Tuesday, November 08, 2011
i haven't been blogging as regularly cuz i've been fairly depressed. i don't really wanna get into it, but the first court date for the divorce is mon the 14. our attorneys have talked and get alone, and i think we're mostly in agreement, but a few things still need to be worked out. needless to say, i've been crying the past few days and will prolly continue to do so for the forseeable future (even after the 1st court date). i feel so alone.
i was really sick a few weeks ago, so i just started going back to the gym. i need to go more often tho. i have to get better about eating healthy too. but honestly, it just feels like my mind and body have given up. i have no motivation, no energy, nothing. my "friends" are all too busy for me (especially cuz i live in the burbs and they live in the city). this is the most difficult time of my life, and i've never felt more alone.
i know i need to start blogging more and stop keeping my feelings inside. i'm trying so hard to stay positive, but i kinda feel like i've lost myself. i dunno who i am anymore. guess it's time to figure that out...