Wednesday, August 27, 2014
I just responded to an email and part of my response was how difficult I am finding it to climb out of this funk I've been in after some seriously negative experiences this past year. What I wrote was absolutely honest but, reading it over, I had to ask myself just how much effort am I REALLY making?!?
I have all of my Daily Spark Tasks for various teams and personal streaks / challenges and I'm doing pretty good on each - not 100% on all but some effort on each. I even take time every morning to track my progress on each personal streak / challenge. I check-mark that task on my daily Teaux Deaux List and move forward with my day...without taking half a second to celebrate, share with others, soak up my success or explore why I'm not successful so I might make a change.
And, maybe that is a huge contributor to my lack of progress in breaking out this rut. I mentally know that my efforts are valuable and will have long-lasting effect but I emotionally feel it's just time spent, pretty much nobody is interested and there is no 'value add' to my life.
That last sentence certainly sounds harsh, doesn't it? But, I think at least part of it is true - I have no one in my personal life that is terribly interested. Don't get me wrong - DH is a love and extremely supportive but, I think, he views my wellbeing activities as more of a hobby than anything else - and so they receive 'hobby level' attention from him.
And, I think I can lay that fact at my own feet - I always downplay my 'things' in favor of others and their things. Perhaps my lack of emphasis is partially to blame for his attitude.
Also, I no longer shout to the heavens (or DH) my successes, allowing others to revel with me, or share my failings or challenges, allowing others to support me...it seems much of my rut issues actually reside within me.
Sooooooo......be prepared for some truly dull posts as I begin figuring out how I will begin shouting to the heavens...
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Any who have read my posts and blogs over the past year...2 years perhaps?...may have noticed I'm struggling with motivation...desire...deciding if any of this is even worth the time and effort.
I've tried many avenues to re-ignite my 'spark' - and even had momentary success - but nothing strong and long-lasting. I've been a member of both the SparkGuy’s & Coach Nicole’s 10Min Teams for some time now but not been active.
Of late, I've had land in my INBOX some of SparkGuy's blogs which have kinda jump-started my thinking, if not yet my spark. The concept of a 10min streak has been floating in my brain but what kind of streak. I've already tried all of the cornerstones of a 'good' health and wellbeing plan...without great success.
I do realize those experiences that dulled my spark are not of me and I should not have allowed them to overcome me...however, seizing back control has been most difficult.
Yesterday, I headed to my FoxHole - which I have NOT been visiting regularly for quite some time - and settled in to complete some past projects, scrap others that aren't going to be finished (the need has passed) and to generally clean up and organize.
I wound up with these completed projects....
Bracelet (package décor for XMas gift)
Kitchen Window Drape Pull
Kitchen Window Drape Tieback
(looking at the pic, I see I could add a few beads...)
....and a realization – maybe my streak needs to be about some ME time. Not a single one of the above projects took appreciable time to complete nor will any bring me great acclaim – I’m likely the only one who’ll ever notice the drape pull or tie backs and the bracelet recipients (gonna make 5 more) may never even wear them – but I feel good about completing them and enjoy knowing I did so.
So, that’s gonna be my streak…not beading per se, but ME time. Maybe giving myself a mani, maybe doing some needlework, maybe reading…or biking…or a picnic…or hiking... Any activity I undertake will take more than 10 mins so this streak doesn’t really fit into the above two 10min teams but oh well. I think I’ll make it a 60min streak of ME Time, EVERY Day.
Here’s my Tracker for this week:
S-8.23: 60 mins (a bit more but I didn’t deliberately track….)
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Looking at today's list of ToDos, I've decided to not officially shift unfinished Monday tasks to today. If I find a window of opportunity, I'll pull stuff from Monday's list to complete...if not, then not.
Kitchen: Clean out Frig, Clean Appliances, Pot Rack, Tile, Countertops, Cabinetry , Dust, Lights, Switchplates, Window
Laundry Rm: Countertops, Tile, Cabinetry, Dust, Door, Jamb, Lights, Window, Switchplates
Dining Rm: Computer Armoire, Tile, Tapestry, Dust, Windows, Switchplates
Living Rm: Wood Floor, Tapestry, Dust, Windows, Mirror, Sliding Door
Plan Weekly Menu
Create Grocery List
Balance Accts, Debt Snapshot, Update Quicken, Budget
HEALTH / WELLBEING
Walk 7 Miles, SED: 10min Lower Body Blast w/Dumbbels
30mins Cardio (Wk Goal: 150mins), 18mins ST (Wk Goal: 90mins)
Follow-Up ADAW, SARC Nets Reminder, XMas Beading
1hr Study, Mani, Wine, Women, Wealth Mtg
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