Sunday, January 31, 2010
I've never blogged before. I do journal every day and have for years now. It's fun to go back and see where I was and compare it to where I am now. I really haven't grasped the concept of blogging yet. I don't know if anyone besides myself can benefit from reading my blog. I don't know if I can benefit from reading my blog for that matter.
I have been tossing around this thought for awhile now and thought maybe it was worth sharing. Maybe I'm wrong.
I work nights. I work....to pay bills. I have 3 kids and though we aren't poor I don't really indulge in things like manicures, pedicures and messages. Good for you if that's your thing and you can spend the money on it but, it's not my thing and I don't feel like I do have the money for it. I also don't have the money for a personal trainer, although sometimes I wish I did. I am my own personal trainer. It's not easy all of the time. Sometimes I'm lazy or just plain tired and I don't want to work out or at least work out hard. I have to motivate myself and I have to remind myself why I am doing the work out. Sometimes I have to dig alot deeper than I want to in order to get a decent work out from myself. Sometimes I want to quit altogether but, my personal trainer won't let me.
I know many of us are like this. We have to find our own motivation, create our own mantras and we have to kick our own butts when we don't feel like doing anything. It has taken me awhile to figure out what motivates me and how to keep myself from slacking off.
The first thing I do is keep myself immersed in the topic at hand. Weight loss, healthy living and nutrition/exercise. There are so many articles, dvd's, books and online videos that offer all of the information I need on any given topic. Sometimes I just go to the Today show and watch the Joy Fit segment on video. These people have all lost over 100lbs by diet and exercise only and have kept it off for over a year. They are inspiring to watch and I always pick up a pearl or two here and there.
Secondly, I try to keep my workouts fresh. I'm kind of ocd about alot of things and for years I did the same workout the same way each and every day. Well, in the process of reading and learning I found that that is exactly what I shouldn't be doing. So, I stepped out on the limb and started trying different things. I tried things I didn't think I could do. I found out I could do alot more than I thought. I surprised myself. That gave me confidence to test my limits a little. I would say to myself, "self, what's the worst thing that can happen? You'll find out you're not ready for that just yet and you'll have to try again another time." Wow, that really freed me up to go a little further than I would have before. I allowed myself the opportunity to fail. So what? And, if I didn't fail then I gained more confidence and surprised myself even more.
Thirdly, I keep in touch with people who have the same goals as I do. I confess when I bomb and report when I succeed. I get ideas and inspiration from them and, I hope, I give something back by trying to inspire them too. It helps me to try to help others. It makes me stick to my own program and to practice what I preach.
I have to do alot of self talk. This helps me. It makes what I know to be true and right turn into something more tangible for me. I don't scream at and berate myself but, I do try to encourage myself to try just a little harder. It helps. That's what gave me the idea that I am my own personal trainer.
I don't know how many other people this will help. I'm hoping that some will at least be able to identify with how I feel. I know it helps me to put it into real words....in a blog.