Thursday, February 24, 2011
Last night I made cauliflower cheese soup. It's important to me to go as 'close to the source' as I possibly can in choosing foods that I eat. This means whole-milk dairy products, including milk. I can't afford raw-milk cheeses so I do the next best thing and use only Tillamook cheese which is readily available here and tasty too. And so on.
So a couple of weeks ago I had bought two heads of cauliflower during a produce super-sale at a local grocer's. They were still there in my fridge yesterday and I was thinking out loud at work that I wanted to cook them somehow before they went rotten. Somebody suggested cauliflower cheese soup, and somebody else yummed about it, so I decided I'll make this soup.
Mein gott - I have not eaten this much dairy in a 24-hour period in over 30 years!! Whole milk, cheese, and butter to make the roux itself. Wow. It was awesome soup though, even if there was almost no nutritionally redeeming value to it. Yes, it was comforting and filling, and I got a nice bundle of vitamins and amino acids and so on, but the amount of cholesterol and fat sort of negated any benefit, in my mind.
And it's okay. I don't eat cauliflower cheese soup every day; in fact, this is the first time I've ever had it, and as a rule I don't eat milk-based soups, ever, so this isn't going to kill me or my healthy-living plans.
I do have to say, though: Thank goodness I have several quarts of split-pea soup in the fridge as well!! Tomorrow needs to be basically a vegan sort of day, I think.
I may just stick to roasting cauliflower with other veg from here on out, unless I find a nice curry recipe to use it in.
On another note, at work today one of the receptionists at the clinic gave me a sample neti-type sinus rinse thing. I have avoided using a neti pot for a long, long time now because, frankly, the idea itself scares the piss out of me. I also have chronic sinusitis. I need to rinse, and often, especially during pollen season. Anyway, the receptionist said she's afraid of drowning but she has used this rinse with success, so I tried it. It's a squeeze bottle and came with two sample packets of whatever ph-balancing stuff it was to mix with warm water. One bends over a sink and places the bottle into one nostril, breathe through the mouth, and gently squeeze the bottle. The stuff goes into one sinus and rinses out through the other. I discovered that if I kept my sinus area lower than my mouth area, the fluid would not drain out into my mouth, which grossed me out to the point I almost gagged. Not good. So, head down, rinsed through one side and then the other.
Whoosh! What an experience that was. No pain, no panic. So far I still feel clean and clear in my sinus tracts. Okay. I'm converted now!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
I love the A&E show "Heavy". The show promotes change - change in thoughts, change in feelings, change in activation of ideas and ideals. It should be required viewing for anyone who ever thought that fat people just need willpower, or who ever wondered why fat people just don't stop eating for goodness' sake.
A lot of the overweight people on these episodes are called food addicts. I'm not sure it's a good thing. Sometimes we take on labels as excuses. "I can't help it - I'm an addict".
I don't call myself a food addict. I don't feel it's a drug that I am hooked on, where I need a fix every 6 hours or whatever. So am I really a food addict? I refer to myself as a compulsive overeater. Obsessive-compulsive disorder is not an addiction disorder. Or is it?
Now, people might look at me and say, "Who cares? You're fat, just deal with it!" But if there's a difference, if there are distinctions, then the approach must also be different and distinct.
Can a food addict learn portion control? I think the answer is 'yes', whereas an obsessive-compulsive eater can not learn portion control. Can a food addict learn to compensate for triggers by eliminating them from the home? I think the answer is 'yes' whereas the obsessive-compulsive eater simply moves on to the next trigger food. And then the next one.
Getting healthy is a learning process. I learned from watching this show that I've been judgemental about others. I think there IS a distinction between food addiction and obsessive-compulsive eating, and it is not right for me to lump the two behaviors together. I've been thinking the same as those people who look at fat people as having no willpower or that they just "need to" stop eating.
So, today, I am a better person. I identified a flaw in my character, and now I can work toward eliminating that flaw by changing how I think about something.
To answer the question: No, I am not a food addict. I am a compulsive overeater, and yes, there IS a difference.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Friends invited me to go with them out of town for fun. We just went to another town down the mountain, and shopped for practical things, and had lunch. Not a big day, but a fun one.
While I was looking for some black pants (not sweatpants!), I came across the skirt I'd bought from Lane Bryant several years ago, and wore a total of one time.
On a whim, I put it on. It's a cotton skirt, the kind of fabric with some stretch added in, and has side pockets and cargo style topstitching. A sporty skirt.
A sporty skirt that fit. Again.
Even though I haven't shaved my legs in a couple of weeks, I wore that skirt anyway, and the top was a sporty top I hadn't worn in several years either because it had become too snug, but which fit just right. Skimmed over the hips, but did not drown me in too-roomy fabric down to my knees.
In other words, I kind of showed my figure yesterday, and didn't really think too much on that.
So it isn't just a skirt that I can put on once again... it's a mind-altering experience during which I didn't feel self-conscious that anyone can see I still have some weight to lose. It's an emancipating experience. No, I'm not going to go all hoochie-mama wardrobe on the world. That way lies negative self image as well, and I've had enough of that thought process. I don't have time for self-destruction anymore.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
January 31 will be my one-year anniversary with sparkpeople.com. The journey has been bumpy, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. It's MY journey, after all, and I make of it what I want it to be.
I'm happy to have found the wherewithal to make the changes that bring me to this point 21 lbs lighter, 21 lbs less unhealthy. I've gotten rid of 21 lbs of unhappiness, 21 lbs of depression, 21 lbs of aggravation.
I've made a resolution to lose 40 more pounds in 2011, give or take, but the nice thing is that I'm not all that concerned with what the final number will be this coming December 31. It's the journey that counts. It's how I reach that place where I feel like everything is as it should be, for that moment. Life, after all, is not a static state of being. It's evolving, changing, and yes, sometimes stopping before one expects. I'm taking it all in, and I'm living my life, warts and all.
I didn't get here by myself, and I won't continue by myself, either. Daily I practice gratitude.
Thank you for being here, SparkPeople, and thank you for bringing me people who care.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Just saw an ad on television: Good-looking man with blonde toddler, they're both next to a cornfield. Man talks about wanting what's best for his child, the best and healthiest food; he "researches" corn sugar vs cane sugar and finds out that science claims the human body can't tell the difference. Therefore, he feels "good" about feeding his precious offspring with foods made with high fructose corn syrup.
This ad, and others like it claiming that there is 'no difference' between corn sugar and cane sugar, is misleading in a very dangerous way. The human body reacts quite differently to each type of sugar. Don't believe me? Do the "math".
Make two batches of cookies, one with pure cane sugar (says so on the package) and one with corn syrup as the only sweetener. All other ingredients are identical.
Now, wait until you have an empty stomach, and drink a glass of water. Eat 3 cookies made with cane sugar. In an hour, you shouldn't feel any differently than you did before you ate them.
Okay? Now wait until you have an empty stomach, drink a glass of water, and eat 3 of the corn-syrup sweetened cookies. Within the hour, do you feel differently? I predict that within the hour you'll have a slight headache, and the smallest irritation will set off almost a rage reaction.
You can try the same experiment on your kids. With the cane-sugar sweetened cookies, they won't be different; with the corn-syrup sweetened cookies, they'll bounce off the walls and misbehave with smart-mouth talk.
Sugar is not just sugar. It DOES make a difference what kind you use.
Here's another experiment to try:
Make a pecan pie the traditional way, with sugar and corn syrup. Make another pecan pie using pure cane sugar and honey. Taste a piece of each. I guarantee that the first will have almost a too-sweet, chemical flavor, while the second will be sweet but not overpowering, and you'll actually taste the pecans. Not only that, the first one will make you feel sick and the second one won't.
There's a lot to be said for going back to the traditional and natural ways to cook and eat. The more processed or altered the food, the more harm it does to your body, even if it is fortified with the nutrients that were originally lost in the processing! Not only that, but the less filling that food actually is. How many people can eat an entire box of prepared mac'n'cheese? I certainly can, and I know that one box represents a single serving for the average overweight or compulsive person. However, if you buy the pasta and grate your own cheese and milk and seasonings into it, all of the sudden it's a lot more filling. There's also a lot less sodium involved.
Instead of reconstituting that box of Rice-a-Roni, why not cook a rice medley, forget the 'roni' part, add your own seasonings, finely chopped brocolli and carrot, some olive oil, and call it a day? It takes about ten minutes more to make a rice medley from scratch as it does from the box, and look at the health advantages!
America, wake up and rethink what you're eating! Don't buy that packeted instant oatmeal crap! Buy the big tub of old-fashioned oats, mix in your own dried fruits, unsalted sunflower seed, flax seed, sugar and cinnamon, and call it a day! It cooks up the same in the microwave, and will fill you up a LOT more and sooner than the boxed, packeted kind will, for a lot less $$ and sugar. Or leave it unsweetened and add honey or maple syrup to what you plan to eat.
We The People need to change the way we eat. If we don't, the food-producing corporations won't change either, and that way lies danger.
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