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I'm Back!!

Sunday, May 22, 2011

Well here I am..still fighting the fight on this obstacle filled journey. December 2009 brought me my greatest success thus far....236 lbs...just 37 pounds away from being under 200 pounds for the first time in over a decade. I was ready, I was focused and confident, and then 2010 entered in a raging way. I was suddenly plagued with severe illness, a new and extremely stressful job, deaths of loved ones and last but not least, my own fears of failure and anxiety towards success led to my sabotage and derailment. I felt completely disconnected from my journey. I no longer felt or looked like that focused and determined person I had become throughout the year 2009. I was lost for a while and it has definitely taken me some time to get back but here I am...ready, focused, determined, humbled and prepared...prepared for the twists, turns and many detours I will have to endure to finally continue my journey. I look forward to reading and connecting with my fellow Sparkers who are all on the same beaten path, trying to reach success. God Bless and keep fighting!!!! emoticon

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LILSHINE 5/23/2011 2:20PM

    Welcome back to the journey, may you grow stronger each day!

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SUZIEW27 5/22/2011 7:59PM

    Welcome back!! We are glad you are back with us!!!


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MOMAAGAINX2 5/22/2011 9:08AM

    Welcome back you can do it!!! emoticon

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50 pounds!!!!

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Good morning everyone. This has truly been a great weekend for me. Yesterday I bought a pair of jeans and they are a size 14/16 instead of a size 22. emoticon
My weigh in this morning was a great one. I have been doing really well since I restarted this year after gaining back most of my lost weight last year. I guess I just needed to be recommitted to the program, my journey and to my goals because today marks the day that I have lost 50 pounds since restarting. I feel so proud and accomplished that I almost shed a few happy tears during my weigh in this morning. emoticon
I feel the motivation to keep going and I know I will. Hope everyone is doing well and has a wonderful healthy happy week. Talk to you soon.


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LOVE--ME 7/19/2009 9:09AM

  Congrats, that's great to hear! Good luck for the rest of your goals. =)

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Trying it again

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Good morning Sparkers, Hope everyone is doing well. It has been a while for me since I checked in. The reason is I JUST PLAIN FELL OFF THE WAGON!! I put on most of the weight that I had lost and weighed in at 285 on April 10th. emoticon
I am sad to say that I had to spend a few days getting over the shame, guilt and regret that I was feeling but I did get over it and started again on my birthday April 19th...slowly... but I AM picking up steam, energy, strength and determination. emoticon emoticon
I knew this was going to be one of the hardest journeys I have ever taken but I am willing to be in it for life and continue trying to just get it right! It's funny the hardest thing for me was weighing in and starting my ticker over but I'm glad I did. So far I have dropped 12.5 pounds since April 19th and I am praying for the strength to just keep going.
I am creating short term goals for myself this time and hoping that it may keep me encouraged and focused a little better this time. Looking at my ultimate goal and realizing I still had soooo much weight to lose was totally counteractive for my food obsessed brain, so doing it a little differently this time. Hope it works. emoticon

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READY4LIVE 5/15/2009 7:43PM


Oh hun.. how I do know that shame & guilt with putting most of the weight back on! I too have struggled this year keeping to plan and doing what I need to do to be healthy. But yay... I'm so glad your back here with me, picking up steam and energy, determination, to be a success story! :)

I honestly need to move my ticker back, I just couldn't admit to myself I had put on that much, and was determined to get back to where my ticker was...lol!

If you feel like sharing... would love to hear about some of your goals and what is working for you. Miss ya my #1! MUAH!

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    I agree with the smaller/shorter goals because it's more attainable and you won't get discouraged. I review mine monthly and adjust them according to what is going on in my life. We are thrown curves here and there so it's important to take those in and learn to cope. One day at a time.. you will get to your goal!

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Ready to rejoin the rest of the world

Sunday, December 07, 2008

Hello to all and I hope all is well with everyone. It has been a while but I'm back and ready to resume my life. I hit a bit of a rough patch there emotionally after losing one of my younger brothers. His death was sudden, unexpected and totally devastating. I turned into a recluse and although I didn't pack on a great deal of weight, I lost my desire and motivation. I was basically just going through the motions of life numb and unaware of what's really going on around me. I guess I just needed time because although I am still sad, angry and confused, I am processing my emotions better and am realizing I have to rejoin the rest of the world and choose to continue on with my life. So here I am picking up the pieces and moving forward. The first piece I wanted to pick up was continuing with Sparkpeople. I managed to keep my weight at 275 during my low point but weighed myself this morning and was happy to say I weighed in at 270. I started working out for the first time in a very long time this past week and I guess my body was just as ready as I was to start shedding pounds. I am feeling hopeful, excited and driven today, after what has felt like the longest, darkest period in my life. I am looking forward to Sparking again. emoticon

God Bless

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CBRANCH76 12/17/2008 9:44AM

    I am praying for your strength.

Peace, Love and many blessings,

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BABY_GIRL69 12/8/2008 6:01PM

    Hi Erika, we're all very glad that you're back cause there's all kinds of support here! I joined Moving Forward Through Grief & Loss Team & it helped me when I was going through & still does. We just have to know when its time for us to reach out & get help getting back to ourselves. I won't say normal because after a loss of a sibling, there is really no normalcy. Especially around the holidays, so I have experienced it for myself & if you ever need to reach out & just get support, reach, I'm here. Although I lost my second to the oldest brother 5 years ago, it seems like I was just talking to, or hugging or laughing with & even tickling him. Cherish all the moments of life with family & friends & loved ones. Its part of our purpose. You are in my prayers.


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GERMANPICKLE 12/7/2008 2:42PM

  I am so very sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine. Good on you for addressing your feelings how YOU need to. Love yourself; we are here to support you as you need it.

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JOY8269 12/7/2008 2:29PM

    Erika, so sorry to hear about your brother but glad to know the healing has begun! Keep moving for yourself and your health but as a remembrance to your brother also! I'm pretty sure he wouldn't want you to wallow in pain forever. Keep pressing toward the mark....Blessings, Joy

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Back in the Game!!!

Monday, November 03, 2008

I refuse to beat myself up for gaining 20 pounds so I will only say I let my emotions get the best of me but I am back on a schedule and eating the way I should be. I am going to do everything I can to stay strong and be the best me I can be.
Wishing everyone the best.


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READY4LIVE 11/11/2008 12:43PM

    WHOOHOO! I can feel that determination and drive shinnin through your blog. That's right huney, we need not to beat ourselves up over our little slip, but to rejoice in being "Back in the Game!"

Wow...your story sounds so much like mine...I guess we were both going through it. emoticon to you, hope things are going better! Wishing you the BEST!

~Heather emoticon

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LILSHINE 11/4/2008 11:31AM

    Great attitude!

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