Friday, June 11, 2010
For some reason, I'm thinking "Alice in Wonderland" this morning - probably because we did the Jazzercise routine to Kerli's "Tea Party" song yesterday - fun song, strange but entertaining music video, just like the new "Alice in Wonderland" movie.
I am feeling so good! The past week and a half has been really on track eating and exercise wise. I am having to incorporate vegetables into every meal even more than normal to keep up with all our CSA veggies plus our own garden's production. I feel like I'm eating a giant salad with every meal, which is good, because all that bulk fills me up so I don't overdo it on more calorie dense items.
This week in particular, exercise-wise, has been really good. I've made it to double Jazzercise twice, and I've found that both times, the second class I had so much more energy than the first. DH is a little worried that I'm going to overdo it and get burned out on going, but I am totally enjoying myself. The owner of the studio was teaching again in my second class yesterday and called me out in front of the whole class (it was a packed room of about 35 Jazzercisers), saying "Don't you guys think she should be an instructor?!" He told me after class that he'd make an exception to get me in to the next round of training even though I missed paperwork deadlines. I'm still thinking about it, and I know DH is concerned about me overextending myself with more jobs, but I'm there 5 days a week anyway - why not get paid? Something to definitely ponder this weekend.
I read an article in Shape magazine a few days ago that has been irking me since I read it and wondered what you guys thought. It was one of their "transformation" type articles about someone who was overweight and overcame their bad habits, lost what they wanted and of course are now living their ideal, most awesome life. It made me mad because they described her as 5'4" and that by the time she was in her mid-twenties, after being fit in high school, she had "packed on the pounds to reach 154." The phrase "packed on the pounds" really bothered me. This is exactly where I am right now and I have worked really hard to get here. Their phrasing seemed so demeaning and rude, and I guess it struck a nerve. I've been considering canceling my subscription to this magazine because of issues like this in the past few months. Not only have they become more focused on stylized ideals of beauty, but they're also shifting to a lot more celebrity coverage, which I could care less about. Those people aren't anything like normal, everyday Joes and Janes and its a total waste of my time to read about what Kim Kardashain is doing to keep herself looking like she does. I'm not her and I never will be (and I don't want to be!) I guess I need to look more for a magazine like Women's Health or something that is more health and fitness based rather than image based. Shape used to be a much more fitness based magazine, but they are definitely shifting to more image focused features. Not sure that's for me.
I am so close to achieving my next big goal - 152 and a facial at the Aveda Institute! I know I'm going to reach it this weekend. Can't wait to call and schedule it!
Hope you all have a great weekend, wherever you are!
Sunday, May 30, 2010
DH and I did a fantastic wine country bus tour today in celebration of our anniversary and for the holiday weekend. While I did go over on my calories, I still made better choices than I might have in the past. We had a great time with both new and old friends on our luxury limo bus and can't wait to go again in the future. :)
Monday, May 24, 2010
So, my birthday was last week. I definitely used it as an excuse to eat very very poorly. For more than one day. Which while I gave myself permission to do it, felt a lot like cheating. I felt guilty about eating a lot of the things that I did end up putting in my mouth. And yet I kept doing it. For five days.
*sigh* Wow, I didn't realize it had been that many days. I tried on Saturday and Sunday to reign myself in a little bit, but definitely still was over the edge.
There is so much crap food in our house right now. We had a party on Friday night and 18 of my friends came and brought snacks - granted, they tried to be healthier, but there are still many things that I would not have purchased in my cupboards. And if I know it's there, chances are I'm going to eat it just to get rid of it. It feels very wrong to me to throw things away that people paid for and that there is nothing wrong with.
This is especially true if someone made it from scratch, like the delicious carrot cake my dear friend made as a birthday cake for me. There was a lot leftover and even though I asked people to take a piece or two home, we still ended up keeping 7 pieces. Guess how many are left now? 2.
To say that the scale is back up is an understatement. I have put myself back by WEEKS with this birthday binge.
What I'm thinking about now is
-How do I manage special occassions and events in the future?
-How do I better manage social situations where eating is major component of the gathering?
-How do I not make myself feel deprived when I know there are all kinds of yummy things I'm not eating?
I'm feeling sad about my lack of self control over the past several days and wondering if I can really make these changes into lifestyle habits. I know it's hard to change years and years of eating habits, and that I really haven't been working on it that long compared to some. It's upsetting and frustrating to me to look at all the hard work I've done and how easy it was to erase it with a few days of less than vigilant eating. I don't want to weigh everything and measure everything for the rest of my life. I want to get to the point where I know what a typical portion is and that I can safely estimate it. I want to be able to eat birthday cake and not be freaking out inside that I'm undoing all my work. I want to not be obsessed with food, which I feel like I am right now.
I know I will get to these goals if I just keep doing the work and making the small changes. No one said this was going to be an easy road. Change will come, I just have to stay committed and learn from the past few days and make better choices in the future.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
So, I love Jazzercise. I've been going consistently since February 2010, usually between 4 to 6 days a week. I find it to be a challenging, fun workout that incorporates everything I need to accomplish in about an hour. Plus, their class schedule allows me to fit it in my day around my schedule.
Needless to say, I'm there a lot and I'm in to it.
Maybe that's why today, when I was sharing my weight loss success with the instructor after class (he is also the owner of the studio), he complimented my energy and strength in class and told me I should think about taking it to the next level and become an instructor! That just tickled me pink. I have never even imagined myself being fit enough to be a fitness instructor, and here is this professional fitness guy telling me that I should really think about it.
Wow! So, maybe I have a new opportunity in front of me. Then I'd be getting paid to work out! We'll see - my practice has been getting busier and busier, so it'd be a challenge to work it in, but maybe......hmmmm
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