Happy Thanksgiving

Monday, November 19, 2012

It's great to receive goodies for thanksgiving , it makes you think about what exactly you are grateful for. Although we have taken on Halloween in Australia sadly we haven't also taken on Thanksgiving.
I'm glad my kids are too old to trick or treat, maybe I don't understand it ,but it holds no joy for me.

I would really like to have thanksgiving though it seems to be something I leave to last when talking to others, I used to be an encouraging person caring and sharing and loving to help others.

But 'life' seems to have sucked it out of me. The last three years have been hard on my family and friends, with the death of my Mum, my Dad moving to be with my other siblings and only after a week I needed to travel to another country to help him get settled in a new area. (I had moved to Australia years ago). I ended up staying for three months, using up all my savings,losing my job and then having to leave him there and come home.

I didn't get my job back and have apart time job doing bookkeeping for a local company. I got really depressed and down but in 2012 had a breakthrough and started looking at myself.

We mourn the things we can't change but with Spark people, family and friends I 'got up' and am carrying on again.

Ha ha all my blogs tell my inner feelings so don't feel bad if you think 'what a moaner'.

I truly believe that going through tough times that 'flatten you' can help you to be more empathetic to the needs of others. So I don't mind people thinking I'm a softie.

I think Christmas is our Thanksgiving we really appreciate each other and friends and make a huge effort to let go all the concerns and consider how fortunate we really are.

I'd love to hear why you like halloween or your Thanksgiving stories on the blogs.

Bye for now

  

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KELTIC-CARA 11/29/2012 2:56AM

I am also from Australia. It is difficult to celebrate Halloween and Thanksgiving this time of year for us. Halloween and Thanksgiving are Autumn festivals and when they are celebrated by you we are in Spring. Thanksgiving is more a festive for being thankful for a bountiful harvest as well as family and friends. Harvest time is in Autumn and for us it is in May. Halloween which is based on Samhain is in April in the Southern Hemisphere. That is how I look at it. Report Inappropriate Comment

KING_SLAYER 11/21/2012 4:08PM

I'm not a huge fan of Halloween, although costume parties can be fun! For me, Thanksgiving is a reminder that I should be thankful for family, friends and whatever else I may possess. Being thankful is something we should do all of the time, but we seem to always be so rushed, so busy that we forget to be thankful. So, for me, this holiday is the reminder to reflect for a moment and be thankful. That and I get to eat lots of turkey and dressing!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

JTREMBATH 11/20/2012 3:06AM

I am not a Halloween fan maybe I am to old all my children have grown and left home and Grandchildren are getting older to. As for thanksgiving we don't celebrate it here in N.Z. either. Report Inappropriate Comment

Hospital again...

Friday, November 02, 2012

Monday I felt really weak with chest pain and used my GTN spray a lot, daughter growled and said I should have called ambulance. Tuesday morning woke used spray again, at 10:00 pain renewed but would not abate with spray so called ambulance. Taken to hospital emergency and then on to CCU, had gastroscopy Wednesday to remove any other causes but nothing there.

So I'm home again and feeling very sorry for myself. Can't help but feel wasting cardiologist time. But realize getting down is not productive, it is nice to moan though.

Do have yet another medication to add to the list. Five now.

Need to encourage myself and not worry. So here are my affirmations.

It is great I did not have a heart attack or need surgery.
My cardiologist is wonderful and couldn't be more caring.
My family is supportive and understanding.
I have friends who are standing by me.
These feelings will pass (may be anaesethic(?) wearing off.)
My weight is still on the downward movement and is helping to lower my risk.
I care about myself and will let myself off the hook.
Worrying does nothing and I don't want empty emotions.

Where there is Life there is Hope.

  

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KELTIC-CARA 11/18/2012 2:06PM

When you are not well it is good to see a doctor just to ease your mind. Glad all is good. Great positive affirmations. Report Inappropriate Comment

IMEMINE1 11/18/2012 8:14AM

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TEALHAWK 11/16/2012 8:20PM

get well soon Report Inappropriate Comment

JUNEBUG4967 11/4/2012 3:41PM

Glad to hear it was not a prolonged time in the hospital. Persevere and you will conquer! Hugs Report Inappropriate Comment

USMAWIFE 11/3/2012 2:33PM

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4DOGNIGHT 11/3/2012 9:10AM

Keep the faith! It is hard being sick and harder caring for others who are sick. Maybe a bit of hand sewing will help! Report Inappropriate Comment

JTREMBATH 11/2/2012 11:42PM

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Today is photo day ...at last...

Friday, October 26, 2012

Today I reached another milestone and at every 10 kgs lost I have a photo taken to gauge the difference.

I have a start photo and one goal photo, that one taken after 10 weeks. It has taken 5 months to reach the next goal after being in hospital.

I visited a dietician and found I was not eating enough. So I'm on my way again.

Thanks to all those lovely people who encourage me and read my moanings in other blogs.

  

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TEALHAWK 11/24/2012 8:24PM

Way to go! Report Inappropriate Comment

IMEMINE1 10/28/2012 8:46AM

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SANDYW1945 10/27/2012 7:12AM

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Tomorrow...

Monday, October 22, 2012

Not looking forward to tomorrow seeing the GP about how I'm going on the new capsules and discussing other problems. This new one is great and really listens and wants to help.
Having trouble now I can't exercise to sweating zone in keeping weight moving and trying to eat enough to not go into starvation mode.
She said it would take a while to settle down again so I am learning to be patient, can't hurt as its easy to get depressed.
I will look ahead to getting losing again and give myslef a treat to take my mind off it.

  

Ah The Low Days...

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Hi All,
haven't blogged recently and realised I'm doing it again...trying to go it alone.

My daughter encouraged me to blog as it is like therapy putting on paper the struggle and highs and lows. I prefer to put good things but there are the days that are lower than others I usually keep to myself.

So here goes. In May I was in hospital with chest pains and had an angiogram that showed ischemic heart disease and hypertension that is being treated by medication.
At the first return to the consultant I needed to increase one of the capsules strength and it takes a month to get used to them. It helped for a while but on going to my new GP she indicated it needed to be increased and contacted the consultant to advise him and make a new appointment so he could check on it.

He increased it again and now I am in the process of getting used to this one.
It makes me weak and light headed and DEPRESSED as I want to keep up with my exercise and by lunch time I'm so tired I sleep for a while. "I don't need nana naps yet:)"

I guess my rant is to put on "paper" the depression and to realize its ok and it will get better and I have the skills now to continue to my goals.

It feels good to write my blog and get it out. Thanks for listening...