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Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I did not sleep good last night. I quess its getting off this medicine Hydroyz Pam. I wonder how long it takes to get out of your system. I did not let me not sleeping good keep me from exercising. I did my treadmill, weights, and bike. I always feel so good when I finish that. Its like I am proud of me. And you know I feel better, eating healthy. Second day eating healthy and staying around 1200 to 1300 calories. I pray I can keep on keeping on. I must for my health sake. I have really be blessed that I do not have a lot wrong with me. Really the only thing that is bothering me is these allergies. I wish they could find out what it is. Don't you just hate hearing its one of those things. We don't know what it is really.
Take lots of pills and you will be fine. Well I feel better when I do not take anything not even a Tylenol. I know some people have to take medicine to live and be healthy. But I just don't see taking a bunch of stuff you really do not need.
Quess what? I won 1000 goodies points this morning! I'm going to spend it on all the sweet people who have helped me so much. Really I would need a lot more than that. You know people do not know who is reading all the blogs and stuff and getting a lot of help and encouragement. I read all the stuff for years before I would join in any. This is really helping me taking part.
I read something this day and it said," Upon the journey of your life, the road will sometimes split in two. One path is the old. The other, new. Which one you choose is up to you. That's one of those hmmmmm moments. I think I'll choose the new. What a trip life is! emoticon

  
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MS.ELENI 3/24/2009 10:48PM

    You have a great attitude.Congrats on all the goodies. I feel lucky if I can get better than 1 point.LOL

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Another day

Monday, March 23, 2009

Well, another day. I really am thankful I have another day. I do not want to start the day off negativity. My sweet husband took me riding yesterday. We rode all day. I'm trying to come off of the medicine the Dr's. gave me for allergies. I am real nervous. I kept feeling like cars were coming at us, getting too close, a car passing us startled me. He went on the back roads where it would be more peaceful and it was. Everything turning green, the wild flowers blooming. In the middle of the woods you would run up on the most beautiful places. I reckon a lot of people like to get out to themselves. We live in the country ourselves and we love it. We were both raised in the city and the change really did us good.
I must proceed. I had read that some medicines would really hinder your weight loss and I have been fighting to lose since I started with all these allergies, last year. I had got down to 230 last May and then the allergies started and all the different medicines they tried to help me with. Some of it I could not take. I looked back in my diary and since last May I have bounced from 230 to 270 back and forth. I probably could blame the weight on a lot of things but I must admit I am the only one putting it in my mouth. I want to get off all medicines except my hormone cream, I'm not giving that up. I still over ate yesterday.
I had a double cheeseburger for lunch. I know why didn't I have a single. Then we ate supper at a chinese place. I overate and ate ice cream, sugar nuts, cheese cake. I know why didn't I just eat chicken and vegetables. We got home I ended up eating cookies, sweet popcorn and candy. I did not have a pill in me. Why did I feel the need to keep eating? Its like I never get satisfied. Well this is another morning, another day. I will try to do my best today. I am taking a break between my treadmill and weights with a cup of black coffee. This is totality rambling but for some reason it seems it is helping me.
I could not believe the response I got from blogging. Thank you all for caring, the fussing the encouragement the reaching out and letting me know there are other people that are going through this too. I have got to stop and go exercise. I will ramble more later. Thank again for caring. emoticon
well I made it through my weight lifting. I am trembling real bad, probably the medicine leaving my system. I fixed me 1/4 of egg beaters and a small tortilla, 50 calories, and another cup of coffee. I've got to fix something for lunch. My husband will be home for lunch. I'll probably fix him something in wraps. Wow I feel like I'm tripping. I feel real hyper, more than usual. I hate any kind of medicine. I like to have a clear head, well as clear as mine will ever get. I will do my bike riding after lunch, cook something wholesome for supper, straighten up the house, play with the dogs, blog some more. You know I never would do this. I was afraid people would think I was strange if I just let it flow. It had to be perfect. You know stiff and not real. Well I'm liking this so I'm just going to blog away. I'm not perfect. I will never be. But that's okay. Maybe I just need to relax, be myself, ever who that is. You know here I am an older person and I still not sure who I really am. I was always taught you have to be a certain way, don't put your hands on your face or fiddle with your hair, be a certain weight or you are not loved, etc. I need to stop that train of thought.!! I am a grown woman and I can be myself. I know I am a good wife, mother, grandmother and friend. I care about people and I show it. I want to lose this extra weight for me not because it will make me popular, loved more or whatever. I need to do it for me and my health. You know when I am eating healthy, counting my calories, exercising, I feel like I'm in control. I feel confident, brave, sure of myself, don't wear my heart on my sleeve. I love the way I feel. I wonder why I get off track the benefits really out weigh any sweets I could eat. I hate myself when I zone out and eat a bunch of junk. And that's what I do, zone out. Its like I am somewhere else watching myself pig out and can't stop it. I just kind of feel numb, no feelings at the moment. I know what I am doing is wrong but I do it anyway. I reckon if I could figure out why I do what I do I would be rich because I know I have heard other people say the same things. I went to OEA for a while a few years back and a lot of people have the same problems. It helped me for awhile and then I started seeing things I did not like, people sneaking off to meet other people, more of a gossip time than anything else, sharing diet pills, you name it, it was going on. I really wanted help not get involved in stuff like that. Now I have to be fair there was some there that wanted help too and they dropped out also. I've tried weight watchers, you name it I think I have tried it. I think Spark has helped more than anything else. I think maybe because I am learning to be myself and share me with other people. I have always been hurt when I let my guard down, parents, husbands, friends, pastors. I am trying to learn to just be me and to handle anything that is not pleasant, handle it, not run away. I have always run away either behind weight or withdrawing from people, over reading, over watching tv, over exercising. I think I am a compulsive person. It seems like everything I do I do too much. I just need to find what it means to moderate my life. I don't know if that is what I'm trying to say but you know get a grip and just don't overdo anything. I find I am blogging too much too. Oh well what's new.
I finally did my biking for 36 minutes. Its a recumbent bike and I can program it for all kinds of neat workouts. I had a healthy lunch. I've had a healthy supper and I will have some plain air popped popcorn tonight for a snack.
I seem like I'm not as nervous this evening as I was this morning. Getting off medicine is awful. I hope getting my system clean of all medicines and get back to just eating healthy foods and exercising will get me back on track.

  
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MS.ELENI 3/23/2009 11:12PM

    I take a lot of meds for my heart etc and it gets so old.But in my case it is keeping me alive so I take them.
Your blog reminds me of a lot of my blogs.I just talk about whatever and I enjoyed reading yours. You are doing great. I will be staying in touch emoticon

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VERITY50 3/23/2009 10:20PM

    God Bless! Just keep on keeping on! emoticon

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DIANESA 3/23/2009 11:06AM

  Good morning. I have not been able to exercise since March 12 as I have been ill with a cold and I feel my entire body ballooning up from 218 lbs. I appreciate your blog and am just getting around this site and not really sure if I ever make sense of it all. Be well, Diane

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Binging

Saturday, March 21, 2009

I have been binging for about two weeks. I get up each morning and say I am going to count my calories and do what is right. I end up eating and eating and eating. I have gained up to 270 as of Friday morning. What is wrong with me. It has been cookies, brownies, candy stuff like that. Just sweets. I know I will gain back to 340 or more if I do not stop now. Why do we do this slow suicide. In my case if I keep on it will be pretty fast. I like living and I like me when I am in control. I do not like me or anybody else when I do like this.

  
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LINDALOU142 3/22/2009 9:34AM

    Dollie, I totally understand your situation. I have been doing the same thing for the past couple of days. I can't figure out why I'm doing it.

We must take one day at a time and not beat yourself up about it. Have faith in the Lord that he will help you out of your current habits and steer you in the right direction.

I've really concentrated on journaling what I eat that really helps.

We are all in this together.....

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MS.ELENI 3/21/2009 5:07PM

    I understand so well.I have been in a similar place myself but not with sweets. But you have done awesome and you will get back on track.We both will. Hang in there.

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PAINTER41 3/21/2009 4:29PM

    Ok cut this out. Lets deal with one hour at a time. If you need to get all the junk food out of the house or under lock and key. GIVE someone else the key. Go in to the mirror and look your self in the eye and tell your self your a great person, you are a strong person, you love your self, you can do any thing you want to and stay there until the urge passes. Then get out of the house and around the block. Fresh air will do wonders. Make out the days menu before you do anything else and drink a quart of water while your doing it. I found that my body wanted water and lots of veg and that was why I had the horrible craving for all the junk. Do you know what that 70 lbs that you have lost looks like --23 and 1/3 cans of Crisco......think of what a great job you have done and don't let that devil in side you control you. Later Sharon

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NANWANTTOBE 3/21/2009 4:01PM

  I feel your pain I was binging for at least 6 months, I find the only thing I can do is stop eating all sweets and most refined carbs , than the cravings go away. for me indulging in sweets is like taking a drink for a alcoholic.

nanwantabe

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DINAHGIRL 3/21/2009 3:41PM

    I'm sorry you are having a rough time. A couple of ideas: first, get that tempting sweet food out of your house! It's not your friend. Go to the store and get some grapes, carrots, cheese rounds, melon -- stuff you can snack on. Second, take one day at a time. Get up and eat a good healthy breakfast - some yogurt, GoLean crunch, and a banana maybe. Mid-day, eat some carrots. Plan your meals out one day at a time. When you start craving, take a walk. I wish you well, Dollie!

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VERITY50 3/21/2009 3:36PM

    Sorry that you are feeling blue emoticon. I pray that you can give yourself another chance. Do not let a slip up become your downfall. Everyone has bad days or periods. Don't give up. Just start again. I'm pulling for you! emoticon

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