Tuesday, July 10, 2012
If you donít go after what you want, youíll never have it. If you donít ask, the answer is always no. If you donít step forward, youíre always in the same place.
SOURCE: Daily Reminder Quotes (DRQ)
I have been on a 4 day binge and am suffering now from it. It's pointless to ask why but I have to get a handle on this. Like an addict, I lost all control, couldn't stop and today I feel like I'm in the gutter. So all I can do is to pick myself up, plan my day and move on. Yes I am weak! Yes I am always starting over!! No, I will NEVER learn!!! My only answer to stress is to eat. I can talk till I'm blue in the face but nothing overcomes the comfort of food. I've been on this journey long enough to know the answers, the tricks and all that I'm supposed to do but when pushed to the wire, it's still the food that comforts me, talks to me and has such a hold over me.
Things go smooth for just so long and then everything breaks loose. So I keep fighting but deep down I feel like this is such a losing battle and not in the good losing sense. I can't wait till Oct when we leave here to go south for the winter. All my stress will be behind me then and happiness reigns.