid but took a leap of faith with those I love and love me and also know that for health reason I need to lose this weight once and for all. I had a test done today that really opened my eyes and know this is the right thing to do. No room for excuses just hard work.

I realized during my race the Rock n Roll Half Marathon in Vegas that it was something I couldn’t do just by myself that I needed help. I knew I had the bones to start and do but could never stay consistent without support; accountability and a good coach that believed in me the way I need to. You see all my life I have always taken care of others but never been able to quite do it for myself. I have always had good intentions but would fall flat on my face. What is different now, well I have a great coach and teammates which I handpicked and each one has a role. I knew these chosen loved ones want the best for me and would be there for me. So I have the coach the main Kauhuna, my weight recorder, my chef, and workout buddies. Plus I have my medical team on hand.

I weighed in last Sunday with coach and we went out and workout – he ran 10 miles I woggled 5 miles (woggle= run/walk). Since Sunday I stayed on top of my mileage and am really having fun. If walking 5 miles in pouring rain isn't determination, not sure what is. Meal planning has been easy and no food is bad food all in moderation but really working on healthier selections. I will weigh in weekly but won’t know my weight but every 4 weeks we are not fixed on numbers just success. My scale was taken away which I am happy I get obsessive with it. I track my workouts and food on sparks and they are open so coach can review. I am proud to say I have not binged in a month now and am feeling better about that no guilt or shame.
I am doing everything I can to stay focused on my goals and am determined to do this. I must for my health. The past 3 years I have been working with my therapist learning & putting things together; never realizing the fear inside me was the one thing holding me back. Change is a very scary thing and when you have done things one way for many years adding real change quick scared the crap out of me. I would sabotage myself all the time. I would do it because it was my comfort my safety, it’s how I hid myself. The guilt and the shame would be the feelings I knew daily growing up so the binge made me feel the same. I realized I no longer want to feel that. I wanted different feelings but in order to get them I needed to change, so here I am; slowly at the beginning of October I began acknowledging my feelings not burying them.

As thanksgiving came and went I realized how fortunate I am and what blessing I have daily in my life with my family and friends to them I give thanks.

I took the leap of faith and asked for help and man it came and while I’m doing the work, I love having my team backing me up by working out with me and encouraging me on my journey – I am very grateful and thankful!

To a successful holiday season mentally and physically! emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MRS.O14 11/30/2014 3:35PM

    You've got this sis from another Miss!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SWEETNEEY 11/30/2014 2:31PM

    This is wonderful. You seemed to be in a good place.

Report Inappropriate Comment
AAAACK 11/29/2014 12:17PM

    What an awesome blog. I'm so happy for your state of mind and I'm sure you'll begin to simply live healthy and by living healthy, you'll find the health you've been seeking, emotional and physical. You've been through so much and deserve this fresh start!

Report Inappropriate Comment
REXTINE1 11/29/2014 10:28AM

    I wish you well on your half-marathon race. It sounds as if your team will manage you along the lines of an exclusive health retreat, but it's still a long distance to travel in any mode - at any speed. Good training! emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DANCINCAJUN1 11/29/2014 7:58AM

    emoticon you sound truly focused .... march on !! rocie

Report Inappropriate Comment


Best Dam Run 10K TIME: 1:54:39 PACE: 18:10

Monday, September 29, 2014

Garmin Time: 1:54:39 Pace: 18:10 Best Dam Run 10K

I am so friggin’ happy this is my best time since my asthma kicked my tail in January. My worst time in this 10 7 race series was – Lazy Bend Run - Time: 2:05 Pace: 20:11 back at the end of May.

I have improved my 10K time by 11 minutes from May to now. I know that it is possible to get my time needed now for Rock 'n' Roll Las Vegas Marathon & 1/2 Marathon in mid November. It will only get better because I believe it! I will continue to chip away at my time and hope for the best. This was my favorite run out of the whole series not because I did well but because it was beautiful. The Clackamas River area is one of my favorite drives but to run this was amazing and the fall colors are starting to come in and were spectacular!! This race started at the boat ramp we had to be dropped off by bus, the fires that had been going on and threaten the area 3 weeks prior were gone after all the rain we had last week. The air was crisp and clear and I was happy that my asthma would not be affected. I started strong my ankle was stiff but I pushed through it figured it would loosen up eventually – never did. I ran so much more and so determined not to be last but to push myself to do my best times and run as much as I could and breathe that were my goals. I also wanted to make sure to pace myself a little as it was not my normal 3 -4 miles but 6.2. I took in the nature and beauty each tree was my eye marker. Push to that tree oh look you made it there now try the next. Okay ran harder breathe and walk now and then again push on the next as I did that I kept my mind focused in front of me and stayed is positive mode. The main back was on about a 15-16 mins pace I was doing 17 – 18 mins miles. When I got to mile 5 I was not sure if going to keep my time going as there was a slight hill but the final mile was down hill and the last ¾ mile I actually found my umph and I was running in through the finish line no cramps just sheer will. I got past the line and saw the race clock and was pretty sure I hit my mental goal for this race. They gave me my medal and all I wanted was water at the time. At that point I soaked in what I had done and felt extremely proud of myself.

My best time for a 10K was last turkey day which was: 1:46:21 Pace: 17:07 that is the pace I want back! I will do it!! 5 ½ weeks to get it done!


Pre race


Run buds


This is what was my view the whole run

Run to the finish

Sprinting

Finish

Medal

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

TOTALFOCUS 10/4/2014 3:03PM

    WOW!!! that is great!
Congratulations to you!
emoticon emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
REXTINE1 10/3/2014 6:15PM

    The finishing sprint is truly impressive. It was a great achievement.

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRS.O14 9/30/2014 9:45AM

    So proud of you!! You look STRONG!! You're an F'N AWESOME ROCKSTAR!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
SECOND2 9/29/2014 8:29PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
AAAACK 9/29/2014 8:26PM

    Awesome! So awesome, I love to hear you talk (blog) about your running, it's so inspiring! You look great in that color, by the way, you should wear it often! Or maybe it was just your smile shining through. Either way, you looked and did fantastic. Yay, Emmy!

Report Inappropriate Comment


Training Runs

Sunday, September 07, 2014

Just completed 5 miler today and a total of 21 miles for the week. It felt really good today.

I got this beautiful picture of the sunrise this morning



Feeling pretty accomplished. 10 weeks to go before the half!!

Next few races: 9/27/2014 10K & 10/11/2014 5K

Next week we up it to 23 miles.

Training schedule:

Monday: Rest Day
Tuesday: 4 miles
Wednesday: 5 miles
Thursday: 4 miles
Friday: Rest
Saturday: 4 miles
Sunday: Long Run - 7 Miler!

This weeks average pace was 18:43 minute miles. need to shave it down 2 mins. in order to come in under 4 hrs. more like 3 hrs. and 35 mins. is where I would love to be at. So hoping my training will be good.

Will be waking up at 4:30 am to get these runs done.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

AAAACK 9/7/2014 10:44PM

    You. Are. AmaZING!

Report Inappropriate Comment


10k completed today

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

I really didn't want to go to this optional 10k been feeling down wasn't into it but my two closes buds reminded me of my responsibility so I picked them up and off we went. Got there and my trainer runner buddy Brian said I don't want to sit and wait for 2 hrs. I am walking with you and Krista said I'm running my time which by the way she was awesome she did her best time. I wasn't thrilled about having company as i usually woggle = run + walk by myself. Can i say he pushed me in such a positive manner? Many runners were hi fiving me and also noticed my improvement while dealing with my asthma. I shaved 10 minutes from 3 weeks ago time. I felt great, proud actually. My feet are very sore but feeling terrific mentally again. Thanking my good pals.


  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

CMCDONNA 9/9/2014 9:46PM

    Awesome job!

Report Inappropriate Comment
NBARNES 9/7/2014 5:37PM

    Can't ever underestimate the impact of support from your buds!

Report Inappropriate Comment
PRESSINGON3:14 9/4/2014 9:22PM

    Awesome accomplishment to push yourself to do the run even though you didn't feel like it. Nicely done!!
emoticon emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
K80DALY 9/3/2014 1:51PM

    That's awesome! Congratulations!

Report Inappropriate Comment
MRS.O14 9/2/2014 12:51PM

    I can feel the pride you are feeling just by reading your words! I'm so proud of you and you did so awesome sis!!

Report Inappropriate Comment
AAAACK 9/2/2014 11:42AM

    Great job, Emmy! I always feel even more victorious when I do something I really wasn't feeling like doing. So good job for that, too! You're awesome!

Report Inappropriate Comment
NYARAMULA 9/2/2014 4:07AM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment


Fall dust yourself off and get back up

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Failure is not the fact that you had a binge, fell off the wagon, didn’t work out, and ate the wrong things. Failure is beating yourself silly in your own mind with mean words and lack of compassion for yourself.
Saying things like: I suck, I am worthless because I ate this bad stuff or I binged is bad. No matter where you are coming from it really is something you will believe and set yourself up for continuous failure. I know that when I have a bad day I have to tell myself to forget it and not beat myself over it, sometimes it happens the key is to get yourself back up sometimes this process is hard the longer you are off it.

Falling and not getting up or quitting on yourself is FAILURE – why do I say this well the fact that you won’t get up and try to take care of yourself is key that means you don’t care for yourself, you don’t love yourself. I have been there where I have not liked myself to not get back up for years but now no matter what no matter how hard I fall I pick up myself and get off. Why because I am worth it. I AM F’N AWESOME ROCKSTAR! I CHOSE TO vs. having to do this. No one has to hold your feet to the fire but yourself. Love yourself remind yourself daily what an F’N AWESOME ROCKSTAR you are!!!

So what do you do to get yourself back on track after being gone from it for more than 3 days?
Start small nothing big and overwhelming. Say today I choose to drink water vs. pop maybe that was what threw you off or exercising start with 10 mins I bet you when you finish ten mins you will feel good and add more mins afterwards. Healthy options start by substituting healthy over the higher calorie stuff, example-chicken sandwich fried and full of fat, how about a whole wheat bun, lettuce, light mayo with garlic powder or a little pesto tomato and a grilled chicken breast. That is a better than the fried version, same with fries back vs. frying.

Do your best forgive yourself and just keep trying, again reminding yourself on how AWESOME you are for embarking on this hard journey. Remember you are worth it!! I am worth it… SAY IT, WRITE IT and LIVE IT!


Just BELIEVE!!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SWEETNEEY 8/3/2014 12:39PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
DETERMINEDJANET 7/29/2014 7:45PM

    emoticon

Report Inappropriate Comment
EVIE4NOW 7/29/2014 5:48PM

  Love your blog. Thanks.

Report Inappropriate Comment
LIFENPROGRESS 7/29/2014 2:00PM

    emoticon

“The only thing a person can ever really do is keep moving forward. Take that big leap forward without hesitation, without once looking back. Simply forget the past and forge toward the future.”
~ Alyson Noel ~

Report Inappropriate Comment


1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 Last Page