Wednesday, July 14, 2010
My husband went out of town yesterday and will be gone a couple of days. That is usually when I binge. Last night out of the blue I started wanting ice cream. I thought I'll go get just one bar out of the freezer, it won't put me over my calories too bad. No, I thought you know you will end up eating two or three bars. Well I could fix me a small bowl of ice cream put a few nuts and a little chocolate on it. No, it will just get me crazed wanting more sweets.
I went and got two crackers, two tablespoons of hummus, and a marshmallow. I fixed two cups of green tea and finally settled down. I knew I wanted to weigh this morning and I know what kind of damage I can do on a binge. I weighed this morning and had lost five more pounds. Thank the Lord I did not lose control. I think I will try to space my food out where I can have a few snacks like the hummus, nuts, yogurt later on where I will not think of sweets.
I eat fruit for the sugar but I have to watch that, it is like I get a certain amount of sugar and I lose my way and binge. I want this to bad to mess up and start binging again.
I talked to my husband this morning and was telling him about my wanting ice cream and I heard him kind of laugh, it hit me he had went and got ice cream from Sonic. He laughed and said the men all went and got butterfinger blizzards from Sonic. I guess when you have been married 38 years you pick up on each other. I told him that's what it was, it was his fault.
We laughed and he said he was proud of me keeping in control. I asked him to try and eat a little healthy tonight where I would pick up on something good for me not a bad craving. He said he would. no, no
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
My granddaughter and I went shopping today for a few groceries and she saw the bananas and said, I could like those. I told her okay I would get her some. She said, "I like candy too."
I told her why not when we got home put some chocolate peanut butter on the banana, that would be better than candy. She said, "Oh nana you are so silly." I told her no really, I mean it, it is delicious. She said, "Well when we get home we should try it." When we got home she wanted her chocolate banana and her brother wanted one also. They loved them.
The children are such a joy. You never know what is going to come out of their mouth. My granddaughter is very picky and any time I can get her to eat anything healthy I feel like I have won a battle. She loves my Ensure And Naked Green drink. I hope its alright to let her have a little. She's four.
Monday, July 12, 2010
I read this somewhere. It seems to fit.
If you have made mistakes there is always another chance for you.
You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call
'failure' is not the falling down, but the staying down.
I'm up and running. No stopping me now.
We have been in the garden today. It really did not do as good as we like but I do have lots of squash, zucchini, sugar baby watermelons and cantaloupe. I think we will plow this garden under soon and plant a fall garden. Can you believe it, fall garden!! Its only five months left in this year. Its hard to believe how fast the time passes.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
"If all the discoveries which men need to make, the most important at the present moment, is that of the self-forming power treasured up in themselves!" William Elllery Channing (1780-1842) Have you found your self-forming power? I see a glimmer. I feel it building in me, a little step at a time. I have taken my life back.
I would be interested to hear what comes to mind when you hear that term "self-forming power." I love words, they are so powerful.
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