Sunday, May 04, 2014
On Tuesday night when I left my SW class with the Fast Forward red leaflet and advice from my consultant Nicola I felt like life was going to change. I had asked for help as I thought I had been following the SW plan but for the past two weeks I had put on weight and didn't know why!
Before I read the leaflet I didn't know by how much it was going to change but I was DETERMINED, I was going to DO IT!
However when I read the leaflet I thought 'OH NO', it does look as DIFFICULT as I had been TOLD and quite restrictive, but not impossible!
I wish I had read the leaflet more thoroughly before I went shopping on Wednesday morning as I wouldn't have bought as much 'free food'! I almost cried Wednesday evening when I realised how little I'd had all day compared with a normal SW day – about how much food I had in the house and I COULDN'T EAT IT!
Surprisingly to me though I had eaten my 23 units and to be honest I wasn't hungry! My hands did feel drawn to the food cupboard and fridge – to apples and yogurt but I didn't give in to it!
All I ate on my first day was: 2 slices of bread and 150g beans, 1 apple, 2 slices of bread and 2 egg omelette (no fat), 150g strawberries, 225g jacket potato with tunafish and 2 tblps sweetcorn, 1 fat free yoghurt, 1 apple
As I write this I have completed 5 days and have found there have been considerable changes. I was addicted to food I do admit!
I actually I no longer feel I have to eat something to keep me occupied!
I used to be naughty and eat between doing jobs around the house (apples or fat free yogs) but this week I have shown myself a drink is enough and food not needed.
Another bad habit was shopping when I may eat a piece of fruit between each shop and then maybe 2 or 3 apples as I unpacked the bags and put them away. This week I did have one apple while out but it was in my allowance – SO DETERMINED was I.
I don't know if I am still thinking of food all the time but it doesn't feel as if its in charge of me anymore! I have never felt so IN CONTROL of food rather than the other way round – long may it last!
Actually I have eaten more varied foods this week, I have eaten and enjoyed far more bread than before, some days 4 slices of wholemeal small bread, eg beans on toast and poached eggs on toast.
I am going to return to the usual red/green plan from Tuesday for a week, looking forward to more free foods but plan to eat in a more healthy way. Then do another week on the Fast Forward plan as they do encourage 2 weeks.
Looking back if anything I have actually felt hunger somedays, I never used to wait until I was hungry before I ate. I have also sat down to eat much more than usual.
I hope to continue these better habits, to plan food for the day to prevent 'gaps' which need to be filled. I have to stay busy and keep away from the fridge as much as possible and remember that I AM IN CHARGE OF THE FOOD NOT THE OTHER WAY ROUND!
I have written this to remind myself of changes and how proud I am that I have almost compled the week, lets hope I can continue the good work!