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One Foot Out of the Rut...

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

I just responded to an email and part of my response was how difficult I am finding it to climb out of this funk I've been in after some seriously negative experiences this past year. What I wrote was absolutely honest but, reading it over, I had to ask myself just how much effort am I REALLY making?!?


I have all of my Daily Spark Tasks for various teams and personal streaks / challenges and I'm doing pretty good on each - not 100% on all but some effort on each. I even take time every morning to track my progress on each personal streak / challenge. I check-mark that task on my daily Teaux Deaux List and move forward with my day...without taking half a second to celebrate, share with others, soak up my success or explore why I'm not successful so I might make a change.

And, maybe that is a huge contributor to my lack of progress in breaking out this rut. I mentally know that my efforts are valuable and will have long-lasting effect but I emotionally feel it's just time spent, pretty much nobody is interested and there is no 'value add' to my life.

That last sentence certainly sounds harsh, doesn't it? But, I think at least part of it is true - I have no one in my personal life that is terribly interested. Don't get me wrong - DH is a love and extremely supportive but, I think, he views my wellbeing activities as more of a hobby than anything else - and so they receive 'hobby level' attention from him.

And, I think I can lay that fact at my own feet - I always downplay my 'things' in favor of others and their things. Perhaps my lack of emphasis is partially to blame for his attitude.

Also, I no longer shout to the heavens (or DH) my successes, allowing others to revel with me, or share my failings or challenges, allowing others to support me...it seems much of my rut issues actually reside within me.

Sooooooo......be prepared for some truly dull posts as I begin figuring out how I will begin shouting to the heavens...


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SUNSHINE5268 9/2/2014 12:27AM

    youuuuuuuuuuuuuu are soooooooooooooo Inspiring, hugsssssss

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COOKIE_AT_51 9/1/2014 2:51PM

    Dolly ... we need to SHOUT together :) emoticon WE CAN DO THIS

This Fall challenge should be a good one. I will shout at ya and cheer you on if you promise not to let me "sneak"away into oblivion. Deal ;) ? emoticon

Hugs at ya girl ~ Cookie

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SUSANELAINE1956 8/28/2014 10:05AM

    I hope you do shout it out to all of us, and I'll be there to cheer you on and shout back! emoticon

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COOLMAMA11 8/28/2014 7:10AM

    Dolly I know how you feel, I have a husband that keeps telling me I am 70 and I look fine for my age, I am 75 lbs overweight and not healthy, but he doesn't seem to connect the two! He is always bringing sweets into the house, sometimes I think he must like me fat! He is a wonderful man, but just doesn't seem to understand that this is something I need to be doing! Good luck with your goals, I know you can figure things out, and keep plodding down that bumpy road to success! We are here for you, so get all the venting in you want!

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CIPHER1971 8/28/2014 3:55AM

    Celebrate all your successes, and scream out your failures, even if it is only on here, every word you write will a gem to other sparkies

Have a great day

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MAZZIE973 8/27/2014 11:53PM

    I am interested and will enthusiastically support you!!!

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KATIE5668 8/27/2014 11:30PM

    Let 'er rip...shout to the heavens...& send your message to the skies!
That is part of what we are here for...to support and to vent...
No one sadly is gonna care as much as we do...this is a journey that we are making for ourselves. It has to be a somewhat selfish motive....
to look better
to feel better
to enjoy life more

and never forget you can be in a rut or on a path..tis up to you!!
But know that we are here for you & will join in a collective shout to the moon if it will help you on your journey!!

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ZANNACHAN 8/27/2014 11:03PM

    Shout away! emoticon

I can sympathize--I tend to downplay stuff too, especially with my non-spark friends. I was talking with a friend just a few weeks ago who was surprised (!) that I work out 5 days a week... and yet I've been doing that pretty much for 5 years (!!!) now, though there are breaks here and there where I had to stop to give my body a break, or real life happening, or whatever. Still... the better part of 5 years, and she didn't even know about it.

Everything I've read says that celebrating the small and medium victories is an important part of a successful program, and that that is the one thing I probably struggle with the most. Especially rewarding my self with tangible rewards. So maybe some rewards will help you motivate you, too?

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HAWTGRANNY2014 8/27/2014 10:28PM

    I know what you mean. Hubby has had such a hard time this year...in the nursing home 3 times this year having antibiotic infusions. He has 3 days of dialysis every week and now they say they can't save the foot...so he is getting his leg from below the knee down amputated sometime next week. I am not exactly in a shouting mood but am doing sp coach to get back to being focused.
I have faith in you that you will find a way to rcupe. Pam

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COLOR-BLUE 8/27/2014 10:28PM

    Dolly,

I treasure your posts, so just lift your hands to heaven and SHOUT! Knock the walls of Jericho DOWN!!!

Blessings!

- Nancy Jean-
GA

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APRILRUSSELL3 8/27/2014 9:53PM

    I am looking forward to your blogs--shout on!!

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CHERRIET 8/27/2014 9:52PM

    Love your little cartoon character going in circles.

I understand & can relate to how some of our Spark Tasks can become just one more thing to check off a list. You've given me food for thought.

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AUNTALICE2 8/27/2014 9:31PM

    I am cheering you on!! You go girl!! You are worth it all! emoticon

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MAINEALI 8/27/2014 9:20PM

    I can't wait to hear you shout!

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An Eye Opener....Finally !

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Any who have read my posts and blogs over the past year...2 years perhaps?...may have noticed I'm struggling with motivation...desire...deciding if any of this is even worth the time and effort.

I've tried many avenues to re-ignite my 'spark' - and even had momentary success - but nothing strong and long-lasting. I've been a member of both the SparkGuy’s & Coach Nicole’s 10Min Teams for some time now but not been active.

Of late, I've had land in my INBOX some of SparkGuy's blogs which have kinda jump-started my thinking, if not yet my spark. The concept of a 10min streak has been floating in my brain but what kind of streak. I've already tried all of the cornerstones of a 'good' health and wellbeing plan...without great success.

I do realize those experiences that dulled my spark are not of me and I should not have allowed them to overcome me...however, seizing back control has been most difficult.

Yesterday, I headed to my FoxHole - which I have NOT been visiting regularly for quite some time - and settled in to complete some past projects, scrap others that aren't going to be finished (the need has passed) and to generally clean up and organize.

I wound up with these completed projects....
Bracelet (package décor for XMas gift)

Kitchen Window Drape Pull

Kitchen Window Drape Tieback

(looking at the pic, I see I could add a few beads...)

....and a realization – maybe my streak needs to be about some ME time. Not a single one of the above projects took appreciable time to complete nor will any bring me great acclaim – I’m likely the only one who’ll ever notice the drape pull or tie backs and the bracelet recipients (gonna make 5 more) may never even wear them – but I feel good about completing them and enjoy knowing I did so.

So, that’s gonna be my streak…not beading per se, but ME time. Maybe giving myself a mani, maybe doing some needlework, maybe reading…or biking…or a picnic…or hiking... Any activity I undertake will take more than 10 mins so this streak doesn’t really fit into the above two 10min teams but oh well. I think I’ll make it a 60min streak of ME Time, EVERY Day.

Here’s my Tracker for this week:
S-8.23: 60 mins (a bit more but I didn’t deliberately track….)
S-8.24:
M-8.25:
T-8.26:
W-8.27:
T-8.28:
F-8.29:
Week's Total:

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COLOR-BLUE 8/25/2014 7:22PM

    Dolly,

Your tie backs and jewelry are MAGNIFICANT!!!

Chris, SparkGuy doesn't do 10 minutes for his streaks! Sometimes, yes he does, but the blogs of his that I've read talks about increasing his time, and he's doing more than 10 minutes. Therefore, girl, you're right on time and in line with what Chris is doing! You GO, girl!

Blessings!

- Nancy Jean -
GA

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EMSSBEARS 8/25/2014 2:14PM

    It's easy to focus on everything and everybody else and lose track of yourself, job well done on finding yourself self again and starting this streak. And by the way the bracelets are beautiful anyone would be crazy not to love getting one of those I know I would love it. the recipients are lucky.

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/25/2014 2:09PM

    It can be so easy to lose track of yourself and your me time, so glad to see you on track Dolly. Love the bead work!

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VEENAS1 8/24/2014 6:28PM

    I think me time is great. The projects you have done are very nice. Thanks for sharing and good luck!

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ZANNACHAN 8/24/2014 6:12PM

    I love this, I really do.

I realized last year that me time was often the first thing cut from my over full schedule and it was something I desperately needed, so for the last 2 BLC rounds I included 15 minutes of me time every day as one of my goals. This could be anything I really *wanted* to do, but often it was making something, reading, or playing video games, depending on what I most needed at the time. All three activities--or others I chose--let me decompress, relax, and revive that part of me that makes me ME. And creativity--whether it's beading, knitting, braiding, writing fiction etc.--is a really big part of that for me, so your time spent beading really resonates with me.

And I just realized that since the ending of the last BLC round--and with moving, moving again, buying the van, buying the house, etc.... I think my Me time is falling through the cracks again. So I need to bring it back to the forefront again.

Thanks for the reminder.

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WILSONWR 8/24/2014 5:54PM

    We all need some "me" time. After all, we are what this journey is all about! Enjoy your new dedicated time.

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LIFEISPURRFECT 8/24/2014 4:46PM

    Thank you for sharing this post. I've struggled a bit late and you definitely have giving me something to ponder. I like the idea of scheduling some "ME" time. emoticon

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LIVINTODAY 8/24/2014 4:20PM

    I think this IS the breakthrough you have needed. We all need ME time and we also need to feel productive and creative.

Your finished projects are beautiful!

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HAWTGRANNY2014 8/24/2014 4:14PM

    Awesome Dolly. All I have seen was doing exercise, doing housework etc. Me time is so very important. I am glad that you are finding time for life and fun. Pam

D ull is no way to live
O nce you have more time to give
L et yourself have free time to play
L et off some steam and dance the day away
Yeah Dolly, you go girl!


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CHRIMSONFYRE 8/24/2014 3:37PM

    I struggle with motivation all the time. I basically just have to make myself do it or I will find a reason why I didn't.

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KCSMOM9 8/24/2014 2:58PM

    "Me time" makes everything better! Enjoy it! emoticon

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SUSANELAINE1956 8/24/2014 2:04PM

    Dolly - How exciting that you are feeling energized again. Yay for the me time. It makes such a big difference. Thanks for sharing your work. I love them. I would sure notice and appreciate those kinds of things in your house. emoticon

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AUNTALICE2 8/24/2014 1:57PM

    Good for you!! Sparking is not just about weight loss but growing as a person and stretching ourselves in new directions. It is essential that you have me time because you need to love you so you can love others. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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JENSHAINES 8/24/2014 1:31PM

    Dolly - so glad you're finding that SPARK! I think SPARKing is about LIFE, not just weight loss. GREAT insight here! And huge emoticon to you!

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COOLMAMA11 8/24/2014 1:23PM

    emoticon I hear you Dolly, with all the illness I have been having I am really pushing just to get in here and post, the Spark is dwindling!
It is important to have ME time, I learned a long time ago, life can't be all work we need time to play, and to bring the inner child out in us!
We will succeed, it just takes some of us a little longer!

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EMMACORY 8/24/2014 1:14PM

    Your "me time" is essential. Enjoy each moment! emoticon

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52BINCE 8/24/2014 1:03PM

    Sounds like you have reached a rut in your quest for health fitness n healthy eating! been there done that, hope you will be encouraged to know we all face the same things in life.... I added you as a friend hope its ok? Add me if you like n also you will know more about me by seeing my page n reading my blogs! My name is David or as all on sparks call me 52BINCE......

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SQUIRRELMOMMA1 8/24/2014 1:03PM

    Hurray! We all need a little ME time every day. I enjoy sitting for a couple of hours each day just reading and relaxing. I even log it on my start page so I'm sure to do it too. emoticon

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Today's (8.12.14) Plan...

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Looking at today's list of ToDos, I've decided to not officially shift unfinished Monday tasks to today. If I find a window of opportunity, I'll pull stuff from Monday's list to complete...if not, then not.

HOUSE
Kitchen: Clean out Frig, Clean Appliances, Pot Rack, Tile, Countertops, Cabinetry , Dust, Lights, Switchplates, Window
Laundry Rm: Countertops, Tile, Cabinetry, Dust, Door, Jamb, Lights, Window, Switchplates
Dining Rm: Computer Armoire, Tile, Tapestry, Dust, Windows, Switchplates
Living Rm: Wood Floor, Tapestry, Dust, Windows, Mirror, Sliding Door
Laundry
Ironing
Plan Weekly Menu
Create Grocery List
Gather Trash
Turn Composter

FINANCE
Balance Accts, Debt Snapshot, Update Quicken, Budget

HEALTH / WELLBEING
Walk 7 Miles, SED: 10min Lower Body Blast w/Dumbbels

SPARK GOALS
30mins Cardio (Wk Goal: 150mins), 18mins ST (Wk Goal: 90mins)

GENERAL
Follow-Up ADAW, SARC Nets Reminder, XMas Beading

PERSONAL
1hr Study, Mani, Wine, Women, Wealth Mtg

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EMSSBEARS 8/12/2014 10:42PM

    Lots of activity there good luck with all that work.



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MNABOY 8/12/2014 9:59PM

    That is a couple of days for me

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MARYBETH4884 8/12/2014 7:58PM

    Busy day planned!! Hope it goes well! What a sense of accomplishment at the end!! emoticon

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COLOR-BLUE 8/12/2014 5:28PM

    Dollface,

Go head, girl, and bring a case of whoop behind! You're amazing!!!

Blessings,
>- Nancy Jean -
GA

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MYTHMYTH 8/12/2014 2:57PM

    Your lists are inspiring and really helpful.

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AUNTALICE2 8/12/2014 2:43PM

    My goodness! Do you have such a long list every day? I am impressed! I consider doing 20 minutes of chair exercise a lot. You sure are a busy girl! I hope you continue to find time for yourself! emoticon

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SHARJOPAUL 8/12/2014 2:38PM

    Sounds like a BUSY day!

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/12/2014 1:23PM

    Just do what you can and be proud that an accomplishment is indeed just that, an accomplishment!!

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LADYBUG1943 8/12/2014 12:30PM

    So you're a beader? Going to check your pics for your work. If you don't have any there, would you please post some? Have friends who bead; I just use it to add to my crazy quilting.

You have an ambitious list here. Very smart to put it all down!

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Today's (8.11.14) Plan...

Monday, August 11, 2014

8.12: Well, I didn't fit it all in so some will need to shift to today's plan. The ADAW (short wave radio project) activity took much longer than planned but it will be a good thing once I have everything in place. Then, DH wasn't doing great after his first day back in the office so I decided he was better served crashing rather than exhausting himself at the gym.

8.11 Plan
I've been making up these plans each day but not been posting here...time for that step always seem to escape me. Today, I'm delaying my day's start so I might fit in this last step.

Rather than re-format to my previous form, I'm gonna save some time with a simple copy / paste:

HOUSE
MSBa: Vanity / Mirror / Tub / ✔Shower / ✔Toilet / Carpet / Dust / Door / Jamb / Switchplates / Lights / Cabinetry
MSBe: ✔Carpet / ✔Dust / ✔Doors / ✔Jambs / ✔Switchplates / ✔Lights / ✔Windows
PR: ✔Vanity / ✔Mirror / ✔Toilet / Tile / ✔Dust / ✔Door / ✔Jamb / ✔Switchplates / ✔Lights
USBa: Vanity / Tub / Toilet / Tile / Dust / Door / Jamb / Switchplates / Lights / Cabinetry
✔Traffic Path Tile
DS Baseboards / ✔Mirrors
✔Gather Trash

FINANCE
✔Balance Accts / ✔Pay Bills / ✔Budget
Check Balances: ✔Gift Cards / ✔VIP / ✔HSA / ✔SRP

HEALTH / WELLBEING
Walk 7 Miles
✔Nike+
✔GYM: FW
✔SED: Squat with Front Medicine Ball Raises

SPARK GOALS
✔30mins Cardio (Wk Goal: 150mins)
✔18mins ST (Wk Goal: 90mins)

GENERAL
✔Follow-Up ADAW
✔Follow-Up w/DH Dr
✔Order RX

PERSONAL
✔1hr Study
✔Tend Feet

Seems like so much when I read it thru....all must be done tho so best get to it!

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STRONGNFIERCE 8/12/2014 9:25AM

    Love the planning Dolly!
Keep up the amazing work you are doing!
Good luck!

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AUNTALICE2 8/11/2014 9:19PM

    Wow!! You sure move!! I have not made a list of what I do because it would be miniscule compared to yours! I admire your attitude! emoticon

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COLOR-BLUE 8/11/2014 9:00PM

    Dolly,

You're a machine. It does look like so much, but with you're remark, it's something you can handle. Please let me know how you did throughout the day.

Blessings,

- Nancy Jean -
GA

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HAWTGRANNY2014 8/11/2014 8:22PM

    That is a lot but I know if you planned it..you will follow through. At the end you should have scheduled a long , hot , bath lol.

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Today's (7.29.14) Plan...

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

While I didn’t accomplish 100% of yesterday’s goals, I did complete 57% of my ‘Assigned Tasks’ about which I feel very good.

Another 26% I either started but had to bag, were canceled altogether or were shifted to Tue (today) due to a family issue that arose – these things happen.

Only 17% of my tasks got no play at all, one of which was the 9.215 Miles…which really was a stretch, at a minimum.

Not a bad start to my ‘Re-Start’….and here’s today’s Plan – some of yesterday’s plan is included and clarified…

In addition to regular weekday activities and my FlyLady tasks, I’ve set the following goals to be completed today:

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Update Quicken entries
Update Debt Snapshot
Check Gift Card Balances
Verify / Publish HamFest FB Page Link
Study for HAM License
Set up Nike+

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Complete retrieving Kitchen after weekend
Clean Master Bath Shower & Tub
Laundry (stepping away to put in my 3rd load..)
Iron for 2hrs (this & last week's)

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Dinner is on my own and I don’t always eat well on my own-need to identify a nutritious option
Nine 8oz Water Glasses

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Walk at least 10,000 Steps
60 FM (30 ST / 30 Cardio)

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Crunch Challenge
LCW Video
Walk 3 Miles

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Start first XMas Beading Project
Read for one hour

Again, I may have over-planned but some days I can just do more – maybe today is one of those days.

  
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COOLMAMA11 8/3/2014 12:43PM

    Wow that is quite the plan..you Rock my friend, emoticon

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JUSTYNA7 7/30/2014 10:12AM

    Such "real" goals. I like lists for helping me focus and stay on track. Christmas goals made me shake my head but a long time ago I HAD to start planning in the summer. I'll think about that. You can do this! Goals are not just for achieving but for giving us perspective and you are doing great. Good luck with the ham license.

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COLOR-BLUE 7/29/2014 8:58PM

    Dolly,

Based on what you had planned yesterday, and what you actually got done, I'm AMAZED!!! You're right, things do happen and it changes the course of action, but you're getting it done!!!

Be blessed,

- Nancy Jean -
GA

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HAWTGRANNY2014 7/29/2014 8:15PM

    Dolly as much as you plan for a day is a lot...so if you get half done...it was great.

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PINKPANTHERS 7/29/2014 3:27PM

    Wow, that is quite the plan! Best of luck, way to stay active! emoticon emoticon

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WENDYDANCER 7/29/2014 2:56PM

    Wow! You go, girl!!

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MYTHMYTH 7/29/2014 2:36PM

    Hope you will post a picture of the Christmas beading project when you get it finished.

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STRONGNFIERCE 7/29/2014 1:26PM

    Even if you dont accomplish it all in one day, you'll get there, as long as you keep moving and keep checking the boxes, it's all progress!!
Keep it up! You're doing great!

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MARYBETH4884 7/29/2014 1:22PM

    Ambitious day!! Even if you over plan, you don't have to think of things to fill your time. What doesn't get done today can be postponed! I know my day never goes exactly as planned, so I aways have a list of things to do. Great idea planning in relaxation with reading. Those moments are needed to keep our sanity!! emoticon

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STONECOT 7/29/2014 12:59PM

    I also like to overplan, as then I have options if the days circumstances change. I accept that a lot of tasks won't be completed, but then a lot will. Keep up the good work!

PS I have an ironing pile at the moment that rivals Everest! emoticon emoticon

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PREDEL 7/29/2014 12:41PM

    All I can say is you are emoticon ! This is quite the re-start. I am so impressed! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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