Wednesday, July 14, 2010
My husband went out of town yesterday and will be gone a couple of days. That is usually when I binge. Last night out of the blue I started wanting ice cream. I thought I'll go get just one bar out of the freezer, it won't put me over my calories too bad. No, I thought you know you will end up eating two or three bars. Well I could fix me a small bowl of ice cream put a few nuts and a little chocolate on it. No, it will just get me crazed wanting more sweets.
I went and got two crackers, two tablespoons of hummus, and a marshmallow. I fixed two cups of green tea and finally settled down. I knew I wanted to weigh this morning and I know what kind of damage I can do on a binge. I weighed this morning and had lost five more pounds. Thank the Lord I did not lose control. I think I will try to space my food out where I can have a few snacks like the hummus, nuts, yogurt later on where I will not think of sweets.
I eat fruit for the sugar but I have to watch that, it is like I get a certain amount of sugar and I lose my way and binge. I want this to bad to mess up and start binging again.
I talked to my husband this morning and was telling him about my wanting ice cream and I heard him kind of laugh, it hit me he had went and got ice cream from Sonic. He laughed and said the men all went and got butterfinger blizzards from Sonic. I guess when you have been married 38 years you pick up on each other. I told him that's what it was, it was his fault.
We laughed and he said he was proud of me keeping in control. I asked him to try and eat a little healthy tonight where I would pick up on something good for me not a bad craving. He said he would. no, no