Thursday, April 26, 2012
I'm really annoyed right now. I really, really want to go exercise, but I can't. My legs hurt too much for it. I can't tell if it's DOMS or something more like those annoying shin splints, but I wasn't able to work out this morning. My husband pretty much made me stay home; he (rightly) doesn't want me to injure myself.
So I'm taking a rest day, but dammit... I'm itching to move.
IF I'm feeling better, I'll go to step and body blast tomorrow; if not, just body blast. I WILL go to Yoga on Saturday; normally I can't go, but my oldest daughter sprained her ankle (poor baby) and can't go to her soccer game as usual. So I'm taking the opportunity to go to the gym.
I'm also craving a salad, but I'm completely OUT of dressing. Maybe I'll eat some tomatoes.
Oh, and I bought some Nature's Own whole wheat 40 calorie bread... I'm pleasantly impressed.
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
I had a revelation today. While I was posting some encouragement on the message boards, I realized something. I've had a hard month or so; I'm stuck on a self-inflicted plateau, I can't control my food, I'm not losing weight, and I can't make any progress.
Then I got to thinking. Wait a minute.
I'm not losing weight. *BUT I'M NOT GAINING IT, EITHER!*
That's right; while I have lost very little (1.5 lbs in the last month and a half or so) I haven't GAINED anything! Have I failed a few times at sticking to my range? Sure. but what I HAVEN'T done is gone on a major binge and started gaining weight. While I do overeat, and don't stick to my deficit-producing calorie range, I have only eaten over 2100 calories TWICE in the last month... and those two times were deliberate indulgences where I was out to eat and had planned for it.
That means that even while I'm struggling with losing weight, I'm naturally eating at maintenance.
Holy crap, batman. I've gone from eating 3,000 calories a day and gaining constantly to a state of true equilibrium in my diet!
That, my friends, is an accomplishment!
That's not all, either. While I've struggled with a lot of physical setbacks (yay vertigo) that derailed my exercise efforts, I only missed a week at the gym. Otherwise, I've steadily gone to the gym 4-5 days a week, and have really, really been working hard, lifting weights, and building endurance. I look so much better. My butt? Looks FANTASTIC. (Seriously, J-Lo's got competition, baby!) I'm running better in my intervals, and I am eating SO healthy. While I do occasionally overeat, I'm still getting five times as many vegetables as I used to!
So even in failure... I'm a success.
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
And this time, I can't blame my husband. He had a lodge meeting, so I took the girls out for pizza. I wanted to try something new, so I got a stromboli (it was, by the way, AWESOME.) I would have been just fine if I'd stopped there... even with the coke I drank.
the problem was that I ordered the girls a pizza... and a large (the smallest they serve) was cheaper than two personal pans. So, dummy me ordered them that to save two bucks.
Next time, I'm going to just order the damn personal pans.
Because that hot, cheesy, yummy, made-from-scratch pizzeria pizza with pepperoni and mushrooms was simply too much for me to deny. So I had not one... but two.
So once again, I'm over my calories by quite a lot. I HAD plans to run this afternoon anyway, which might have done the job for increasing my calorie differential, but my husband's lodge meeting ran late and it's 11:15 and bedtime... so I couldn't go.
I'm just feeling bloated and icky.
With that said... I did NOT snack today. Well, I did, but small amounts, pre-measured, and I mostly drank tea when I started craving stuff.
I did do an hour of yoga and 45 minutes of weight training, though, so that was done properly. I just... ugh. I'm frustrated with myself AGAIN.
I will do better tomorrow.
In other news, I DID talk to my husband about making things more healthy for our meals, and he agrees with me! He's going to make a point to include GREEN vegetables in every meal. So yay!
Today's sabotage was ALL ME, though.
Monday, April 23, 2012
Okay folks; I'm not losing weight. And I know why! I eat too much. My current calorie range, based on my activity level, is 1600-1900 - now, if I could EAT in that range, I would lose weight! I know this, because well, last week I did, and I lost 1.5 lbs! I'm very active, and that generally puts my daily calorie differential in the right place.
My problem is eating within my range. I did so well for so long, but this has put me on a month-long plateau.
I have some interesting challenges; namely that my husband does most of the cooking, and he... doesn't cook well. I do take charge occasionally, but frankly, I work a lot, and don't have time... and it's kinda unfair to work full time AND cook supper. ;) Anyway, he's a good cook... the problem is, he tends to cook calorie-heavy meals with few vegetables; I do try to convince him to do more, but the odds are that the vegetables in question will be a baked potato or dried peas... which are great, but shouldn't be the ONLY vegetable you eat.
I'm doing better about fixing a salad and eating that, but let's be frank... slap a grilled ribeye with potatoes and sausage, and my willpower crumbles. I'm just not that good!
So please, what tips do you have for dealing with this? I generally do well at dinner, and USUALLY do okay for lunch, but snacks and his calorie-dense suppers are killing me.
I have to have a semi-substantial breakfast, because I work out HARD in the morning, and have to refuel. Today, for example, I had a banana and three eggs... I was starving! That was a bit too much, I usually eat less, but you get the idea. I do tend to eat 300-400 calories for breakfast... less than that, and I can't stop eating.
Sometimes breakfast is a protein shake before workout, and a banana after. Lunch is more flexible... we tend to eat whatever's around, and I can keep healthy things. Another problem I have is he's constantly bringing junk in the house... fortunately, I don't have a major sweet tooth, but he has terrible taste, and well... I can't tell him not to buy this stuff, it's his house and money too. I can't make him eat well. I've tried to make tweaks, and they're working, but this is a slow, uphill battle.
I'm just REALLY struggling to stay in my range! Does anyone have any suggestions? coping mechanisms? Sympathy?
Sunday, April 22, 2012
I just want to thank each and every one of you who took the time to express your condolences for the loss of my kitty. His loss has been a shock and a traumatic event, and all of your kind words have been a great comfort to me. Thank you so much.
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