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Best Dam Run 10K TIME: 1:54:39 PACE: 18:10

Monday, September 29, 2014

Garmin Time: 1:54:39 Pace: 18:10 Best Dam Run 10K

I am so friggin’ happy this is my best time since my asthma kicked my tail in January. My worst time in this 10 7 race series was – Lazy Bend Run - Time: 2:05 Pace: 20:11 back at the end of May.

I have improved my 10K time by 11 minutes from May to now. I know that it is possible to get my time needed now for Rock 'n' Roll Las Vegas Marathon & 1/2 Marathon in mid November. It will only get better because I believe it! I will continue to chip away at my time and hope for the best. This was my favorite run out of the whole series not because I did well but because it was beautiful. The Clackamas River area is one of my favorite drives but to run this was amazing and the fall colors are starting to come in and were spectacular!! This race started at the boat ramp we had to be dropped off by bus, the fires that had been going on and threaten the area 3 weeks prior were gone after all the rain we had last week. The air was crisp and clear and I was happy that my asthma would not be affected. I started strong my ankle was stiff but I pushed through it figured it would loosen up eventually – never did. I ran so much more and so determined not to be last but to push myself to do my best times and run as much as I could and breathe that were my goals. I also wanted to make sure to pace myself a little as it was not my normal 3 -4 miles but 6.2. I took in the nature and beauty each tree was my eye marker. Push to that tree oh look you made it there now try the next. Okay ran harder breathe and walk now and then again push on the next as I did that I kept my mind focused in front of me and stayed is positive mode. The main back was on about a 15-16 mins pace I was doing 17 – 18 mins miles. When I got to mile 5 I was not sure if going to keep my time going as there was a slight hill but the final mile was down hill and the last ¾ mile I actually found my umph and I was running in through the finish line no cramps just sheer will. I got past the line and saw the race clock and was pretty sure I hit my mental goal for this race. They gave me my medal and all I wanted was water at the time. At that point I soaked in what I had done and felt extremely proud of myself.

My best time for a 10K was last turkey day which was: 1:46:21 Pace: 17:07 that is the pace I want back! I will do it!! 5 ½ weeks to get it done!


Pre race


Run buds


This is what was my view the whole run

Run to the finish

Sprinting

Finish

Medal

  
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TOTALFOCUS 10/4/2014 3:03PM

    WOW!!! that is great!
Congratulations to you!
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REXTINE1 10/3/2014 6:15PM

    The finishing sprint is truly impressive. It was a great achievement.

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MRS.O14 9/30/2014 9:45AM

    So proud of you!! You look STRONG!! You're an F'N AWESOME ROCKSTAR!!

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AAAACK 9/29/2014 8:26PM

    Awesome! So awesome, I love to hear you talk (blog) about your running, it's so inspiring! You look great in that color, by the way, you should wear it often! Or maybe it was just your smile shining through. Either way, you looked and did fantastic. Yay, Emmy!

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Training Runs

Sunday, September 07, 2014

Just completed 5 miler today and a total of 21 miles for the week. It felt really good today.

I got this beautiful picture of the sunrise this morning



Feeling pretty accomplished. 10 weeks to go before the half!!

Next few races: 9/27/2014 10K & 10/11/2014 5K

Next week we up it to 23 miles.

Training schedule:

Monday: Rest Day
Tuesday: 4 miles
Wednesday: 5 miles
Thursday: 4 miles
Friday: Rest
Saturday: 4 miles
Sunday: Long Run - 7 Miler!

This weeks average pace was 18:43 minute miles. need to shave it down 2 mins. in order to come in under 4 hrs. more like 3 hrs. and 35 mins. is where I would love to be at. So hoping my training will be good.

Will be waking up at 4:30 am to get these runs done.

  
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AAAACK 9/7/2014 10:44PM

    You. Are. AmaZING!

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10k completed today

Tuesday, September 02, 2014

I really didn't want to go to this optional 10k been feeling down wasn't into it but my two closes buds reminded me of my responsibility so I picked them up and off we went. Got there and my trainer runner buddy Brian said I don't want to sit and wait for 2 hrs. I am walking with you and Krista said I'm running my time which by the way she was awesome she did her best time. I wasn't thrilled about having company as i usually woggle = run + walk by myself. Can i say he pushed me in such a positive manner? Many runners were hi fiving me and also noticed my improvement while dealing with my asthma. I shaved 10 minutes from 3 weeks ago time. I felt great, proud actually. My feet are very sore but feeling terrific mentally again. Thanking my good pals.


  
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CMCDONNA 9/9/2014 9:46PM

    Awesome job!

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NBARNES 9/7/2014 5:37PM

    Can't ever underestimate the impact of support from your buds!

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PRESSINGON3:14 9/4/2014 9:22PM

    Awesome accomplishment to push yourself to do the run even though you didn't feel like it. Nicely done!!
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K80DALY 9/3/2014 1:51PM

    That's awesome! Congratulations!

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MRS.O14 9/2/2014 12:51PM

    I can feel the pride you are feeling just by reading your words! I'm so proud of you and you did so awesome sis!!

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AAAACK 9/2/2014 11:42AM

    Great job, Emmy! I always feel even more victorious when I do something I really wasn't feeling like doing. So good job for that, too! You're awesome!

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Fall dust yourself off and get back up

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Failure is not the fact that you had a binge, fell off the wagon, didn’t work out, and ate the wrong things. Failure is beating yourself silly in your own mind with mean words and lack of compassion for yourself.
Saying things like: I suck, I am worthless because I ate this bad stuff or I binged is bad. No matter where you are coming from it really is something you will believe and set yourself up for continuous failure. I know that when I have a bad day I have to tell myself to forget it and not beat myself over it, sometimes it happens the key is to get yourself back up sometimes this process is hard the longer you are off it.

Falling and not getting up or quitting on yourself is FAILURE – why do I say this well the fact that you won’t get up and try to take care of yourself is key that means you don’t care for yourself, you don’t love yourself. I have been there where I have not liked myself to not get back up for years but now no matter what no matter how hard I fall I pick up myself and get off. Why because I am worth it. I AM F’N AWESOME ROCKSTAR! I CHOSE TO vs. having to do this. No one has to hold your feet to the fire but yourself. Love yourself remind yourself daily what an F’N AWESOME ROCKSTAR you are!!!

So what do you do to get yourself back on track after being gone from it for more than 3 days?
Start small nothing big and overwhelming. Say today I choose to drink water vs. pop maybe that was what threw you off or exercising start with 10 mins I bet you when you finish ten mins you will feel good and add more mins afterwards. Healthy options start by substituting healthy over the higher calorie stuff, example-chicken sandwich fried and full of fat, how about a whole wheat bun, lettuce, light mayo with garlic powder or a little pesto tomato and a grilled chicken breast. That is a better than the fried version, same with fries back vs. frying.

Do your best forgive yourself and just keep trying, again reminding yourself on how AWESOME you are for embarking on this hard journey. Remember you are worth it!! I am worth it… SAY IT, WRITE IT and LIVE IT!


Just BELIEVE!!

  
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EVIE4NOW 7/29/2014 5:48PM

  Love your blog. Thanks.

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“The only thing a person can ever really do is keep moving forward. Take that big leap forward without hesitation, without once looking back. Simply forget the past and forge toward the future.”
~ Alyson Noel ~

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Strong is here to stay - Let go of the last of my old skeletons

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The past few months I have let go of so much, I remembered so much from my past, it was hard it hurt and i was reunited with my brother after 37 years but i had one last piece to the puzzle to complete letting go the things that made me feel unworthy, ashamed, so much anxiety, humiliation,pain and anguish. That night I had remembered was filled with awful not thiings i wanted to talk about. I realized that I have not been as compassionate by myself. I was listening to someone's story and it had to do with a similar journey and my mind was saying why does he feel that way. It wasn't his fault not his to carry the guilt, shame, etc... as I heard myself saying this things in my head a mirror turned it back on myself and at that point I realized I had to talk, I had to let it out. I had written it out the week before but still not felt my feelings. I started to talk about it with my therapist and stopped at that point that caused the great hurt. I was afraid - but when i heard the story that weekend I knew I had to. I talked to my brothers and they too felt I should get it over with. I had to face the fear - their words hit me, why let the fear hold you back hold you in that pain that I was letting my father and step mom win, at that point i realized it was like i was still letting them beat me down the more i kept it in the more i treated myself badly in my head. So my appt was on July 3, 2014 at 5pm I was going there with a purpose. My therpist asked me how I was and I said let's get to this, I have get it out. I told her I would have to read it as i felt so much humilitaiton and shame, i was afraid of being judged again it's my head the little me blah blah blah trying to keep me from speaking up! So I pulled out my journal and started to read the first paragraph the part that was so hard and what happened next is I put the paper down and finally started talking and not reading but what happened as i start not reading but talking my tears came flowing, all that time of not being able to cry or show any emotions (fear of reprecussion - when it happened i had been told cry and it would be worse) i held in so much when pain happened i removed myself at that moment it all came out every tear i had held back and more. My therapist was nothing but compassionate and told me to let it all out she held my hadn and hugged me and i just let it out. After i pulled myself together she asked me what i was going to do for myself that night how would i handle it. I told her I was going to just decompressed and make sure i had my own space to take care of me. She wanted me to rest and ask for help if needed. We talked a little more and then the session was over as i was leaving she told me her partner would say "i'm f'in awesome" whenever he had done something good for himself. I laughed as i was walking out she stopped me and reminded me that i was doing great work and then told me i want you to say "i am an awesome f'in ROCKSTAR!" so i repeated it and she said no say it no yell it and mean it. I did and it made me laugh she gave me a hug and told me to remember it.

Can i say everytime i have made a great choice about food, exercise or anything that matter that comes into my head.

July 4th i had the Freedom Run 5K my goal was to have fun and try to get in under an hour because the last bunch of races i lost the fun the joy i would get from my training and races after getting sick for all that time(see previous blogs) I had committed the medal to my little brother who can't walk much less run more than a block he's in wheel chair or walker.. I came in under an hour 58 mis give or take and had a good time. I called my little brother to let him know how it went and that i was going to send him the medal his response was you keep the medal your earned it yesterday and send me the lapel pin that was part of the medal. You ran the freedomthon now you are free big sis. I am free - I left all that crap in that office that day and it felt liberating.

So that has been my mantra in my head I'm an awesome f'in rockstar or I'm f'in awesome pops in my head constantly. It feels good to love my body, love myself to make healthy choices, for once just to really love and be free within me. I know I'm not fixed overnight but I know I am a SURVIVOR who is healing her body, heart, mind and soul daily.

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Running to the finish with my best friend Krista

Krista & I with our medals


Time to train hard for Half Marathon in Vegas.

  
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PRESSINGON3:14 7/16/2014 8:18AM

    Thanks so much for sharing what you are going through. I relate to the negative thoughts that can keep one in bondage. I'm glad you are letting go and finding your freedom.
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GINTEX 7/15/2014 9:35PM

    Emmy, thank you for sharing. You have done amazing work. I am sorry that you had to deal with all that but you are an overcomer! emoticon

I saw a T shirt on the internet today that said, "Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle."

You are a great example and inspiration. Keep up the good work!

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MRS.O14 7/15/2014 1:34PM

    You are f'n awesome! That's a beautiful shade of happy on you!!

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AAAACK 7/15/2014 11:43AM

    You really are amazing! And worth every moment you give yourself. Thank you for sharing your story, I know it's been a long journey, and you've arrived, Emmy, you've arrived! You can breathe and know that each clean free breath is for you.

Keep up the awesome!

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