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Here we go..again ..again

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

I posted over a year ago that I was going to change... but I haven't.. I've used every excuse in the book ( to myself ) why I haven't been able to ( too busy... too many commitments .. ) etc, etc...

so I'll try again... what other choice do I have?

I'm pretty sure I'm a compulsive eater .. or bored eater...I don't know.. sometimes I eat and then feel like I was under a spell and think "why did I just eat all of that? and then more? " ... as a start I've written down ( admitted ) trigger foods...stuff that makes me want to eat a lot of it.. stuff that I can hide the fact that I eat .. or eat a lot of ..


Ice cream
accessible chocolate chips
Leftover anything
Accessible trail mix
Pre-eating supper while making it.

I look at that list and my logical brain is like "of course... duuuh.. no wonder you're overweight ... and it's a no-brainer to stop eating this way " ... but... like I said.. I think there is some compulsion involved... so I'm trying to battle it...


Thanks for reading...

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EASTCANBOTTOM 3/19/2013 11:39AM

    Thanks everyone :) Much appreciated

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SUPERSAY 3/19/2013 9:47AM

    We've all been there and again and again. Just need to keep trying.

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NEPTUNE1939 3/19/2013 9:27AM

    A lot of us have been there - A lot of us have overcome the again & again. It's surprising how good one can feel suceeding. emoticon emoticon

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TESTER24 3/19/2013 9:26AM

  emoticon Just keep trying!

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115 days

Monday, February 27, 2012

115 days until my goal. And the weekend was a setback. I posted mid last week saying "yay I was down another 1.5 pounds" which was silly... I checked in midweek and I shouldn't have. Then Friday night we had dinner at a friends place... I politely indulged... Saturday evening we went for drinks and appetizers for a friends birthday... I indulged... Sunday, since I had the bad food juices flowing through my veins, I was craving bad foods and relented... ate mindlessly. And this morning on the scale I paid for it.

Up a pound from last week. ( up 3 pounds since mid last week ). I told myself this morn...ugh... ok well it's just all the junk "still in me" ... I'm probably really still 271 ... I'll just not post my weight this morning and weigh myself again tomorrow.

yeah... denial... un-accountability.

So here I am truthfully saying I was going to lie about my weight to my online health management people hahahah. It's amazing the things our brain convince us to do.

Again, baby steps. Not going to beat myself up, just going to press forward. Can't change yesterday, but I can change today.


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EASTCANBOTTOM 2/27/2012 8:47AM

    haha yes you're right. A good friend used to say "if you sit in a barber's chair.. you're going to get a haircut" ...

My family knows.. haven't really shared it with friends. That being said I'm the first person that knows that I'm the only that can control myself... and I have to be the one to make good choices. Can't leave it up to family and friends to babysit me :) I know that's not what you're suggesting haha but you know what I mean ..

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REVIVINGFAITH 2/27/2012 8:32AM

    Sounds like you are putting yourself into too many tempting situations. Do your friends/family know about your goal to lose weight? Maybe they would suggest more diet friendly places if so.

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AJB121299 2/27/2012 8:16AM

    good luck this week. take one week at a time

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1 twenty 6 daze

Thursday, February 16, 2012

or otherwise known as 126 days.... until June 21st : summer. This is my deadline. For losing all the weight I need and getting into perfect shape? hell no. That's a long way off. It's my deadline for the first phase. The first stretch of time where I'm going to remain accountable to myself to get this thing happening again.

I lost weight. I gained it back. I lost weight. I gained it back. I lost weight. Oh guess what...I've gained it back...and here I sit..with weight on my shoulders and everywhere else. Ready.

This is essentially day 1. Every day is day 1. Because all I have is today, I definitely don't have yesterday ( so anything that happened yesterday is unchangeable ) so all I have is today. and the carrot at the end of this phase being June 21st. Why? Who wants to be way too overweight and sweaty and missing out on life in the summertime.

If I can lose 10 pounds by then. 20 hopefully. 30 would be amazing. 40 would be ...ok you get the idea. Either way I honestly don't care about the number as long as there is progress and I'm feeling better than I am today. ( or well..yesterday...because today I feel better than yesterday :) )

I haven't weighed myself, I'm probably still at the same weight I was a couple weeks ago. I'll weigh myself tomorrow morning and check in.

Here we go....................

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REVIVINGFAITH 2/19/2012 4:33PM

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Not impervious to what I already know

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

I know getting healthy doesn't happen over night - especially not the losing weight part. That being said just because I know that doesn't mean I'm not affected when things aren't going well. I had a good first few weeks of January and was feeling better having gotten rid of the holiday bloat and what I figured was at least 5 or more pounds.

I weighed myself a few weeks into January and I hadn't lost a single pound. Even though I knew this was a possibility I was discouraged and lost steam. Silly. And rather than come to sparkpeople and be accountable to the fact that I started eating junk again, I just stopped logging in. Silly.

But I'm waking up again.

So now I'm finally back to making healthy meals again and feeling better. Good food, good feeling.

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EASTCANBOTTOM 2/15/2012 10:42AM

    Thanks VEGETARIANAGOGO - focusing on food first - that's my biggest hurdle. Water intake is pretty good.... exercise is lacking... I was a big gym goer a while back and then slowly over the last year I let it slip to the point where I haven't gone since November. It's no excuse but a close family member passed away this fall and I've reeled from the emotions... I've been doing way too much emotional eating and pretending to myself ( yeah right ) that I haven't been... so again I'm trying slowly but surely to get back on track and have good health to look forward to.

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REVIVINGFAITH 2/15/2012 10:29AM

    Welcome back! I know it can be discouraging when you don't lose any weight or when you gain some back.

Are/were you focusing mostly on diet or did you add some exercise into it as well? How is your water intake?

You can do this! Like TWNO said, every step forward counts!

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EASTCANBOTTOM 2/15/2012 10:11AM

    Thanks... you're definitely right!

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TWNOMWE 2/14/2012 2:24PM

    The most important part is never to give up. You fall down and you yourself up again and keep moving forward.

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Distracted, in a good way

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Something I've been doing this time around is distracting myself when I try to behave poorly ( hell I use it on my kids, why not myself ) ... iow... kids usually go to bed....time to sit and watch TV right? and that means...hmm.. I get snacky... so ... I've changed my routine.... kids go to bed...and then I go do one of my non-work related hobbies for my own enjoyment... either reading or listening to or playing music or whatever... and then if I still want to watch some tube at this point it's late and I find myself better equipped to stay away from the useless snacks. i.e., by this time I realize and remember what it's like to not be eating constantly and actually not be hungry. Or if I am feeling a tug at my stomach I'll reach for something healthy like an apple or a mars bar. Ok just kidding. Like an apple or nuts or something. Something to satisfy the minor hunger but not make me feel bloated when I go to sleep and even worse feel "food hungover" in the morning...

It's actually been easier to get up in the mornings since doing this! :)

Do you do anything to distract yourself? What do you do to keep from snacking uselessly?

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REVIVINGFAITH 1/17/2012 2:57PM

    Distraction can be a great technique. I used it the other night - I took a hot bath in my nice clean bathroom rather than continuing to eat. The key to distraction, I feel, is to change up what you use to distract yourself. A lot of times when we are eating mindlessly it's because your brain is craving stimulation, and stimulation comes from novelty. That's why ice cream with nuts or some other kind of chewy/chunky food is more popular than plain ice cream alone. Your brain loves the novelty. So long term, keep switching up your distractors and this should continue to be a viable solution.

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MOLLYSARAN 1/17/2012 2:09PM

    Great plan , if i want to watch tv in the evenings i have to work out while watching & if i feel the urge to snack i do a mini work out & ask myself after do you want to waste that workout by having a snack , usually i say no !!! and if i really dont feel like working out there is always lots of housework to do !!! That's how i distract myself :)

keep it up your doing great emoticon

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