When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the friends are low and the debts high and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit. Life is queer with its twist and turns as every one of us sometimes learns and many a failure turns about. When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow you may succeed with another blow. Success is failure turned inside out. The silver tint of the clouds of doubt and you can never tell how close you are. It may be near when it seems so far. So stick to the fight when you are hardess hit. Its when things seem worst that you must not quit.
I put one cup of vanilla almond milk, a frozen banana, 1 tablespoon of cacao, 1 tablespoon of honey and froze them in the freeze. Oh so good and my husband even wanted him one.
Its fun to think up healthy alternatives to thinks that are too many calories or they do funny things to you like binging. I looked on Spark recipes and they have lots of raw desserts.
I like using agave nectar for sweeteners or honey. Honey is my favorite. A neighbor brought us some fresh squash and zucchini and they were wonderful. I chopped up an onion put lots of spices and olive oil and cooked for about 20 minutes. You can't beat fresh food. Another neighbor brought us some tomatoes. We have been enjoying bacon and tomato sandwich's.
They are so good. We had a garden last year and we really enjoyed it. This year we just don't have time. We are building a little log cabin in the woods on our place and we will move into it when we are through. We are doing all the work so it will probably take a year or so. We are just enjoying doing it at our pace. I wanted a special door and we hunted high and low for someone to make it out of cypress. We found a man to do it. I wanted big heavy hinges and straps half-way of the door, I wanted a speak-easy opening at the top, lion head knocker and black clavets on the instead of the door. We found a beautiful lock set that goes with it. It looks like an old door to a castle. Well it will be our little log castle. The ceiling in the living room are vaulted and I found the perfect chandelier for it. It is so much fun hunting for unique things. And the best part is we will have it paid for when we get through. We are only doing it as we can pay for it.
Its been four weeks and I have not lost a pound. Two weeks ago I upped my exercise to riding my stationary bike for 36 minutes and to weight lifting 25 minutes and my treadmill for 35 minutes. I put my calories up to 1500 to be able to do the exercise. Spark recommends eating more but I just can't do that yet. I have always lost weight on 1200 calories and I really don't know how to act eating this much. I am used to being punished for being over weight.
You must eat 1200 and eat stuff you really don't care for but it is diet food. You must be irritable and fainting, that way you know you will lose a lot. I have lost 100 pounds a couple of times and have not kept it off. I wonder why? I was on a diet. When I got off the staving I ate everything in sight and went back to fast foods and sweets. Wow, did I really think I would keep it off. Well this time I am changing my attitude about food. I eat what I like. I can have anything I want. I have to make wise choices. Will a couple of bites satisfy me? Why do I have to have the whole thing? The only thing I have given up is processed sweets. That was my choice. I have had plenty in my life so I don't think I will miss them. I do eat a little honey , 1 tablespoon. If I really want some ice cream I mix up a frozen banana and almond chocolate milk and freeze it and I have ice cream that is good for me and will not make me binge. If I want a sweet I eat fruit or mix a few nuts, honey and cocoa and freeze it and you have a sweet that is healthy. I don't want them often but they are there if I want them. I am learning for the first time to enjoy eating healthy. I feel so good. I feel like when I finish my exercise in the morning that I can do anything I set my mind too. I'm tired of fighting this weight. I want to eat and enjoy life and feel good about myself and for the last three months I have.
I know the weight will turn lose when my body feels like it should. I will continue eating like I am and doing my exercise. I know I did not get this big by eating 1500 calories and exercising so its no biggy that I have not lost in 4 weeks I will sooner or later. And if I never loss another pound I will continue eating 1500 calories and exercising and be happy with my life.
I know I will be a lot healthier.
It's been two months since I started back eating healthy and exercising. I have got rid of 25 pounds of fat. It does not seem like a lot in the over scheme of things (165) pounds to go but I am thrilled. I am half-way to my first goal of 50 pounds. I can not bear to think of how much I am going to lose so I am taking it in 50 pounds increments.
I have been doing real good on my sweets. I stopped eating them Easter. I have not had any processed sweets. I have one tablespoon of honey most days. That is very satisfying to me.
I have been very calm these past weeks. Most of the time when I am dieting I am a nervous wreak. I would get very emotional if I did not lose like I thought I should. These last few weeks I have had no loss on some weeks, one pound on some but I figure my body will have to let go of this fat sooner or later if I keep on eating healthy, counting my calories and exercising. We go out to eat and we have made it a game to try and see what we can come up with that is low calories and healthy. I have tried things that I never thought I would try and was pleasantly surprised. I have tried more fruits and vegetables and I find the more natural your food the better it is.
I am coming to grips with what I have done to my body by overeating. I have stopped beating me up verbally and I have started thinking loving thoughts of me. I have made mistakes and I can blame no one for making me fat. Sure I had lots of things going on in my life that was not pleasant but hey life is going to throw you some bad times and I am learning you deal with it.
You don't binge. It sure does not make you feel better. So what if someone does not like it you are losing weight, that is their problem. I am who I am thin or fat. If you love me you take me as I am and if you don't well get on down the road I don't need you for a friend. I want to be encouraged and when I lose all this weight I want people to be happy for me that I have taken my life back.
Its been a great two months and I am looking forward to learning more and doing more.
Keep on Sparking.
The trip is continuing. I have not had any sweets since Easter. I mean candy, cakes, ice cream or like that. I do have one tablespoon of honey a day. It keeps my allergies under control. I usually put it on my popcorn with a little cinnamon. I have been holding fluid this week for some reason. I may not be working out hard enough to sweat. I am watching my salt intake and cut back all the time. I gained four pounds this week. How? I ate the same calories, did the same exercise. I count all my calories. I guess I am holding fluid. I have lost 10 pounds overnight from fluid. Well I weigh on Thursday and I will just have to wait and see what next week brings. Its so weird. I will not lose anything one week and next week I'll lose five pounds. I know your weight fluctuates so I'm trying not to worry about it. I am eating healthy from now on and I know as long as I am counting my calories and exercising I will eventually lose this weight. I have made progress. Before I would get disgusted when I did not lose like thought I should and I would go off on a binge. I would get so hungry I could not stand it. Since I started this in April I have not done that. I understand my body is adjusting to my new life. No sugar is a biggie. My mind is clearer and I'm calmer. That is so nice.