Monday, March 25, 2013
It started with the traffic this morning that I set in for over an hour!!!!! Let me just say that there were no accidents, pullovers, etc. just protests of the new Emergency Financial Manager in the city. There was an attempt to slow him down his first day at work, but I guess they forgot to read and/or listen to the news to find out that he reported to work at 7am this morning. Anyway, I finally get to work - late, and this is my 3rd week on the job.
I normally try to see the positive is most situations, but today I couldn't help but let myself feel the emotion of frustration with traffic and how things have been going lately. I didn't feel like signing on nor doing anything but letting my face show the dissatisfaction I'm feeling. Anyway, I'll feel better soon, can't waste too much more time on this, I've got things to do.
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
For the longest time I have been trying to motivate myself through various forms and challenges to no avail. I was trying to figure out if a conference would do it, maybe some new gym equipment, a video, who knows. Nothing seemed to be doing the trick, until the wee hours of the morning on Sunday, January 27.
I was up, because I could no longer sleep, and was browsing through FB on my phone. I happened on a comment and hit the like button. To my surprise a friend was up as well, and asked if we could chat. She told me what she was going through, and how she was planning to have weight loss surgery, and did I have any advise for her. I told her about the journey I had gone through, of which she knew, because she had been there when I was going through myself, but this time her questions were more personal - they were for her and not as a concerned friend. Telling her about the initial reaction/responses to the surgery got me thinking about what I had gone through over 5 years ago. We talked for over 2 hours before agreeing we both had to get some sleep for church later that morning. We agreed to schedule to meet in person real soon before her srugery date.
After I got off the phone, I had felt different than I had in quite a while. I felt like I could do this! I had mustarded the energy and motivation before to propel me to where I am today, which is vastly different from where I had been. Sharing with her let me once again realize what I had sacrificed to get myself to where I am today, and it also reminded me that I had come too far to turn back around. In the process of helping her, I encouraged myself.
Today is Day 3 of my new mental transformation, and I'm going strong! I have to thank my friend for reminding me, although she didn't know it, that I've gone too far to turn back now!
Friday, October 26, 2012
I have been really bad. Since my move I have done literally not a thing regarding fitness. Yes, things are in a mess right now, and yes, I didn't have internet connection for over a week. But the truth is, I was tired from the move and the organization afterwards. I'm still getting things together, and I haven't had any time off from work to do it. Hopefully, this week will get me back in stride, and I will be able to get back in alignment.
From a friend/SparkBuddy, I have learned that I have some OCD tendencies, so at least that helps to explain why I can't do my regular activities with disorder around me (lol). Anyway, starting Monday, I'm back on track regardless of my surroundings or things happening around me or at work.
Friday, September 28, 2012
This Saturday I have been invited to celebrate a birthday, at of all places, Drag Queen Bingo. We are asked to "dress up" like a drag queen as part of the festivities, and I must admit I'm a little torn about going. Last year the party was a little wild and a had my cell phone stolen at one of the stops we made. The year before was "Diva's Night" and we had to dress up and seen a female impersonator show. The dressing up was fun, but the events afterwards, not so much.
I guess it's just that I am finding myself growing farther away from what I used to do for entertainment and spending time with friends. I enjoy time with my girlfriends, but I enjoy calmness more now. I enjoy dressing up and dancing, but more to jazz and some old R&B, and some dancehall reggae.
It just seems like we are moving all in different directions. Everyone has their own agendas that they are trying to achieve, while at the same time trying to maintain friendships. It really boils down to me not wanting to go, but wanting my friend to know that I still care deeply for her and appreciate her inviting me.
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