Monday, April 05, 2010
Its been a great day. The sun is shining, there is a cool breeze blowing. I have completed all my exercise and have stayed within my calorie range. I can't believe 92 days have passed since I started this trip again with Spark. It seems like I really want to learn to eat healthy and not worry about every little thing. I have learned something so far, I have to be committed to my program. I wanted so bad this weekend to go out and eat and I mean fried foods and sweets. I Know if I want to lose 10 pounds this month I have to stay on program. I know I could have anything I want but I questioned did I want ten pounds gone this month or did I want to eat stuff that wasn't good for me to start with. I decided to eat healthy. I feel like I am coming right along on learning to make choices that are good for me. Don't get me wrong I'm not perfect last month I only lost five pounds because I decided to eat fried seafood and have a brownie. I stayed within my calories, I did not binge, I planned to go to the coast and eat at a restaurant we like and eat fried and a sweet. I enjoyed it very much.
I also wanted some chip and dip and I got that. I enjoyed that. I was perfectly happy to get right back to eating my vegetables and making wise choices. I was in control. That is saying something for someone like me who will binge. I made the choices. I ate reasonable amounts and was satisfied. I am learning I have to make choices. I do not want anything in particular now except fresh vegetables. I am trying to convince myself I do not want anything different for maybe three or four months where I can lose 30 or 40 pounds. I do not want to get it in my head I can not have this or that. I can have anything I want, just do I really want it or do I need more water, more calcium, or what. Do I just need to talk it out with a Spark friend if I'm wanting to eat for other reasons beside nourishment. I know some times we want something because it just taste good. It may not be really good for us but we still want it. If I can control these kinds of craving then I will be back on track and live my life with no worries of should I have this or that, I will make the wise decisions. I learned something else kind of scary today, my heart got to racing and acting strange and I had just got through doing all my workout and I was checking my calories and nourishment and I did not have enough nourishment to run my body. I got real serious about eating enough to run the body today.
I can not do like I use to, try to do all the exercises, run a house, do office work on just a few calories. The calories that Spark recommends is right on the money and I know to lose and run your body right you have to eat. Wow. Have to eat. I have always thought you had to suffer when you dieted. Oh that's right I'm not dieting I'm learning a new life style. I love Spark and all my Spark friends.