Thursday, May 12, 2011
Fibrofog. Anyone who has had it knows the frustration of forgetting how to do something and not being able to jerk their brain into remembering. Yesterday I was slowish. Today my brain is going to jelly.
First it was staring at the computer trying to remember my password to get into Spark. Then I couldn't remember how to track my weight. When things like this happen I have to have a visual. My visual was hidden as part of my screen was not showing.
Notes. I have them all over the place. If a thought comes to mind that might be important I have to write it down. Otherwise a bill might go unpaid, or taking a trip to town and forgetting one of my errands is likely. (It's not like things are 5 minutes away from me and I can go another time. I go to town 1x week and everything has to be done for the week in that one trip) My new tactic is a checklist. Did I feed all the animals, or do I think I did?
When fibrofog happens it can last for days. Life becomes dreamlike. I know I annoy people repeating things and asking the same questions and forget the answers even after the fifth time. That dreamlike state that makes me believe I did do something or talk to someone only to find out I didn't.
Losing which day it is. Feeling exhausted waking up and not knowing what day it is til I look at the puter screen or the tv. Now with daylight savings time this has been very disconcerting. I'll fall asleep and then wake up to daylight. I've had times I thought it was the next morning and started to go about morning business. It's shocking to find out it's "yesterday" still.
Fibrofog is scarey. Today I won't be able to drive to town and get my errands done as planned. Today I won't dare cook because it can be dangerous. Today I won't talk on the phone cuz I won't remember what was really said. Today I won't stoke up the woodstove. Today I have paper and pen in every room, just in case.
What I can do. Read the Charles Stanley book I received as an Easter gift. Exercise my brain, futile as that seems, doing a jigsaw puzzle. Work on mindless craft projects - the kind that mistakes are another form of art. This too, will pass.
Thank God I am in a safe environment.