Friday, November 15, 2013
Alright... So much for trying to do it all at once and make some major changes... I have had 4 Java Monsters (yes, specialty energy drink, coffee flavored)since my last post, and each one tasted phenomenal. I have lost more weight, but not as much as I had hoped. I have not been using my trackers, either. One step at a time, one choice at a time, one day at a time.
I am also saddened to report that my oldest children ruined my Zumba disc. That was my one way of taking time to myself and making sure that I had some genuine exercise instead of housecleaning and counting all of my daily walking as fitness minutes. I know that I need to truly commit to making my changes if I have any hope of reaching my goals.
The children are finally in a decent routine that allows us to be ready to leave every morning on time and with minimal hassle. Every year we go through this transition of having to wake up at a certain time and the tasks that are necessary to be prepared for the rest of the day, but it is getting better.
So here's to committing to myself again, and this time, I will not allow me to push myself aside.
Monday, October 07, 2013
Today started out really well. The oldest kids were up on time and off to school without hassle; the baby slept in a little bit and gave me some much needed time to myself. I have not had a Java Monster since my last blog post (I know, four days, but for me that's an accomplishment all in itself). I have since swept all the floors, done laundry, cleaned my room, washed dishes and am enjoying a few minutes of down time while the dryer finishes up.
I reconnected with a dear friend today, and it felt really good to see her and spend a few minutes with her, even though it almost seemed like I had to break almost every sentence so that I could talk to the baby.
For lunch, I split a Baja Club sandwich from my favorite local sub shop with the baby (she's a year old and eats all the same foods I do). It shot my calorie count for the day, but it's great to see my protein counts closer to goal. It means watching what I eat for supper and some more fitness time, but it's worth it. :-)
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
I am still struggling to cut down on my beloved Monster Java Mean Bean consumption. I am using my trackers, and have discovered I am still well below the nutritional goals each day, but my exercise minutes are also decreasing. It is saddening (nearly maddening), but I am trying. My husband races at our local speedway, and it is what others call our "off season"... So not accurate. It's more like "prep season" to get ready for racing. This year, he wants to have a smoker (racing fundraiser, complete with an auction, food and different raffles). I am extremely thankful that I am home instead of trying to battle my own inner demons to hold down a full time job while helping him plan all of this.
I walk almost every day (my oldest two are in the district's "walk zone" for school), but am still seeing the same fit to my clothes and am still not happy with my physical fitness.
There is no way I could even consider competitive skating at this point. I still feel drawn to the derby track, but in reality, the team closest to me is not what I want to be a part of as a skater. The next closest team would have me driving an hour one way, two or three times per week, and we just can't afford that and all it entails right now. On the whole, yes, I am progressing, but it is slow and is not visible yet. I want to lose 80 pounds by my next birthday, so something has to give.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
So far, I am having a good morning. It was the usual scramble to get the oldest two off to school, but we did it with minimal casualties (that shirt isn't gonna make it...). The baby is babbling and running the house, but we're happy. I am working to have a better diet, but am struggling with giving up soda and my beloved coffee/energy drinks. It shouldn't be too bad now that I'm home full-time again, but we'll see. Starting the day with 3 servings of Better Oats Abundance apples and cinnamon oatmeal.
Feeling good so far. :-)
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
Hello again. It has been a long few months, with multiple changes and disappointments.
I have slacked off on my exercise, have not been tracking my food intake in any way, and have been put back on medication for depression and anxiety (first time since 2007). I had to leave my job because of anxiety attacks and fell into a deep depression. I gained back what bit of weight I had lost, and am starting back at square one. I have re-vamped my goals, and am working with my medical team (now including a nutritionist and dietician).
I have also lost my canine child, my car and my husband's truck. It has been a very rough summer, and it is time to rededicate myself to "me" and being healthy.
I have a long road ahead of me, and have included a blogging goal to my list. I will be using this blog more like a personal journal, so please do not be offended if something I say is off-color. It is my venting frustrations/expressing happiness/seeking support and otherwise expressing my personal thoughts and opinions. Bear with me. Here we go, Day 1. :-)
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