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Monday, April 25, 2011

I have been reading everything I could find on addiction to sweets and there is a lot of research out there. I think I may have found out why I lose and gain like crazy. April 24, 2011
I promised myself no more candy, cookies, ice cream, cakes etc. I have been checking the milk, everything I eat and there is sugar in everything. No wonder we have problems with our weight. I guess I will get some sugar but I don't have to eat candy, cookies, ice cream etc.
I am going to try and watch what foods have sugar in them and how much and try to buy the one with the lowest sugar. Who knew my almond milk had 24 grams of sugar for each glass. And then you add all the extra sugar I don't need, and I wonder why my brain is in a fog, sugar overload. This all kind of feels surreal, me not eating sweets, this must be a dream. This morning as I sit doing my menu for the day I felt like I am on a new journey. I don't know what is around the corner. I don't know what to expect. I really do sound like an addict. My little world is turned upside down because of sweets. Get real!! I think I have more important things in my life than this. But wait, I am finding out about myself, finding out why I do what I do, that is important. If I can grow and be a better person and help others with what I find out, that is important. I have a compulsive personally, I think. I have always used a crutch it seems to me. I used cigarettes as a crutch. I put them down. I have used sweets as a crutch as far back as I can remember and now I am putting them down. Hey maybe I can stand on my on two feet and take responsibly for my actions. This still seems strange a grown women abscessing over sweets. The experts said you don't have withdrawals over sweets but I think I disagree. I'm having something.
Writing this blog helps. It lets you face a lot of things.
I think for a long time I have been punishing people for not accepting me as I am. Surprise, I did not hurt anyone but myself. Since I can remember its always been, be this size or I won't be proud of you, if you gain weight you can't have any new clothes, I won't put up with a over weight woman, etc. Its like will you love me at this size, this size, this size and on and on until I reached 340 pounds. Who did I hurt? What did I prove!! Now is the time to stand up and be proud of me, get healthy, have a loving spirit to help others and stop feeling sorry for myself, just do something positive for me.

  
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JLUVSHIKIN 4/25/2011 12:59PM

    Sounds like some awesome revelations for yourself! Keep up the great work and in finding the new you.
It's true just about everything has sugar in it. That's because a carbohydrate converts to sugar. Your body needs carbs (of course complex ones are best) Carbs are the primary energy source for your brain.
It's the added sugar in items (like beans? I mean really??) that are some mean culprits, along with candy, and cookies and cakes as well. I just want to remind you in your quest to rid your life of sugar to not neglect your brain of it necessary fuel!
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IAM_HIS2 4/25/2011 11:33AM

    You sure hit the nail on the head...sugar in everything. So that is why I make most of my own food. There is hope. There is a way. We just have to put our time and energy into it. We are worth it.

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No sweets!!! What will happen to me!!!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

I have been looking over my diet diaries trying to figure out where I go wrong. I have lost 100's of pounds and have put them back on. I can lose like crazy and then I don't maintain. All I could gather from my research is that I get confident and start eating sweets. I will have a piece of this one day and in a couple of days I have a little more and then next thing you know I am on a binge and don't care until I have all the weight back on. Its like my brain does not work like it is suppose to. I have good intentions but when I am eating sweets I do not care about eating healthy in fact I want more fat and salt, more carbs. I can not get satisfied. I will eat until I am sick. I talked to my husband this morning for awhile and he agreed with my findings. I told him I knew I needed to never eat sweets again. If I wanted something sweet eat fruit or a little honey. For some reason honey does not trigger anything wild.
I could not make myself say I would not eat sweets again. I did not want to give up sweets.
How could I not eat sweets. They made me feel good! Made me feel good, who am I kidding I get angry and nervous and I want a whole bag of candy or 1/2 of a pie or a quart of ice cream.
I asked my husband what did I want more candy or to get in my clothes, the smaller ones, to feel good and be healthy. I was acting like I was an addict. I smoked three to four packs of cigarettes for a long time and I laid them down and never looked back. You could not pay me to smoke or even get around smoke. How can I not walk away from sweets. Well, I finally told my husband I was walking away from sweets. I was laying them down to never pick up again. Do you know I got short of breath, nervous, anxiety, and scared to death. No sweets what would happen to me. Wow!! What a wake up call. This is going to be an interesting trip.

  
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DJ4HEALTH 4/24/2011 10:55PM

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IAM_HIS2 4/24/2011 10:44PM

    Loved this blog.

Right now I too am having the craving for sugar. So I keep telling myself that sweets are sugar and sugar is poison to my body. Sugar causes cancer and the death of my immune system. Eating sugar is like smoking cigarettes and wondering why you've developed cancer. Sugar is addictive. It can destroy my health. It makes me fat. I hate fat.

So now I am working on eating things that have a low glycemic index. And drinking more water.

I am trying to build up my immune system after being on chemo...I am getting myself healthier with my diet. I do not want to have cancer again. I do not want to be fat all my life.

If you need someone to help you with your sugar addiction, I am here because I could use your help too.

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Pleased as punch!!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Thursday is weigh in day and I lost another five pounds. Great!! I have lost 15 so far.
It feels so good when you can look over the week and know you have done everything you know to do and get a good reading on the scales. I also know if I had not lost any I knew I had lost some somewhere, my clothes are looser. I have to eat healthy no matter what, whether I lose or just stay where I am for awhile. You can't make me believe me going from Lord knows how many calories to 1200-1500 I won't eventually lose weight. I was eating an awful lot of calories to get this big. I know I didn't gain it from green drinks and vegetables. You know this is kind of funny. If I drink a green drink for one of my meals I lose real good. I am eating the same amount of calories. I wonder what the chemical situation is or is it. Anyway I do love a green drink. My favorite one, that I usually drink is 1 froze banana, 1small apple, I cup of chocolate or vanilla almond milk, 1 cup of kale and 1/2 cup of spinach, blend it up and it is so good. I tried drinking three or four a day. You know making all kinds of different ones.
But I like to chew too much. I can go one or even two sometimes but I must have one meal I can chew. I love my beans and rice. Well as my grandmother use to say I'm pleased as punch about myself today. I hope if anyone reads this their program is going great also.
Thank you all for responding to my blogs it makes you feel like all of us are on the same journey helping each other, and that we care.

  
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TJHIERS 4/21/2011 4:14PM

    good job on the weight loss !
i have never had the green drink. but looks like it is working for you.
keep up the good work ! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SINGLEMOM34 4/21/2011 3:42PM

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POSTED: NO TRESPASSING

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

I'm proud of myself this week. We have had a lot of upheaval in our life. A lot of things we were not expecting. A lot of angry, sadness etc. I have not over eat. I just kept writing everything down that I was eating. I will weigh tomorrow and I hope I have lost something. I know something is happening because my clothes are not as tight. I feel a lot better also.
My husband and I were talking this morning about three weeks ago we would have run out to our favorite Asian restaurant and pigged out and went and got ice cream and been sick when we got home and the problems would have still been there and we would have been disappointed in ourselves. We are really encouraging each other to loss this weight and be as healthy as we can be. I really hope we learn this lesson not to eat except for nourishment and if it is going out, for whatever, that we make good choices. We know you can enjoy going out to eat or to a party and it makes it so much better when you stay conscience of what you are eating and stay within your calorie count.
We are also learning when things go wrong or not like you want to get busy. I was walking like crazy and my husband went out and cut a small tree down we had been wanting to get rid of and he cleaned up his mess also. We felt a lot better, calmer and able to handle the problems that were happening. We are trying to keep it in mind to keep all outside negativity out of our eating healthy. Just not let it in to effect our efforts. Sure we may have to deal with it. But just don't let it derail all the hard work. Keep that part of us special and posted with no trespassing signs.

  
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1COUNTRY_GAL 4/20/2011 4:01PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonYes,stay positive,you can do this.We are in this together and reach healthy successes united as well! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticonDiana:)

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KEEKEE1ST 4/20/2011 1:58PM

    Keep up the good work. You can do it!

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IAM_HIS2 4/20/2011 1:36PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon So proud of you!! I just know emoticon...you'll be feelinf great and looking good. emoticon emoticon

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THISYEARSMODEL 4/20/2011 1:24PM

    Congratulations! Regardless of what the scale says, you're making big progress!!! emoticon

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RANCHGAL9 4/20/2011 1:13PM

    Great for you for hanging in there. Life is such a short journey that we have to enjoy each day as it comes by but sometimes some days are a struggle.

I am having trouble sticking with my own healthy eating right now - food just seems to call to me in the evenings but I will overcome that siren's call emoticon

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2011 was a wonderful year.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

I read this on facebook, I think and it sounded like a good idea. Start with a letter to yourself written a year from now. Write down "as if" these great things have happened. Aim for a few way out there, a few that is within your grasp. Dear Dollie, 2011 was a wonderful year. I have lost over 100 pounds. I feel like I am floating instead of walking. I am so proud of myself for reaching this milestone. I still have a way to go but hey what is this except a journey for health. The journey will never end. My joints are feeling wonderful. I can walk as long and as far as I want to. I have a lap to hold my grandchildren and my dogs comfortably. I am so excited I can get in at least half of my clothes now. I was so pleased that I could wear a pretty dress to my sons wedding. He was so proud of his mom. He had seen me struggle for so many years. My husband is so funny. He will run up and hug me just because he can reach all way around me with no trouble. I love being able to sit in a booth again. Its so nice to just go have coffee and snuggle up in a booth with my husband. We went last weekend to an amusement park with the grandchildren and I rode some of the rides. They were amazed that nana would do such a thing. I told them a little later on down the road we would go horse back riding, swimming and a lot more fun things. My life can not get any better than it is right now or maybe it can. I am looking with joy to every day. Its like losing this much weight has set me free. I knew I had a ball and chain around me but wow when you take some of that chain off it makes a difference to mind, spirit, personally, attitude etc.
Don't get me wrong I enjoy my life right now. I have as much fun as I can weighed down as I am. But as the links of this chain is broken one by one I will be set free and then the sky is the limit. I'm living my life to its fullest now but just wait.

  
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CANBDONE 5/15/2011 3:18PM

    Beautiful words...it could be my letter, except my Beloved husband was called Home 22 months ago. Spoil your Baby...I can see how much you adore each other in your photos. You'll be strutting your stuff again...the best is yet to come!

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IAM_HIS2 4/12/2011 4:37PM

    i THINK THAT IS A WONDERFUL IDEA...I am going to try it.

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