Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Past memories, present experiences, future dreams
all are but different spokes upon the wheel of life.
Each turn of the wheel reminds us of where we came from,
of who we are today, and of what we hope to become.
To laugh often and much; To win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children; To earn the appreciation of honest critics
and endure the betrayal of false friends. To appreciate beauty; To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived; That is to have
succeeded. By Ralph Waldo Emerson
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
In such a land the idea of condemning people for their weight would be considered as absurd as condemning people for their height or for the color of their skin. I also believe that, in such a country, people would find it a good deal easier to lose weight than they do in our own culture, because losing (or not losing) weight would be considered a trivial thing. Perhaps, then, the last American diet--the one diet that would actually "work"--- is that (anti) diet that would grasp the almost Zen-like character of this truth: If weight is not an issue, then weight will not be an issue. If you want to achieve a healthy weight, stop wanting to lose weight and start wanting those things --an active life, good food, and the calm enjoyment of both--that, unlike weight loss, are unalloyed goods in and of themselves. I f you can manage to do this, you may well lose weight in the process; but far more important, you will get to a place where the weight you lose has been lost precisely because you no longer care, at some deep level of self-acceptance, whether you've lost weight or not.
If we Americans could somehow collectively reach that place, we might, ironically, become a good deal thinner than we are now. In a culture that accepted rather than demonized fat, people would find it much easier to eat well and be physically active than they do in America today, where these things are seen as tools for undertaking an often futile task, rather than as ways of living whose value is quite independent of whether they lead to weight loss or not. By Paul Campos
I found this very interesting could it really be this simple. It seems when you get in your groove it is no trouble to lose weight and we wonder why it has been so hard for so long.
You understand what I am saying you who have lost and are losing. When we are in the groove there is no problem to lose weight. In fact we are enjoying ourselves very much.
Monday, March 01, 2010
I really should be happy. I have lost 30 pounds so far. I took pictures yesterday and I hate to face reality. I did not see any difference from the start picture and I took it in the same blouse. My husband said he could tell and not to worry about it. I know I am on the first steps of changing my life and I'm not going to change over night. I know that taking these pictures are a must. It makes me see myself as I am. But reality is no fun. Well I just need to get a grip and dream of the day when I reach my goal.
You know I was looking at some pictures of when I was in my teens and I remember getting my little sister to take pictures of me where I could lose some weight. I was all of 140 or 150 pounds. I got down to 135 and everyone keep saying you are too tall (5'8") to be that thin.
I didn't think I was that thin but I would try to please everyone and would go up and down.
I just want to get to a healthy weight, whatever it is and stay there.
Its amazing how we let people rule our lives. My first husband would not let me buy clothes if I gained over a certain weight. I always had to be a show piece. My mother was the same way, no clothes for a fat girl, don't eat that, etc. I remember she bought me the latest diet mix so I would loss weight faster at age 15. Wow I don't know where all that came from. I am so glad that I have a supportive husband, that loves me at any size. He just wants me happy. I want to be healthy and happy. But you know I really wonder if me gaining 180 pounds is not some way of showing people in my past that I can get as fat as I want too.
Well I have got as fat as I want to and now I do not want it. Spark has been a God sent. I really needed the structure of keeping up with my calories and exercise and finally realizing that I needed to blog and share this journey with people that know what I am saying.
You know a lot of people look at you and say well just stop eating the wrong things, exercise and lose it, its no biggie. Well it is a biggie. I would not have got this big if it was so simple.
It seems simple when I am counting calories, exercising ever day, blogging, encouraging others. I wonder why I have not stayed with this. I have lost 100's of pounds and put them back on. I feel better, look better, etc. when I am following the program. I have clarity of mine and can do anything. The first time I put sugar in my body its like dope and I forget everything and go back to old habits. Well I have gone 57 days, lost 30 pounds and have no desire to do other wise. I may be rambling now and repeating myself so I will hush and go about cleaning the house and cooking supper. Please hold on to your programs and Spark and all the good people out their that is rooting for each other. We can do this and be better people for it and be able to help someone in our same shoes.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
We had a wonderful day. We fixed our lunch and went to the next state over. We just rode around and of course I had to do a little shopping. The sun was shining the temp was around 70. The grass is turning green and you see flowers popping up. There was no temptations, stress or worry about anything, just a relaxing day. It may snow next week but today was perfect. I hope everyone else also had a good weekend.
Saturday, February 27, 2010
I did good!! . The restaurant was beautiful. They had it decorated in the country western style. They had trees all through the place. They were beautiful. They were not alive. The servers were dressed in overalls and straw western hats. They had a good size buffet , salad bar, and dessert bar. I drank water, had baked catfish, boiled shrimp, turnip greens, broccoli and cheese casserole, crab legs, and mixed fruit. We had a great time. And you know I was afraid our friends would rag me about not eating fried and sweets and they were so busy eating no one paid attention to what I was eating. They have been our friends for a long time and they have seen me go up and down in my weight that they really don't pay attention. Or if they do they don't say anything. I have got to the point I don't say anything to them about loosing weight. I'm tire of talking about it to anyone except my friends on spark. Because I feel like they are the only ones that really understand anyway. I see it in my friends eyes when I mention weight anything that she does not want to hear it.
She will say well you can do it you know what to do. I love her to death and we are best friends but she has never had to worry about her weight much. Maybe 10 or 20 pounds. She just cuts out the candy and loses it and that is that. She really has never understood compulsive over eating or binges or not getting full. I get comfort from Spark because there are a lot of people here that does understand and we help each other.
I am so proud that I did not get to the buffet and freak out and want to over eat. I was real surprise that nothing real appealed to me in the fried section. The smell of the grease I did not like. I remember the further I went in my diet and the longer I ate healthy the more I wanted healthy. Now if I will just learn this year that when I reach my goal that is just the start of maintenance and that this way of living and eating is a way of life not something to reach and go back to unhealthy eating. I am not having any craving so far. I must be meeting all my needs. I know the main thing is I am faithful to log in to Spark everyday and read at least one blog a day to be inspired. Have a great weekend.
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