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Getting Back on Track

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

I'm getting back on track now. Immediately after the surgery, I was in such a rush to get back to my own sense of normal, that I caused undue pressure and stress on my body. That caused me to have to slow down and rest and heal. I have just begun to feel like myself again - truly. I'm amazed at the reactions of some of my male co-workers. I've been losing and dieting consistently since September of 2007, and yet these last few pounds have seemed to take me into another category with them, and I'm not quite sure if I like it.

It's amazing how this surgery helps you to get your mind off of food, but forces you to deal with things/emotions that the food helped to appease. Lately I have been having thoughts and remembrances of things that have happened to me years and years ago. I was depressed for a little while, because I wanted to get something to eat, but got sick, and then just had to deal with it. I'm surprised by how many things had hurt me emotionally, that I just let go of or suppressed. I understand more now how people change from this surgery in more than a physical sense. You have to grow and develop emotionally because one of your biggest crutches is gone. Today I woke up and asked myself "how long will you keep allowing people to treat you wrongly, and just accept it?" I was raised to turn the other cheek, but at what point do you realise that it's not helping them or yourself to be this way any longer.

I'm just ready to get back on track with my program. I'm just ready to be what I'm becoming. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 10/22/2008 6:35PM

    Have you read the book "SHRINK YOURSELF" by ROGER GOULD, M.D.?

It is not a "diet" book, but about emotional eating and peeling away the Layers of what we have inside to deal with. I read the book and it helped me to see that food was NOT the answer when I was depressed, bored, mad, etc. etc.

Roger Gould has an interview on YouTube, if you look for him there. There is a SparkTeam to discuss his book, too.

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I'm Doing Fine

Friday, September 19, 2008

I just wanted to let everyone know that I made it successfully through my surgery. This is my first time back online since my surgery. I'm a little sore, but other than that, I'm just taking it real easy and getting my fluids in. I just wanted to keep my friends posted and show my appreciation for all the concerns and well wishes expressed to me. emoticon

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MZ.THICKUMS 9/30/2008 1:25PM

    Hello There Fellow Detroiter emoticon
Glad to hear that you are doing well.. emoticon emoticon


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JIBBIE49 9/19/2008 12:07PM

    So good that all went well.

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When will it stop?!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

It has been a hectic few weeks for me. Along with the drama that has been occurring at work, I have recently been dealing with my brother David's hospitalization and progression of his lung cancer. The doctors have informed us that he cannot be operated on because he only has one lung, and due to his health he would not fare much better with surgery. They have been treating him with chemo and pain relief. To top that, on our way back from our family vacation, my sister-in-law finds out the result of her biopsy. . .and guess what? Its cancer also! She has 2 cancerous masses in her lungs.

What I just want to scream at the top of my lungs is. . .WHEN WILL YOU ALL STOP SMOKING!!!!!! It's ridiculous, how many of my family members have to be diagnosed with cancers related to smoking before they stop?! Yes, they say they are going to stop - but they said that after David got his diagnosis. I love my family, but it's like they have to love themselves more, so that they can stop. Neither of them is 50 years old, and my sister-in-law has 2 young children that could be left without a mother.

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NANNAN6 9/2/2008 9:20PM

    Wow! I am so sorry to hear about the hardship you and your family is going through. I recently lost a very dear uncle to cancer and I was just heartbroken, so I really feel for you and will be keeping you and yours in my prayers.

I know what you mean about people continuing to smoke, my husband lost both of his parents to cancer at a young age but you better believe he continues to light up. I get so discouraged about it some times, but I have to continue to know that it is his choice and her won't quit until he is darn ready, I just wish he would get ready soon!

Sending your family up before the throne of God.
NanNan6 emoticon

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JIBBIE49 8/29/2008 1:36PM

    Those children will always have you. emoticon

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I'm Trying . . .

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

To not lose it! There is so much going on at work, that I can't seem to get a grasp on all of the changes. It seems like the more flexible I become, the more they try to see if I can break. The problem is that if you act quickly to resolve a problem, they think you don't have enough to do, so they give you more. The situation is that I don't like to have unread emails in my outlook, and I don't like a messy desk - so I do what I need to do to ensure that what I like stays that way.

We are in the midst of an organization change in operations, and at the same time preparing for contingency in the event of a work stoppage because the MLA (Master Labor Agreement) expires 9/1/08! Which means we can't schedule vacation time or anything after 8/31/08 - which is crazy especially since I have surgery scheduled for 9/16/08!

The one positive thing about this whole process is that I've begun meditation and the time away from my office during lunch has helped me to refocus. Previously I ate in my office while working on emails, etc.

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FAYEBAYE 8/23/2008 12:29AM

    Just stay encouraged and focused. It's your time now. It's not easy trying to make sense out of something that just doesn't make sense. Your observation is correct, there is definitely a change in the atmosphere but you have to stand your ground and continue to be the light in the midst of turbulent times. I know I need your strength to be able to stand.

Just do whatever it is you have to do in order to have the peace you need in your life. Know that I am there for you. emoticon

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TIGERLILLY420 8/20/2008 10:07AM

    I hope everything works out for you with work to be able to get the time off to get your surgery done. And Great job with getting out of the office for your lunch.

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JIBBIE49 8/13/2008 10:25PM

    Oh, I'm glad you aren't eating while reading emails. I'm doing PAUL MCKENNA'S " I Can Make You Thin" and one of his four rules is to TASTE every bite. He says that obese people think about food 24/7, except when they are actually EATING it, and then they go into a Food Trance and have NO idea what they've eaten.
Today I went to a Japanese Restaurant with my son and I had the Salmon Box and it was SO good. emoticon

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TWEAVER0715 8/13/2008 4:01PM

    I do the same thing. I don't hardly get away from my desk but I have been trying to take a lunch away from my office at least once a week and it does make a difference. Hang in there...I hope things start slowing down for you.

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Well, I Finally Got My Date

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

I will be having GBS on September 16th! I can't believe it, I've only been ready to go since April - but the process of getting to April has been long and hard. I can't say that I don't appreciate the time that I've taken to get myself mentally and physically prepared. I have and continue to appreciate the support that I have received from people on Sparkpeople who communicated with me regarding their experiences.

I'll keep you posted, and I'm looking forward to assisting others in the future, as I have been helped and continue to be encouraged by others.

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LUCKYPENNY 8/7/2008 11:06AM

    Good for You!!!
Maybe you can get some new clothes for Christmas! ;)

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JIBBIE49 8/5/2008 1:43PM

    I hope all will go SAFE for you!! emoticon

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