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Accountability Partners

Tuesday, June 04, 2013

I want to apologize to my partners for not being there for them. I understand if you want to find a different partner because I know I have'nt been there for you. I really wanted to be and I'm not sure what happened but I was clear out in left field somewhere with no idea how I got there or how to get back. I've grown to love you all and I really do care about you and your journey. Please don't give up on me. I'll never give up on you because I know with God's help we'll all reach our goals. Let me know how you are doing and what I can do to help. Love, Marsha. 👼

  
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JUDITH316 8/30/2013 5:02PM

    Dropping by to share some HUGS and let you know you are not alone, keep pushing, we are all here for you cheering you on... emoticon emoticon

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TWIDDLYDE 6/8/2013 8:31PM

    Marsha,

I will not give up on you emoticon

I am sorry you are experiencing such a difficult time. I had a friend who once told me that when the pain of staying where you are at is greater than the pain of change, then change will occur. I hope that in Christ you will find the strength to move forward despite physical and emotional difficulties.

What would you say is your biggest challenge?

Mine is the snacks that are always readily available in our home because my husband (thin and healthy) can and does eat whatever he wants to and he always has the things he likes available to indulge his whims.

I have to make a conscious choice each day not to indulge - sometimes I still fail, but most often I succeed.

You can do this - you can succeed - you can move forward ! emoticon

Again, I will not give up on you.

Diane

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NIMBUS-NEEN 6/5/2013 4:38PM

    " Sometimes we need to step outside, get some air and remind ourselves of who we are and who we want to be."
Blessings, Norrie emoticon

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JOHGLO2011 6/4/2013 5:00PM

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Looking up

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Thank you all for your kindness and support. Things are starting to look up now. I'm not as depressed and I see a light at the end of the tunnel. I see the family Dr. tomorrow and I'm hoping he can do something about the hives. Then next week I see yhe blood Dr. And he'll talk to me about the chemo vs. prednisone, and side effects. I guess I just thought this low platelet count wasn't that serious but now I realize it is and I can't just ignore it any more. Keep praying for me as I pray for all of you. You all mean so much to me. Marsha. 👼

  
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NIMBUS-NEEN 6/5/2013 4:34PM

    Let us know how you are doing. We all care. Snugs 'n hugs, Norrie xo

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 5/21/2013 8:04PM

    Yes JOHGL is right listen to your dr and I am glad you are doing better.

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JOHGLO2011 5/21/2013 7:59PM

    So glad things are beginning to look up for you! Listen to the doctors and take good care of yourself! Hugs!

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Such a Downer

Monday, May 20, 2013

I am such a downer and I don't know why. We got the best news possible about Jeff's biopsy and we were both overjoyed. I just can't keep the happy, glad, up emotions. My eating is most definitely out of control with no end in sight because I have absolutely no motivation to not eat. I got summer clothes out and the're all too tight and look awful but that's all I have to wear.i've tried journaling like was suggested. That lasted one day. I can't concentrate on anything good. I talk to my friends then totally ignore what they tell me. My husband is really getting aggravated with me and the more he comments on my eating the more I want to show him I can do what I want.i got the Spark Solution book but have't started it even tho most sp started last week. I couldn't get ready, but I had good excuses. I feel like I am a lost cause, but I don't want to give up completely, so I still come to SP every day and hope for a miracle. Marsha. 👼

  
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JOHGLO2011 5/20/2013 7:23PM

    No one is a lost cause unless they choose to quit. Only you can make the decision to make the effort to bring a change in your health. It takes work and a mental change as well. You are worth it, but you must make the decision. Best Wishes!

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IWEARBGPANTIES 5/20/2013 3:40PM

    You are NOT a lost cause!!!!!!! You are worth it!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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Another week

Monday, May 13, 2013

Well, it's Monday again already. Spent the whole day at Ohio State Medical Center while Jeff had his biopsy of the pancreas repeated. This Dr. was so young but very nice. He said he is sure he got enough sample for good biopsy and it did NOT look like cancer to him. So now maybe my hives will go away and I can stop my out of control eating. Being gone all day, I didn't start the 2 week spark challenge with the rest of the team, but hopefully I can catch up. I still have to be concerned about my platelet count and stopping prednisone and probably having to take chemo, but I'll think about that tomorrow. I sure hope my accountability partners are doing better than I am. I'm sorry I haven't been much support to you. I am going to do better-I promise. I think of you all often and pray for you daily. We CAN do this. I love you all. Marsha. 👼👼👼

  
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CLWALDRO 5/17/2013 7:31AM

    Whatever the outcome know that god is in control and will bring you thru this if you have faith and trust in him. I will pray for you and jeff for health issues and peace with the findings. There are several natural food based cancer treatments out there. i have a friend who works at one it is called " an Oasis of healing" they have a website you might want to check it out emoticon

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NIMBUS-NEEN 5/14/2013 12:05PM

    Holding you and Jeff in the Light. emoticon
snugs 'n hugs, Norrie xo

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BJUMPINGFORJOY 5/13/2013 9:54PM

    I hope you get a good report for Jeff. It seems like you have had a lot on your plate lately. Yes we can all do this together.

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Motivation? Where are you?

Friday, May 10, 2013

I lost my motivation and can't find it anywhere. I've looked and and looked but it' gone. I need someone to help me find it and quickly. I am really depressed about Jeff and my health situations and all I do is eat, eat, eat. Then I feel even more depressed. Jeff is having his second biopsy done on Monday and hopefully they will get a big enough sample this time to tell us defifinitively whether he has pancreatic cancer or just chronic pancreatitis. My hives went away while I was gone but now are worse than ever. I!ve scratched myself raw and still itch. My heart Dr. says I can't take the prednisone the blood Dr. has me on because its making my heart failure worse so I guess I'll have to take the 4 week course of chemo. But I'm not doing anything until I know for sure about Jeff. Meanwhile I eat. Help!. I don't want to regain all my lost weight again. Someone lock me in a closet! Marsha. 👼

  
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HARROWJET 5/11/2013 9:25PM

    Motivation likes to do that (hide from us). My advice would be to follow the suggestions Norrie gave. I know I plan to. emoticon

Judy emoticon

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DANCINCAJUN1 5/10/2013 4:56PM

    Wow Girl you have definitely got your plate full ..... do you like popsicles? when I get to where I feel like all I want to do is eat eat eat I I pull out a frozen popsicle and suck on that baby ... very satisfying and very few calories ... then I pull out the mini trampoline and jump a bit .... makes me too tired to eat any longer ... LOL ... you are doing so good ... I like the idea of writing in your journal .... spark provides one ... just write everything down and it sure might help .... we are all here for you and with you on this journey and through your trials and tribulations my friend ..... Roc
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NIMBUS-NEEN 5/10/2013 10:53AM

    Marsha, I hear you. You write so well. I feel your pain. Do you like to journal? My suggestion is to write write write....let out your stress, your anger, your depression. ( no one is going to see it but yourself, so you can say anything you want.) It feels so good to get these feelings out of your head, down your arm, out your fingers,into your pen and finally onto the paper.
Sit in nature with your beloved books, maybe by a babbling brook?
(and no food ! emoticon )
Do you like historical fiction murder mysteries? I can send you a list of my favs.
Finally write a contract for yourself and sign it. Have it say "Just for to-day, I will ...etc. etc. And then try to honour your signature. It's only for one day.
I am adding you as a friend. Take care. There IS a light at the end of this tunnel. You WILL overcome. Snugs 'n hugs, Norrie emoticon
P.S. If you can manage it, get out for a walk. Makes a huge difference.

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JOHGLO2011 5/10/2013 10:25AM

    Oh Honey! Stress is such an awful thing and it sounds like you are dealing with a lot of it!! As you know, eating isn't the answer, it only makes you feel worse. Is there anything you like to do to distract yourself? Read over your past blogs for encouragement also. Best Wishes to you! Praying for Jeff and you!

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