Saturday, July 30, 2011
My daughter has a beautiful pool but she has a terrible ladder to get in and out of the pool. My husband and I haven't gone in her pool since she got it last year because of the ladder. After my excapades with changing the filters at home, she invited us over today to go in the pool. She and her friend said they would help us in and out and if we really got stuck they would call the fire dept. for us. (wise guys!)
Anyway, we took her up on her offer and had the best day since we got home from down south. I swam today (with my noodle of course) for a good 2 1/2 hours, probably more like 3. It was so hot, the water was so cool, the sun was just right and then came the welcomed shade. A perfect day with plenty of great company. They offered to BBQ but with everyone so tired, we decided on pizza instead and thinking of all the exercise that I did, I felt I could afford the treat of pizza. Once I started eating, I realized just how hungry I was and before ya knew it, I had downed 4 pieces. It was so good, such a thin crust and delicate mozzerella cheese on top. It was a great day and as we were leaving she offered the use of the pool to us while she is working or any time we want. How I wish we had tried this sooner. We could have been using it the whole month of July.
Friday, July 22, 2011
What keeps you motivated?
This was worth pondering because when things are going well, the momentum alone keeps you going but it's when things are not going well that you need something to push ahead. When I first started I had grand ideas of losing a lot of weight and giving myself only a year to do it. It was going to be steady as I would be working hard but only asking for about 2 lbs a week. I could do this. NOT! It worked in the beginning but then I hit a plateau. Well, it was only the first one and I had lost a lot so I would make it thru and I did, it started again. Then another plateau came. This time it was longer and if it weren't for my friends here pushing me on, I might have given up but their encouragement helped so much. It passed but such a short time later, I hit my 3rd plateau. This one lasted so long but by this time I had lost a lot to really make a difference and I was loving that difference so the new clothes and new feelings that went with them as well as my friends pushed me thru. I was going strong until we arrived home again in March. All of a sudden things started falling apart.
I've gained about 13 lbs and it had started to get me down. So what keeps me motivated? I've never in my life finished anything. How many diets have I started, how many projects went unfinished, how many times I helped someone UNTIL it got too hard. Then I quit. I always settled for good enough. Well I'm determined this time that good enough is not an option. I'm in another blip and I will get thru this too. I'm biding my time till we go south again when I have a pool available to me and all stress is off. If I can just hold steady, I see a light at the end of the tunnel.
I did find out that unless I do between 50 and 70 mins of formal exercise in addition to regular living stuff, I tend to gain everyday. I can't eat any less or it will cause a binge to erupt. If I let myself get too hungry, I can't resist plus it's not good for me either. So that brings me to doing those exercises. I happen to have found some that I semi enjoy doing (as much as you can enjoy exercising, lol). I use my Wii to weigh in and since it's set up after weighing in, it's nothing to keep going on it. Mid morning after breakfast, I have an extra burst of energy. Doing 20 mins on demand fitness TV helps. Then again late afternoon right before dinner, I try to do another 20 mins. It's important to change up the routines but still have something that is fun to do. It's a habit that I created as it usually fits my schedule. Let me repeat that - It's a HABIT! Once you make a habit, when you stray from it, you have a sense of unbalance.
So motivation comes from many sources. The deep down desire to improve myself and make myself healthier. Wearing new clothes or in my case - having such a very small wardrobe because I refuse to buy more clothes in this size, my old ones are gone and if I buy new ones they are going to be my end of the journey clothes. I have a few "in ancipation" clothes that fit but I won't wear out yet as I consider them too tight for people to see me in. I am still looking for approval - from my doctor, my parents and other family members and as bad as it sounds, this is another motivation for me. I want to keep my place as a role model. How can I ask others to do what I haven't done. My daughter needs to see that this can be done and maintained. I must stay in balance by keeping the new habits that I've made. Routine exercise and no night time eating (this was a hard habit to get but like everything else, it was a habit). And the last motivation is from forgiveness. If I do slip up, I have to acknowledge that and go back on track as soon as possible. I have set a new goal for my 2 year anniversary to have completed my journey. So that means I have 6 months to lose the rest of my unwanted weight. Setting specific goals is important to me. Without them, I tend to flounder and get very lax and this doesn't get me anywhere. I have to be accountable, I have to be on track and I have to be STRONG!
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