Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Over the past weeks of recommitting to Spark People and more recently to more mindful eating, it has become clear that perhaps the thing I need to lose most is my bad attitude. Please do not get me wrong, I am a pleasant person for the most part and on most days. In fact, people have even told me that they feel encouraged or relaxed and peaceful after talking to me about an issue or in general.
BUT in my mind rages so many different thoughts, critical thoughts, stressful worries, jealousy and comparisons, pessimism, busyness and an inventory of memories that are used for good and bad during my day ... these forces compete with the good interactions, thoughts and inputs throughout the day and for whatever reason the negative even if few carry so much more weight and tend to drown out all of the good. It also has become clear how the negativity compels me to eat things and amounts that I do not desire and in order to drown it out.
In reading, Today Matters, by John Maxwell, he discusses the discipline of a good attitude and I have realized that mine needs a serious adjustment in order to be successful at not eating compulsively and living a more enjoyable life in general. No longer can it be dependent on emotions that are so temporary. From now on, it will be based on my decision to look at the best in any situation, thought, person or circumstance, so I can use these inputs for good and to bless and build others as well as including myself. Even further, he shares that a colleague labeled people in 1 of 2 ways: a polluter or a purifier ... today, I become a purifier as much in my own head as in my world.
Monday, March 05, 2012
Had an interesting weekend where I ate semi-compulsively or not always when I was hungry and sometimes until I was beyond full. What was important and different was that I did not let it get me down and I just moved on. It was so great to realize even when in the past I would have said, "that's it -- I have failed again -- will try again on Monday", it is okay. Perhaps this is because I am not dieting and trying to fit a certain guideline or rigid structure? In any case, this was my all around.
Even though this would have been a down day or weekend, it was not as I realized food has no power to spoil my efforts, life or journey to be healthier ... it is just food! This was my up.
And what was even better was the fact that I still lost a pound, so this loss was my down.
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Things are going a little better now with eating when hungry. I still struggle with when I am hungry, but I am doing better at eating what I actually want and stopping before stuffed. So I am just taking it day by day and trying to trust my body as much as possible while still getting in reasonable nutrition.
It has been a journey already and perhaps what I am most excited about is the fact that I am not always thinking about food and even my cravings for sugar and carbs have gone down greatly. I just feel so much better about myself and my ability to trust my body and not be dictated by some external one-size-fits-all diet that incorporates conflicting information about what is best to eat to be healthy, fit and toned ... and I am even losing weight already!
I look forward to hearing more from you who are on a similar journey.
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