Friday, July 18, 2014
A few weeks ago my family and I went on a trip up to Massachusetts to visit my two brothers, see Boston, and visit a few new towns. Overall, it was a good experience because I was able to spend time with my brothers who I donít see as often as Iíd like to and have some new experiences.
However, throughout I was again reminded of how overweight and out of shape I truly am. I took a lot of pictures and was shocked how I look and whether that is how I project myself out into the world. I donít like it at all. My weight situation and other personal struggles have existed for several years now but I have to do something about it. I did not feel comfortable in my own skin and my clothes started to feel tighter. Not a good feeling at all.
I know that there are a lot of people who have accepted themselves and are proud of their bodies. I wish I could be like them, but itís not the case. Iíve felt so uncomfortable in my own skin that I would rather stay home then go out into the world and face whatever is thrown at me.
I think itís finally time. I know what I have to do and now I just have to start and keep going. I can do it. Iím going to weigh myself tomorrow morning and write down the number as my starting weight.