Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I noticed something very miraculous yesterday after leaving the gym and going to the grocery store hungry. I am no longer tempted by the snacks and ice cream in the frozen foods section! It really just came to me yesterday as I was walking the isles at Kroger. I was starving because my protein bar had worn off after my workout, and I had to get some things for dinner that evening. I normally try not to go into the grocery store hungry because instead of buying the $50 worth of stuff I had planned, I'll come out with $100. Any whoo, I was amazed at this revelation. I looked over at the foods, and said "it's not even worth it".
I've had a history with the balancing act of "if I eat this, I'll workout this much", and then I wonder why I'm not losing. I can't even put into words how I felt to walk past the things I'd loved, and go on and proceed to the checkout counter. I smiled and said to myself " you've really grown", and I made it out within my budget too! Who cares that they now make smaller portion size indulgences? I mean it is still going to have the same effect on me.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Well, today is my first day of unemployment after 17 years, and I feel good. I had been stressing for the last several months about the job and hoping that something would come about to change it for me, because I seemed unable to do it for myself. One thing that I have noticed about me, is that I tend to procrastinate when it comes to myself. I'm not going to say that the transition is not going to be hard, because in actuality, I have not been without a steady job in over 17 years! The scariest part of it all, is that this time I'm not married, and I'm the head of the household.
The truth is I don't really know what I want to do right now. I don't want to do what I have been doing for the last 11 years, but my skills and background experience shows that is what I'm best suited for. I actually want to return to being a full-time homemaker, but my children are grown now and I have no grandchildren to tend to. I know it sounds crazy but I truly enjoyed when I was at home full-time with my children. When I was a child and young adult, I always thought that this would be my fate. It's sad that I don't have that option anymore.
The one thing that I am determined to do is get myself and my house in order. I started out last night by working out on my upper body, which is in need. I plan to truly focus on keeping myself strong and healthy, because my health insurance runs out the end of the month too!
Monday, January 10, 2011
I haven't done a posting since July, so I guess I'm due. It's been a very rocky 2010, and I've undergone several medical concerns, but have made a major turnaround healthwise. I'm finally in the all clear and can workout again. I just have to get my mind and body in alignment so that I can brave this cold weather to go to the gym. I want to start swimming lessons so that I will be ready for the summer events, but can't seem to brave the cold to go to the gym to just workout, so going in the pool is currently not an option.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
I had another doctor's appointment today and could not believe what we go through in order to get the "all clear". I don't know if its a factor of my age, but I find that the things that are supposed to be slightly uncomfortable, is down right painful. Who gauges the pain threshold?
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I can honestly say that 2009 has been a challenging year for me both physically and emotionally. I have gone from extreme highs to the lowest I thought that I could feel. In 2009 I lost my oldest sister, who was only 57 years old, to colon cancer. I had surgery that was supposed to take 2 weeks of recovery, that turned out to be 8 weeks off work, and I'm still recovering. Financially, the company that I work for put a freeze on all non-bargaining/leadership salaries and denied our annual incentives, but laid multiple people off and increased our workloads. All I can say is that I'm so ready for the positivity I feel that 2010 will bring me. It has already started off well.
A girlfriend of mine who has been trying to get pregnant for almost 2 decades, told me that she is now 10 weeks pregnant! And my other girlfriend who has been looking for a relationship for the last couple of years is now in one. I'm excited for them both. I have been blessed thus far with people in my life who have helped me to uncover some issues with myself that have been hindering my personal progress, and I'm truly thankful for that.
And above all, in 2006 when I began my weight loss journey, I had hoped to get down to a comfortable size 12. Today I am a size 6!!!! I have not been this size since high school, and I mean like 8th/9th grade. I feel like I can accomplish so much more if I put my mind to it. So my mind is focused on making 2010 the best year thus far. I am claiming it as my year of discovery.
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